Well I feel kind of better

But not really. Susan and I went out and she made me feel a little better, at least we had some laughs. We got to see Mike B and we talked with him for a while. They just dissed my boyfriend, and it made me feel a tad better. We also went to this great place called Romio's, I think, and it was so good. I have a huge sandwich leftover for tomorrow...mmmm...fuck _____. That was my motto for the evening. Susan was ready to fuck shit up...I guess it's just not fun to feel like you've been rejected...not only in the "girlfriend" department but also in the "just friends" category...I feel like I got dissed in both. Susan has it right though...you feel like you know so much about a person and know them so well and want to be accepted by them cause you think they're really great, or something, and then to be totally ignored, it sucks, but you never really knew them to begin with and they sure as hell don't know you from the next psycho, so what can you expect? Perhaps I am reading waaayyy to much into it, which is possible, but I can't help but feel that if he really liked me or was interested at all, that I would have heard something so looking at it from that angle I have to assume that there is no interest. Ok, I'm tired and going to log on one more time to see if I get any love...from anyone, I've learned not to expect one from him. I'm sad for the first time in a long long time. Waaaahhhh.