Friday 4/30, Came home after work and showered and did my hair cause I figured I would be going out with the boys. Fell asleep then B called and said he was in Kirkland so he just came over and showered, and then we went to Mom's for dinner, a polenta dish, then we went to B's to get his stuff cause we decided to come back to my house and hang out for the evening. Brad sent me a text saying they were going to be hanging out in Tacoma, um...no thanks. So then Kristel called and I told her, so we're going to try to get together with them today maybe...but we'll see if it actually happens. Got B's stuff, came back here, watched Old School and went to sleep.

Oh night before last, there was some guy yelling at the top of his lungs at 1:00 in the morning and all I remember was "I'm going to punch him in his fucking face." Um yeah.

Today Dad is supposed to call me, so we'll see when he gets over here what we're going to do.

Thursday 4/29, Was supposed to go dancing, so I got ready after work and went over to B's house and we just hung out there but Susan hurt her arm so she wasn't sure if she was going to want to go. Then Julien called saying he was going to be there and so we could chat and I could tell him all about B, but then when Susan didn't want to go, I didn't really want to go either, so I left B's house and called Susan, she didn't want to go, so I called Julien and he understood, and said "in another life" but hopefully it won't come to that, and we'll actually get to hang out in person at some point. For the time being though, we'll have the phone and myspace so we'll have to make due, but we've done pretty good thus far so I don't anticipate losing touch with him.

Wednesday 4/28, Woke up this morning and left B in my bed and gave him my key so he could lock himself out. B sent me a text asking if he could come over this evening after skating on MI, so I came home and relaxed and then took a shower and Kassie called me when I was in the middle of it, hung up with her, and two minutes later B called me, but luckily he had my key so he just came in and I finished in the shower. He showered too cause he was all sweaty from skating and then we just talked forever then I made some dinner. We went to DQ and got blizzards and I took him to Peggy's to show him where I work and Peggy's place cause it's beautiful, then we came back here and did "stuff" and then he left at 9:45. I'm tired and am going to go to bed here in a minute.

I found my French flash cards and started going through some of them, and actually surprised myself with how many I remember. Maybe I'll take them to work with me tomorrow and practice since I'm out of magazines to look at...

Tuesday 4/27, Went shopping after work and bought some new shit, but the one thing I really wanted to get (and the cheapest) I couldn't find at the mall so I had to come home and order it online. Won't be here until next week. Boooo. Um...then went to Mom's so she could clean my wound, but Kassie was there so she did it instead. Ate some dinner, talked with the fam, then went home and B called and came over for a sleep over. We just talked and made out and went to bed at about 12:30 or so I'm going to say.

Monday 4/26, I just relaxed here I think...talked to B on the phone since he was in Oregon...and went to bed early...

Why

does my mole still hurt? It's been a week, shouldn't it not really be hurting anymore? I probably haven't been cleaning it as often as I'm supposed to, but how the hell am I expected to reach back there...I can't. So I have to either have B, Mom, or Kassie do it. Kassie said it didn't look bad, but the fact that it is still sore, worries me.

Ok, off to take a shower.

Sunday 4/24, Woke up and got ready and went to Volunteer Park and just walked around forever and walked around the surrounding neighborhood too and looked at all of the beautiful houses and we both named plants that we knew when we passed them…it was cute. We saw this guy wearing a shiny white speedo tanning and listening to his radio, and another guy doing all of these weird kicks and yoga moves. Funny. We left to go pick up Seth so he could get his Akira books from B’s house. Then we left and went to my house so I could get a change of clothes for the Killers show, then went to Mom’s and helped her get ready for Passover. What an ordeal. I didn’t know it took so long with all of that reading out of the little book…I was getting nervous that we wouldn’t even get to eat before it would be time for me to leave, but luckily Theresa kept things moving and we got through it quicker. Dinner was very good, and dessert was even better cause Kassie made her chocolate/oatmeal/coconut/peanut butter bars. Sooo good. Theresa thinks Brandon is very cute and everyone was very interested in how we met, asking many questions…they all thought it was pretty cute. So we left at 7:30 and I dropped B off at his house, oooh, I almost forgot, he bought me an orchid…so cute and sweet, awww. Ok, feel free to throw up now. Anyway, so then I went to Missy’s but on the way listened to my voicemail and Dad is coming up here this weekend, very exciting, but should be interesting cause Mike McCarthy is getting married so Brad sent me a message on myspace and he’s going to be up here, and I’m guessing some of the other EN boys will be as well. I think Kristel needs to make out with Tyler, and if he’s not here, she can make out with Brad…he did lick her boob at Andy’s wedding after all. So I got to Missy’s and changed, then we left for the show and parked pretty close, but this large “militant” white woman was giving Missy a look so we tried to steer clear. Got into the Moore, and got upstairs and the girl is like “sit anywhere” fucking weird, so we sat way up at the top and it was soooo hot. Their vocals kind of sucked, but Brandon Flowers is hot, so it’s ok. They didn’t play the one song I really wanted them to play but it was still a decent show. Drove Missy home, and then I went home and roomie wasn’t there and I went to bed.

