11 days later and I'm still crying.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Monday 5/29, Got up and went for a walk with Susan down to the little park by our house, which I never knew actually has access to the lake. That was really nice, then I did some work and on the way back I hit the store for groceries and easy bake cookies for an evening at Kay-See’s house. I went home and read for most of the afternoon until it was time to bake and take off. When I got to her house we went through nail polishes and lipsticks and she took what she wanted so now I think I’m just going to throw the rest out because I don’t really use those items very often. We went to the little Thai place across the street and I unloaded about B and all of the things that had happened during the week. We went back to her house after and chatted and ate cookies until her roommate came home and I left not too long after that. I read more before going to bed.
Sunday 5/28, Rainy crappy day to wake up to. Susan and I went to Lowe’s for a screen and some batteries for me, then to Costco so I could return the old battery out of my car and get my disposal fee back, then into Costco where I picked up some staples. We went back to the house, unloaded, loaded up her car to go down to the U-District and took off. She sold off her stuff then we went to Tower where I picked up my Q. We got some pizza for lunch then walked down to the Metro to see Friends with Money because Susan had passes. After we went to the bathroom and came downstairs I look over toward the snack bar and lo and behold there stands Hakim, in town for Shua’s birthday or something so they were seeing X-Men. It was good to see him and chat for a minute but then we both had to get into our theaters. Our movie was ok, had some funny bits but a little disjointed. We hit Trader Joe’s then went home. I lounged for a little while before going over to Mom and Dad’s for dinner with the fam. I stayed longer than I usually do because I didn’t have anywhere I needed to be. Watched the Brady Wedding show and went to bed.
Saturday 5/27, I woke up feeling ok and showered and started getting ready because I was going to hang out with C & S. C called me while I was getting ready and told me to come over whenever, so I told her I would call B after I got off the phone and make sure he would still put my battery in. He said it was fine and was a little shocked when I told him that I was hanging out with his roommates. It was pouring in Bellevue so I was surprised when I started driving in that there were some blue skies and no rain in Seattle. I got there and B helped me put my battery in after cleaning off the battery acid and such. Then C & S and I left to go look for garage sales and antique stores. We went to one then to Gorditos for lunch where we chatted mostly of B and J. Ha, BJ. That’s funny. Anyway, then we went to the antique store next door and I found so much stuff I wanted but I didn’t buy anything, despite the encouragement I was receiving from C & S. We went to Value Village after that and I wasn’t even tempted by anything there, but then we went to Goodwill and I picked up some books. Chrystol was going to buy me the “Men Who Can’t Love” book which states on the cover how to spot commitment phobic men and their traits so you’re not left brokenhearted. I could have used that book about a year ago. We went back to their house after that and I left to go home to rainy Bellevue. Susan and I watched Breakfast on Pluto and I thought it was pretty good, some definite Velvet Goldmine moments but an entertaining movie. I read before going to bed.
Sunday 5/28, Rainy crappy day to wake up to. Susan and I went to Lowe’s for a screen and some batteries for me, then to Costco so I could return the old battery out of my car and get my disposal fee back, then into Costco where I picked up some staples. We went back to the house, unloaded, loaded up her car to go down to the U-District and took off. She sold off her stuff then we went to Tower where I picked up my Q. We got some pizza for lunch then walked down to the Metro to see Friends with Money because Susan had passes. After we went to the bathroom and came downstairs I look over toward the snack bar and lo and behold there stands Hakim, in town for Shua’s birthday or something so they were seeing X-Men. It was good to see him and chat for a minute but then we both had to get into our theaters. Our movie was ok, had some funny bits but a little disjointed. We hit Trader Joe’s then went home. I lounged for a little while before going over to Mom and Dad’s for dinner with the fam. I stayed longer than I usually do because I didn’t have anywhere I needed to be. Watched the Brady Wedding show and went to bed.