Saturday 4/23, Got up early and left B’s to go to Mom’s for our day of shopping. Took a shower and waited for Kassie to show up, then left. Went to U-Village and went to Mercer, but everything was too expensive so we went to Anthropologie and tried a bunch of shit on, but only got one shirt, which looked better on me in white, but Mom and Kassie talked me into getting the blue. Then we went to lunch at some Italian-type restaurant. Went to Chico’s so Mom could buy some clothes and she ended up spending like $850 on clothes. She was freaking out, but come on, she NEVER buys clothes so we told her it was fine. Then we went to Nine West and she bought me some little black flats. Then we left and went home. I took off from there to get ready for Michelle’s surprise party. Went home, showered and did my hair. Got the directions to Michelle’s from the invite, even though I’ve been there like 3 times, it’s been a while and I was afraid I would get lost. After following the directions, I was totally lost, they totally fucked up and put me deep in some maze of a neighborhood and Kristel wasn’t answering her cell to rescue me, so I attempted to make my way back out and did, and then got back on the road and tried to find it on my own…and I did! I was so proud of myself, and I was the first one there so I just chatted with Michelle’s parents and sister. Kristel got there and we just laughed and talked, then we had dinner and Kristel was doing some very helpful demonstrations with her hotdog to show me how I should “please” Brandon. It was soo funny…and we were making inappropriate jokes about Michelle’s cute 23 year old brother and cousin. Kristel, Nicole and I went to the store to get some Imodiam which was pretty funny, and I made a joke about Kristel's music, and she almost made me get out and walk home. It was a fun party and Michelle and I talked about Scott Peterson and I’m even more creeped out than I was before…weird. So I left there and went home to pack a bag to go to B’s, so I did that and drove over, we pretty much made out and went to bed, with some talking too…my issues with sex, penises, etc.

Friday 4/22, After work I went home and showered and got ready for dinner at Mom’s for Kassie’s birthday. I was the first to get there and Mom wanted sign the card I got Kassie, but Dad didn’t cause he didn’t think it was funny. Scooter the squirrel would give his left nut to make sure you have a good birthday, or something like that…that Scooter, he was so cute (I gave the same one to Missy…maybe I’m the only one who really thinks it’s that funny…don’t know). So then Kassie and Zack show up and we’re all just hanging out with Grandma and Grandpa talking and eating. Then Chelsea got there and I helped her decorate a little. Brandon called me and I told him that it was going to be a little later than I had anticipated cause we got a late start on dinner. Dinner was really good (like 5 courses) with all of the kids sitting at one end of the table, but the dogs kept peeing on the deck by Kassie’s chair…we all just laughed and had a good time. Then Dad wanted everyone at the table to guess when Kassie would have her first baby…so I guessed Sep 1, 2011 I think cause she’ll be 29 at that time…so, yeah, that was weird, Dad was like, “I’m going to put it into the computer” um…ok. Then we had dessert which was good, but I didn’t want to eat too much of anything cause my shirt shows my stomach and I didn’t want it to be all big for Missy’s party. So I left there and went to B’s and picked him up. We went to Missy’s where she didn’t know there was going to be a party, but Erick pulled it off. So we hung out there for a while and I talked to Katie and Erin a little bit, Missy busted out her old Jem doll with swivley hips and red flashing earrings. Saw Randy but didn’t say anything to him…would rather not deal with the drama, but at least he didn’t throw a temper tantrum this time. So we left and went back to B’s house. Then one of his friends called, Jason or Rick I think, and said they were at the College Inn and wanted to know if we were going to come down, so we did. Seth was there too, and Rick’s girlfriend who apparently no one really likes. Then Sameer came and he hung out at our table, he seems pretty nice…and funny too. Hung out there a while, then Rick and his woman left, the boys kept ordering pitchers of beer so B told me I would probably have to drive his car home. We left around…um…midnight maybe…I really have no idea, we were there for a while. I drove his car back. We made out for a little bit then went to sleep.

I took my film in to get developed this morning so I have to do my grocery shopping after work today and then I’m going to go pick it up. Busy fucking weekend, I just want to go home and relax and go to bed early tonight.

Kassie's B-day today

So I'm going to go home after work and shower then head over there for that. Yay! Then shopping tomorrow...should be interesting.

Thursday 4/21, I went home after work and showered and washed the hair and tried to call Julien but he didn't answer so I told B I was leaving and we'd figure it out when I got there. There was soooo much traffic on the Eastside, it was ridiculous...there was a giant accident right before the 405 interchange, then it took me 30 minutes just to make it to I-5 from there, it was so crazy. Once I hit 5 there wasn't any traffic AT ALL, and I flew going 70 all the way to B's exit. So nuts. So no word from Jason and by that point it was almost 7:30 so we went into the U-District and got some gyros, and I told him about when Missy and I got some and there were french fries in them...sooo random. Then it was about 8:15 so I said we should go see Kassie so he could meet her, so we did that, and just kind of talked for a little while, but we had to leave a little after 9 so that he could go to bed. Drove back to his house and then I left. Called Susan when I got home and we chatted for a little while then I started a new book and fell asleep. It's so weird cause I've been going to sleep at like 10:30 at the latest every night. I used to stay up until like midnight every night, but now I can't stay awake past 11. Weird. Pat came home late and I didn't hear him, which is nice, cause usually he turns on the tv and lets it blare until midnight...I hate having a roommate, especially one who leaves all of his fucking shit all over the place and doesn't know how to clean up after himself. I'm going to talk to him about the sink at some point, but I haven't seen him in a couple of days so maybe at the next opportunity I will. My day is almost over thank God.

Hello!

"Scott Peterson" sent me a message that said:

Subject: ouch (!) denied again
Body: I'm not supposed to take it personally am I?

Um...yeah, chief, you are! I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU! I guess I'm going to have to bite the bullet and just tell him. Why are guys so fucking dense sometimes? Get a clue...if I were interested you would know. I would respond to your messages, not ignore them! Golly nads, seriously, this is ridiculous. I'm so irritated, but feel like it's my own fault for engaging in the first place. Maybe I'll just cut, paste and send Kristel's message to him. How irritating, I just don't like having to feel like a bitch, and that's what I feel like in this situation. He seems nice enough, but I'm just not interested! Arg. Web weaver.

What has

happened to Craig? He hasn't logged on myspace for 2 days and he hasn't written in his online journal for 2 weeks. I wonder what's going on. Either he's dying or he found a girl...or something. Who knows.

"Scott Peterson" tried to IM me today but I just logged off...dude, get a clue...I wonder what he was going to say though...like, "I didn't mean to freak you out with my message" or if it was going to be like "You bitch, I know where you live, you better talk to me on the phone!" either way, I don't want to talk to him. Susan has offered to take care of it, but I'm hoping ignoring him will just make him go away. Here's to hoping.

Tuesday 4/19, B spent the night and we got Thai for dinner and just talked. I actually slept pretty well, the best yet. I guess it's getting used to sleeping next to someone, or having someone in your bed. I'm adjusting...except that he sleeps in the middle of the bed! I asked him this morning if he was trying to push me over the edge, and he moved over. Plus he twitches in his sleep...a lot...so when he's holding me or has his hand on me it kind of startles me.

Peggy and Jim are gone, and she told me I can leave at 4:30 every day, yay! So today I'm going to go over to Mom's and work out and I'll probably try to score some dinner over there too. We're going to have Kassie's dinner at home and then go shopping and have lunch on Saturday with Mom...which should be interesting and fun at the same time.

Got my mole

removed this morning then ran errands in Bellevue. Susan and I planned to walk after work, so we met at the park and I only did two laps before she got there, and then we did two laps and sat and talked...which was fun...I'm looking forward to the sunny weather so we can do it at least on a weekly basis. It's a good opportunity to chat and exercise at the same time.

B is here for a sleepover so I have to go answer the door....

Sunday 4/17, Went to the store and then ate lunch/got ready for the open house...did that for 3 hours, got paid, went home made some calls and then B came to my house and we went over to Mom's together but stopped at the store for ice cream. Droohv and Akemi were coming for dinner too, and so we just hung out there and waited for everyone to arrive. Ate dinner but didn't manage to make it through the meal without Dad screaming at Jake and making a scene, with Alix involved too, so that was pleasant. Had dessert and then B and I took off cause he had to work early this morning and went back to my house, he left, then I watched my shows and went to bed...though Auntie Lauryn called me at 11:00 and woke me out of my semi-sleep state.

Doctors appointment tomorrow for my mole...I'm nervous! I'll write more later, I have to go to lunch.