Saturday 5/27, I woke up feeling ok and showered and started getting ready because I was going to hang out with C & S. C called me while I was getting ready and told me to come over whenever, so I told her I would call B after I got off the phone and make sure he would still put my battery in. He said it was fine and was a little shocked when I told him that I was hanging out with his roommates. It was pouring in Bellevue so I was surprised when I started driving in that there were some blue skies and no rain in Seattle. I got there and B helped me put my battery in after cleaning off the battery acid and such. Then C & S and I left to go look for garage sales and antique stores. We went to one then to Gorditos for lunch where we chatted mostly of B and J. Ha, BJ. That’s funny. Anyway, then we went to the antique store next door and I found so much stuff I wanted but I didn’t buy anything, despite the encouragement I was receiving from C & S. We went to Value Village after that and I wasn’t even tempted by anything there, but then we went to Goodwill and I picked up some books. Chrystol was going to buy me the “Men Who Can’t Love” book which states on the cover how to spot commitment phobic men and their traits so you’re not left brokenhearted. I could have used that book about a year ago. We went back to their house after that and I left to go home to rainy Bellevue. Susan and I watched Breakfast on Pluto and I thought it was pretty good, some definite Velvet Goldmine moments but an entertaining movie. I read before going to bed.
Friday 5/26, Schuyler came to Peggy’s to do yard work so we talked for a little while and how I felt so much better after talking with Chrystol so he was glad about that and gave me a nice hug. Um…after work I might have taken a walk or something but I don’t remember, but around 8:00 Susan and I went to Kassie’s to hang out and so I could download her pictures onto my computer but my computer didn’t work and was getting all fucked up so I couldn’t. We didn’t do much except look at pictures from her party and watch the video and play certain parts in slow motion over and over again. We went home around 10:30 and went to bed.
Thursday 5/25, I felt so awful all day because it felt like we had broken up all over again and I still didn’t have any answers besides that I “don’t exercise enough” and that I'm not “intellectually stimulating” boy, look, I even spelled those big words without the spell check coming on. Whatever, so I felt terrible all day and tried not to cry at work. I did call him to apologize for some of the things I had said and also to see if he would put my car battery in that weekend and he agreed and told me what I said was understandable and that as long as I didn’t do it every day that it was ok. That night Chrystol called and we talked for probably an hour and a half. I felt sooo much better and pretty much did a 180° with how I was feeling. We talked about what a hypocrite B is and how he’s narcissistic (I even spelled that one right) and he doesn’t do anything that doesn’t have some benefit to himself. I think about some of the shit he did at my house and to my car and it makes my blood boil now but I know it’s because he really doesn’t care if he fucks something up that belongs to someone else because it doesn’t affect him. So for the first time since he’d broken up with me I went to bed and didn’t cry and got a great night’s sleep.
Wednesday 5/24, I think I went on a walk after work but I can’t remember for sure and was starting to feel better until B called around 8:40 or so. I had so many questions and things I wanted to say to him but couldn’t do so without crying a whole lot and losing my shit on more than one occasion. He couldn’t give any good reason why he broke up with me and said he just feels different and that he doesn’t think we’ll have enough time with each other when he starts school, but also didn’t want to even try to see if it would work. He started to say something about Chrystol and Schuyler but stopped and said he didn’t want to hurt my feelings. I told him the damage was pretty much done and that whatever he had to say wouldn’t push me over the edge. He still wouldn’t tell me. He really didn’t have much to say and I just ranted a lot and just kept saying, “I can’t believe this, I can’t believe you’re breaking up with me” he says he just tries to push the thoughts out of his head. Around 10:00 he said he had to go to bed and I just sobbed for the rest of the night and slept like shit.
Tuesday 5/23, Kept getting daily check up calls from everyone. Not feeling any better just sad and really down and crying a lot. Had my Home Owners Meeting where everyone voted down the original amount and proposed one for less, so I’ll end up owing about $6,300 instead of $10,300.
Monday 5/22, I worked and just felt sad all day. I couldn’t eat without feeling sick and didn’t have much of an appetite anyway. I talked to Julien for a while and that made me feel a little better. Talked to Courtney too and she was pretty shocked. I don’t remember much else.
Thursday 5/25, I felt so awful all day because it felt like we had broken up all over again and I still didn’t have any answers besides that I “don’t exercise enough” and that I'm not “intellectually stimulating” boy, look, I even spelled those big words without the spell check coming on. Whatever, so I felt terrible all day and tried not to cry at work. I did call him to apologize for some of the things I had said and also to see if he would put my car battery in that weekend and he agreed and told me what I said was understandable and that as long as I didn’t do it every day that it was ok. That night Chrystol called and we talked for probably an hour and a half. I felt sooo much better and pretty much did a 180° with how I was feeling. We talked about what a hypocrite B is and how he’s narcissistic (I even spelled that one right) and he doesn’t do anything that doesn’t have some benefit to himself. I think about some of the shit he did at my house and to my car and it makes my blood boil now but I know it’s because he really doesn’t care if he fucks something up that belongs to someone else because it doesn’t affect him. So for the first time since he’d broken up with me I went to bed and didn’t cry and got a great night’s sleep.