Friday 4/15, I went to B's and we just hung out until it was time to go to The Upper Hand show at ToST in Fremont. We picked up Jason and then went down there and didn't have to pay the cover cause we got there before 9. They didn't go on until about 10 so B and I just sat on this little ottoman type thing and talked and kind of made fun of people, like the guy with the leather vest and hat, and the 40 year old woman who we're going to have a threesome with, or the guy who just got out of jail and was trying to molest his girlfriend. So UH played and they were pretty good, but then we decided to call it a night so we took Jason home and then we went back to B's and went to bed.

Saturday 4/16, Got up around 10ish and got ready and went over to see Mom and that went fine. Jake was trying to make me mad and was being annoying but what else can you expect? It went fine otherwise and we decided to go get some lunch so we went to the little teriyaki place on MI and then went to Golden Gardens and walked around on the beach a little and skipped rocks. Then we went back to his house cause he was going to play pickle ball but we ended up laying on his bed for a while until Jason called and so we went and picked him up and went to Rick's to pick up the paddles, and then Rick and Seth decided to come too so we all walked up to the courts, but I talked on the phone for most of their game, to Kassie, and then I talked to Zach for a litle bit. After pb we walked back, drove Jason to his place, went to B's for him to shower and get ready and then we headed out. We got to Pacific Place right at 7:30 and parked on the lowest level, and when we got up there Zach was waiting and gave B a hug, and he was like, "Sorry I'm a hugger" it was funny. So we were seated but the other parties weren't there yet...then Nicole, Zach's friend and his girlfriend showed up and we had a goofy waiter, and were sitting right by the fireplace. The waiter forgot to put B's meal in so then he comped it, which was good, we all did a little talking and stuff, and Zach and Nicole were all over each other, but she seems nice and is cute too. I had met Zach's friend before when we went down to Portland and we saw Something About Mary with him, but he didn't remember me...long time ago I guess...his girlfriend was really nice and we talked with her a bunch, but then it was time to go so we went back to B's and laid on his bed cause we were both stuffed and we fell asleep there, but I woke up around 11:30 and decided to go home, so I did, and roomie wasn't here when I got here, which was nice, and I just crashed.

Sunday 4/17, Slept in until about 10:20, and had dreams about pirates auctioning me off for $163,000 and the Libertines guys were there...weird.

Crazy crazy crazy

So I decided to tell B my story about Julien, and I was like, he works at this restaurant called Campane, and B's like, "I know that place, I used to know a guy who worked there, he was a skateboarder" so I'm like, wait a minute, what's his name, and he's like "Jason" aaahhh. So B totally knows Julien and has skateboarded with him and everything. How fucking crazy is that? I was like, well he knows all about you...it was pretty funny, I'm still in shock.

Going to a show tonight, Missy might go too, depends on the music. I want work to be over right now, but it's not even lunch yet. Curses. I think I'll do some quick cleaning when I get home cause the place is filthy...I get the impression that roomie doesn't do a lot of housework. So I need to take out the trash, vaccum, clean the sink and I think that will be good for the main living area...I need to clean my bathroom badly, but I hate doing it...then I have to decide what to wear tonight...hmmm...to be continued...

Thursday 4/14, Called Julien when I got home and we talked for a good hour or so...craziest thing ever, I asked him what he does, and he was like "you mean how I make my money?" yeah, that. So he's like I work at a restaurant called Campane, and I was like, HOLY SHIT, you were totally my waiter when I went there with my aunt and uncle before Christmas, how fucking crazy is that?? Crazy. We talked about a lot of random stuff...I'm bummed he's moving, but I'm stoked that he found Beth and that they're going to be together and try to make it work...we're going to try to get together next week for dinner or something, so I'm looking forward to that. Anyway, I can't write everything we talked about cause it would take forever, but it was just nice to have a conversation with someone new...I guess it's just nice to have someone want to hear you talk about yourself...plus he's a cool guy and has a lot of interesting things to say, and is always entertaining. Then I read a little bit of my book and went to bed.

Susan is sick so I probably won't go over to her house, but will relay this crazy story to her via telephone. Maybe I'll go over to Mom's later and work out...but I don't know if that will actually happen...we'll see...

Wednesday 4/13, Went to B's house yesterday after work, and it took me an hour to get there (it only took me exactly 20 minutes to get home...yeah, I know, it took fricken forever!). When I got there we just stood around and talked/kissed/hugged, and neither of us were ready for dinner yet so we just laid on his bed and talked about random stuff like tolls on 520 and him putting his fingers in my eye...funny. Anyway, so when we were hungry, he started making dinner: ravioli with garlic-y marinara sauce and then toasted baguette with fresh mozerella, tomato and basil...it was all very good and I was very impressed with his culinary skills. I helped cut the tomatos and the bread, but apparently I don't know how to hold a knife or cut things, but I got a lesson so it all worked out. After that we laid around until about 10:00 then I went home...

We're going to have dinner with Zach and Nicole on Saturday...that "double date of sorts" so we'll see how that goes...

B=Brandon

Ok, I've decided to reveal my pirate boyfriend's name, but I'll probably continue to refer to him as B. FYI.

B left me a very cute message on my phone this morning because he didn't call me last night. I'm going to go over to his house after work today to hang out...I hope I don't get road rage too bad having to deal with traffic on the way over...

Roomie

apologized about the noise last night, so I'm feeling muuuuch better. He says he feels really bad and he actually brought it up, so I told him, and next time I'll come and tell him if it's too noisy. Ok, better.

Worked out tonight, but not for as long as I should have. Oh well...maybe I'll go back later this week. Who knows.

Tuesday 4/12, Nothing really to report...did some writing when I got home from work...which made me angry, but I'm not so mad now. A little frustrated maybe...but I think this is a good thing to do.

Talked to Susan for a bit, did some excercises, watched my taped episode of OC, talked to B for a little bit. He won't be back until Wednesday, so I'm not sure when I'm going to see him...but that's ok. Roomie had some people over last night and kept fucking waking me up. Like at midnight, they're watching tv and talking/laughing. Ok, I can understand wanting to socialize even on a weeknight, but when the walls are paper thin and I have to get up early in the morning for work, I don't want to hear you and your annoying ass friends having a jolly time right below my bedroom where I'm trying to fucking sleep. Plus, I'm sure my neighbors just love me...I guess I have to talk to him but I don't want to...some things should just be common courtesy/sense. You would think. Why are people so fucking stupid? Get a clue. It's a fucking Monday night, go home! Stop laughing and talking so fucking loud. Morons. Ok, that's all for now. I'm going to go work out at Mom's after work and have dinner over there. Weeeeee.

I hate sex

I don't want to deal with all of this bullshit. There's too much of it.

Saturday 4/9, Woke up about 8:30 thinking B would call me, so I half got ready and kind of fell back asleep. Then he called at about 10:30 so I drove out there and we went to the Arboretum (how the fuck do you spell that?) and just walked around and ended up on "Marsh Island" with a bunch of weird numbered landmarks and stepping in a lot of mud. We just sat on a bench and talked and all of these people kept looking at us and smiling. Then we walked back to the car and we decided to go to that Sushi place, but first we had to go to his house to pick up clippers for Jason's hair, then went to Kiku or whatever and ate lunch, then back to B's again to get his pickle-ball gear. He wanted me to play too, but we all know that I don't play games. Then we headed to J's house and gave him the clippers and met his woman (I think) and they were making seashell mobiles, then we went to Rick's house. Met Rick, Seth, Nate and someone else I think...walked forever to this park, but the court was taken so we walked all the way back to R's house and got in the car to go to another park where a bunch of bums sleep and is kind of over by Zach's house. So we walk down this crazy hill to the court and R and S play the first game, then B and R and I talked to S and we just chatted about how B and I met and movies that we'd both seen lately. When R sat out I didn't really talk to him...then we left and dropped them off, went back to B's house for him to shower, etc, then we just laid in bed and talked and made out...had some sex talk, I'm trying to figure out my issues, we'll see how that goes...then we decided to go to Kidd Valley for milkshakes, I got fries and an Oreo one, then we decided to come to my house to watch a movie and B was going to spend the night. We watched Closer and just sat on the couch together, then came to bed, but B slept right in the middle and I kept falling off of the bed kind of, but then when we woke up we just talked and kissed for two hours (two hours!) and it was just wonderful. We went to get some breakfast at the 12th Ave Cafe and saw Richrd and chatted. Had breakfast then came back here and B went home. Made some calls, then headed to Mom's to work out, showered and went and met Kristel at Starbucks and gosspied there for a while, she is very happy for me, giddy in fact, then I called Susan and went over to her house and just hung out for a little bit then I came home. Probably going to go to bed early tonight...am tired.

Going to write more about sex...I always think better when I first wake up though...this will take a while I think, but maybe it will help. Ok, time for Desperate Housewives...oooh, Zach Braff was on Arrested Development tonight...mmmm...

Friday 4/8, Told B that I was going to lay low, so I just hung out here, read, listened to music, showered and blew dried my hair, and went to bed by, I don't know, like 11:00 or so...

Thursday 4/8, Got home from work and talked to Susan for a while then took a shower and washed my hair but I wasn’t going to straighten it, and then while I was in the middle of getting ready B called and said he was home and if I wanted to come over and hang out that that would be fine as long as I didn’t nag him. No problem. So I finish getting ready, eat some chicken and rice, eat my apple, call Susan about my plans, and headed out the door. Made it to N. Seattle in record time I think, no traffic at all, found a spot right outside B’s place and avoided getting an angry note. Got to B’s and he told me where he keeps his keys in case I ever need to get in, and then we were standing in his place and just kissing for a while then he was like “What do you want to do? I’m getting tired of standing here” and I was like, “Just sit and watch your skate video?” and he was like “Well I was actually thinking that we could lay on my bed and make out” ha! So we did…forever. It was so sweet…so we just talked and laughed and kissed, so nice. When Diana called he was like “I have to go cause I’m trying to get some mad action” it was so funny. His face scratched up my chin and my nose so he gave me some medicated lotion and luckily it was going to be dark in the club so I wasn’t worried about it. Then it was 9:30ish so he started to get ready for bed and I fixed my hair…then we said good-bye and I called Susan from my car and told her to meet me in the garage. I just drove around for a while to kill time, but then parked and talked to Susan and things aren’t very good with her, but hopefully it’ll all turn out ok…whatever happens. Then she got there and we sat in her car for a while then we walked to Neighbors. We went upstairs and hung out up there for a while and got offered free Zippo lighters twice, then Kyle came and we just people watched, and he was like “There’s some crazy girl in our corner” it was so funny, cause she did look crazy, with her big rolly belly, rainbow shirt, and balding-ponytail boyfriend who last week told me that my hair was “magnificent.” Then Kyle left but was supposed to come back, but then Susan spotted him dancing and she was like “That fucker!” it was so funny. So we stood on the sidelines for a while then I spotted Julien with some girl and I was like, “OH MY GOD, IT’S JULIEN” and he looked sooooo young. I was just shocked but didn’t want to go up and talk to him so I just freaked out and then Susan and I finally hit the dance floor. Then I was like, “This is stupid, I’m going over there” and he totally recognized me and we hugged and started talking, he was like “I knew that was you standing there, I knew it!” He offered to buy me a beer and then said he would see me on the dance floor. I kept whining that Craig wasn’t there yet, and some crazy guy was like “Ever notice how some of the men here look like women?” and was staring at my Spandex boyfriend. Weird…I tried to ignore him. Finally Craig showed up and I was so excited and ran up to him to say hi, but he was like “I’m in a bad mood” it was weird, so I told him that I liked his new song and he smiled and said thanks and then I left. I decided to go home and was looking for Julien to say good-bye but couldn’t find him, but luckily Susan’s eagle eye did. He was so drunk and he kissed me on the cheek and said I have to call him on Sat cause he wants everyone to get together to meet Beth. Then I kissed him on the mouth, I’m not sure how that happened but it was a “friend kiss” so I hope he didn’t think that I want him or something. He was like “I’m so glad I met you, I’m so glad I met you, you’re my homie, I mean it, I’m so drunk.” Then I left and practically ran to my car, drove home, and when I pulled up, I noticed that roomie must still be up cause all the lights were on, but when I got upstairs all of the lights were off, so he must of scurried upstairs when he heard the garage open…weird! Big night…3 boyfriends in one night…crazy!

There's too much to write

but I feel like I should take a stab at it. Sooo happy, can't stop smiling. Ok, so, I talked to B on Tue night and we decided we would hang out on Wed, so I called Julien and we made plans for today (Thur), then I worked out and now I'm starting to feel it. Everytime I stand up out of my chair the tops of my thighs hurt. Umm...

Thursday 4/7, So far, this morning when I woke up I was just turning on my cell phone when I heard a ring...and it was my cell tone ring, but my phone wasn't ringing...so I found that it was coming from under my bed, and it was B's phone. I didn't want to answer it even though I figured it was him cause it said something like "Work truck 1 cell." So I put it in my purse and thought I would figure out what to do with it later. When I got to the post office I figured that I should call the number and if it wasn't him at least tell whoever answers that I had his phone and they could tell him. But it was him so we chatted for a few minutes and I told him that I could bring it by tonight cause I would be coming to Seattle. So I'm going to call him after 7:00. Julien canceled on me for dinner but it's ok cause it was going to be interesting juggling my events tonight, so one off of the list helps. Still going dancing but haven't even thought about what to wear...

Wednesday 4/6, B came over and we were just lying on my bed forever and kissing and talking, it was so nice...just to lay there. And he didn't even try to cop a feel or anything. Then we went to XXX and he ate most of my shake, but I didn't mind...then back to my house where I introduced him to Pat and then we went back up to my room and just talked and stuff some more. I kept smiling at him and he would ask "What?" and I would say, "Nothing" but he didn't believe me, so I would just tell him that he was cute that's why I was smiling. Which is true...I can't even look at him without smiling. He also asked me to "go steady" since neither of us dated in high school we're guessing that that's what we're doing. Officially I think he called it "dating" which I'm fine with. I'm not ready to say I'm in a "relationship," even though I don't want to kiss any other boys, I don't know if I can commit to having a real "boyfriend" right now. So then he left around 9:30 and I called Susan and gave her a report and then I went to bed not too much later. My roommie got home late, I'm not sure if he woke me up or not...but I heard him come in.

Ok, back to work, all of this typing probably sounds suspicious...

Feeling better about the living situation. Somewhat. Got the rent, got the garage cleaned out, the milk is back in the fridge (ewwwwww) and the kitchen is looking much better. The attitude still needs a bit of tweaking, but we'll see how that comes along in time.

Julien wants to get dinner on Wed or Thur...I'm thinking Wed...I'm reluctant to make plans knowing that B comes back on Wed, but I don't really want to not make plans just because of a boy do I? Friends first...so I think I'll call Julien tonight and see if tomorrow still works for him. Plus I need to find out what he was going to say on that message before it got cut off...very curious.

Monday 4/4, Talked to Zach for a while which was nice...he's got a gal pal that he's excited about so I'm excited for him...I hope it all works out with the job offers and everything. He told me not to break this boy's heart...I don't think I will...but I'll keep his advice in mind. I still need to go hang out with him, it's been a while...I think the last time was when we walked downtown forever, can't really remember though. He suggested a "double date" of sorts, but I said that we'd probably just ending up making faces at each other and alienate our "dates" so I don't know if it's such a good idea. Who knows. I'm going to the bank after work and then home...what should I do tonight? Hmmm...I organized my closet yesterday and all of my bills and stuff so I feel better about that...now if I could just get all of those damn pictures off of the floor, my room would actually look respectable.

*Sigh*

B just sent me the sweetest message...*sigh*

Can't stop smiling...

I'm feeling nervous

about my new living situation. My garage and fridge are full, my kitchen is a mess and smells like shit, I got home and the lights were left on and there's some milk left out on the counter. This is not what I bargained for. AND I haven't even gotten my rent yet....arg...I'm feeling queezy. This was supposed to make things easier, not more difficult and irritating. I don't want to deal with this. It's really killing my good mood.

Sunday 4/3, Anyway, in other, more uplifting news, my boy-toy called me yesterday while I was listening to his cd and we talked for a while and he was like "I know I'm supposed to be on vacation and everything but I just want to talk to you" awww, how cute, it was so sweet. I can't wait until he's back...he's so cute...soon enough I suppose. That's about the only exciting thing that happened.

Saturday 4/2, Susan called me this morning and woke me up, but it was good cause it was 9:30 and I needed to get up so I showered and got ready to go see Kristel for our day at the zoo. We went to Kidd Valley for lunch and then to the zoo. We were just wandering around laughing and talking and then called Michael and he told us to come back in a half hour and we could meet the orangutans, so we did, and then he took us down below to meet them. They keep them in two separtate areas. The second couple, the dad and daughter, are incestuous and when the he came over he got kind of excited so the girl pulled herself up sideways for him to smell her cooch, and Kristel was like, "Next time I go to the bar, I'm going to have to try that" cause apparently she felt threatened or didn't like the attention he was giving us. It was pretty funny, Kristel cracks me up. Michael was really nice, we went and shut off the water in the snake pit, then we just walked around and looked at some of the animals like the elephants and he told us all sorts of random stuff about them. Oh, earlier when he was calling one of the orangutans, I was like "That's hot, I want to hear that long call again" but I said it to Kristel so we just laughed at that for a while. Then Michael had to go so we finished looking at stuff but all of these dumb kids were all over so then we left and we went to Starbucks and we had treats, then as we were going by Becca and Michael's new place we saw her so we went around the block and went and knocked on her door to talk to her...both of them are very nice, I want them to stay together! Went to Kristel's, I left, called Susan and told her that I was tired and didn't want to go to the mall, so we're going to go tomorrow...came home and watched Closer, and now I'm doing this. That's all...B called me "Snuggle Bee" I think it's cute.

Friday 4/1, I went to work early so that I could leave a half hour early...but it was nice cause Peggy let me leave at 3:30, so instead of having to go right to Mom's and changing there I was able to go home, shower (I smelled terrible from the night before), and get ready at home. Which was also nice cause I realized that what I packed for Mom's was going to be way too cold. So I got ready and went to check my mail, and B sent me a cd in the mail. But it took me forever to realize who it was from. My first thought was Missy cause she would always used to send me stuff in homemade packages, but the return address said "Rich" so I thought Rich from work, but that's silly, why would he send me anything at home? He wouldn't, then I thought it was from Richrd, because it looked like a cd, but I looked at the songs and it's not like Richrd would listen to any of that stuff...so I just sat in the middle of the road and stared at it, then I realized it was from B, and I got instantly happy...I smiled all the way over to Mom's house. When I walked in she was like, "What's going on? Your face is all red" so I told her and then I thought I should call him and thank him so I did, and he asked me what I was doing after Grandpa's dinner, I told him nothing and asked what he was doing and he said nothing, so I told him I would call him. We went to dinner and it was really beautiful but the food wasn't that great, so I think it's a little overrated (this cow graduated from Florida State U). I had a filet, then Kassie, Alix and I all rode home together and Kassie told me that she couldn't even look at me cause I was so smiley. Got home and we had cake and then I called B and I went over to his house and we just talked for a while then when we were going to go we kissed a little bit. We were going to the U-District to meet his friend Jason at the Campus Inn or something, I can't remember. We got a table in the back corner, and then J showed up and he was wearing a "rowdy" hat, he is very nice and very funny, I heard a couple of interesting stories between the two of them. But about halfway through our stay there B moved over to the chair next to me and we were kissing and it was just so fun, I couldn't stop smiling, and he held my hand...even when J came back...so cute. Then when we were closing out his tab he had his arm around my waist and was kissing me...I kind of liked it, I've never been big into PDAs but it wasn't like we were drooling all over each other, and it's a nice change from Nic's attitude. So we went and dropped J off at his house and he was falling asleep in the car...it was funny...then we went back to B's and I said that it was time for me to go home so we kissed outside for a while and it was so wonderful, great kisser, it makes me smile just thinking about it...all butterfly-y. Then he said that he would ask me to sleep over but he knew I wouldn't and I told him that no I wouldn't, not yet. Then I drove home and wrote to Julien and went to bed.

Friday 4/1, I'm leaving work today at 4:30 cause we're going to Calais (?) for Grandpa's birthday at 5:30..mmmm...early bird special. Then I'm hoping B calls me, but I know he has to work late, so we'll see. I think Kristel and I are going to go to the zoo tomorrow and swap stories so that should be fun. Ok, that's all right now...I'm just so happy, B is so cute.

Thursday 3/31, I got off of work early yesterday and tried to take a nap but I had too much on my mind. Susan and I talked and tried to figure out what our plans were for the evening. I still hadn't called B and didn't know if I should, but Susan told me to just do it, so I told her I would call him and that she should call me when she got up from her nap. So I called him and told him that I was thinking of going to Tower but I would have some time to kill and would he want to hang out. It was so cute, he told me he had wanted to call me but didn't want to appear too clingy or something, and that he had made plans with a friend to talk and to get his mind off of me (I think?) so he was glad that I'd called and suggested we meet up. He also said that he didn't call because he'd told me that he would call when he got back from his Whistler trip, but that he wasn't going to be able to wait that long. :) So, I had to get ready in a hurry because he had to go to bed early and it was already 6:30 and I hadn't even taken a shower. So I hurried and got ready, called Susan and told her I would come to her house after I saw B, and was on my way. I got to his house and we jumped his car and headed to Tower. It was raining so my hair got a little puffy, but we got to Tower and I saw Stroy and we chatted a little and he was like "How's work? How are the boys?" and I was like "Ummm.......good...." with my eyes kind of darting in the direction of B, and Stroy was so funny, laughing and smiling. So I got the Beck cd, but I left it in B's car on accident. We went back to his house and just chatted until it was time for me to go, and then he kissed me, yay! It was wonderful...good kisser...so we did that for a couple of minutes and then I left. Got an angry note on my windshield and went and picked Susan up. We got to Neighbors and went upstairs until her boyfriend got there. Then my other boyfriend showed up around...um...11:45 or so...and I went up to him and gave him a hug and we talked briefly. He was wearing a "Loverboy" tank-toppy shirt...I thought it was hot...Susan and Kyle thought it was gay. So we talked a little, but I know he wasn't feeling good so he kept disappearing and reappearing. Then this old guy (like in his 60's) tried to dance with me, and Kyle saved me, then later when Craig came over he stood between me and the old guy. We didn't talk too much, and then it was time to go so after I had tried to hunt him down and was unsuccessful, he popped up right next to me...kind of crazy...so I said good bye and gave him a couple more hugs and told him I hoped he felt better. Then Kyle walked us out and we ran in the rain to the car. Dropped Susan off and went home.