Wednesday 5/24, I think I went on a walk after work but I can’t remember for sure and was starting to feel better until B called around 8:40 or so. I had so many questions and things I wanted to say to him but couldn’t do so without crying a whole lot and losing my shit on more than one occasion. He couldn’t give any good reason why he broke up with me and said he just feels different and that he doesn’t think we’ll have enough time with each other when he starts school, but also didn’t want to even try to see if it would work. He started to say something about Chrystol and Schuyler but stopped and said he didn’t want to hurt my feelings. I told him the damage was pretty much done and that whatever he had to say wouldn’t push me over the edge. He still wouldn’t tell me. He really didn’t have much to say and I just ranted a lot and just kept saying, “I can’t believe this, I can’t believe you’re breaking up with me” he says he just tries to push the thoughts out of his head. Around 10:00 he said he had to go to bed and I just sobbed for the rest of the night and slept like shit.
Tuesday 5/23, Kept getting daily check up calls from everyone. Not feeling any better just sad and really down and crying a lot. Had my Home Owners Meeting where everyone voted down the original amount and proposed one for less, so I’ll end up owing about $6,300 instead of $10,300.
Monday 5/22, I worked and just felt sad all day. I couldn’t eat without feeling sick and didn’t have much of an appetite anyway. I talked to Julien for a while and that made me feel a little better. Talked to Courtney too and she was pretty shocked. I don’t remember much else.
Friday, May 26, 2006
Sunday 5/21, I woke up and went over to Mom’s for brunch and was planning on going over and helping Kassie clean up the mess. Brunch was nice and I ate a little too much, but it was fun and I spent some time with Grandma just talking. I bought a tomato plant from a little kid on the side of the road for Chrystol and Schuyler on the way to B’s house. When I got there we sat down and he said he was sorry and I told him I appreciated it and got up to give him a kiss but as I leaned down into it something was off so after I pulled back I looked at his eyes and knew something was wrong. I asked “We need to talk about something don’t we?” and he said yes and then was having a hard time saying it and was putting his hands over his eyes and had his head back. Finally he said that he was still thinking about the future and just didn’t think it was going to work out and that he was feeling different about me and I just started crying because I was so shocked, I couldn’t believe what he was saying. I told him I didn’t even know what to say and he offered to get me some tissue and I kept crying and he was talking but who knows what he was saying. Finally I stood up and looked at him and told him I couldn’t believe he was breaking up with me and as I was going into the bathroom to get more tissue he said that he didn’t think it was fair to me to be half-hearted and didn’t I agree. When I got back in the living room I picked up my purse, put my sunglasses on, looked at him and shrugged and turned around and walked out. I didn’t even know what to say. I couldn’t even think. So I sobbed on my way to the car and called Kassie and asked her if I could come over and when I got there she just hugged me we talked. She had to go to work so I went home and cried the whole way barely even paying attention to what I was doing. When I got there I was still sobbing and Susan was like “Oh my God, what’s wrong” and hugged me and I told her and she was shocked and we laid in her bed for a while and talked until I got up to go into my room to try and sleep and sort things out. I called Kay-See and she came over and brought me my S-Bucks favorites: hot chocolate and chocolate chip cookie, what a good friend! We talked for a while which made me feel better and after she left Dad called so I rehashed it for him then to Mom. They were both so helpful and I was still in shock and crying every two seconds but it really helped a lot. Um…I’m not sure what else happened for the rest of the day but I’m pretty sure it involved crying in bed. Oh, Desperate Housewives two hour finale, too loooong. Mom finally called at like 11:15 and had some choice things to say about B and was very long winded about it considering I didn’t get off of the phone until after midnight. I surprisingly had a dream where we were still together and Diana was there and everything was fine and we had just bought some things at an auction. Then I woke up.
Saturday 5/20, I got up around 8:30 and went to water the plants again and drop off the mail. When I got back I went on a nice walk and listened to the Scissor Sisters. I felt pumped! I packed up my stuff for Kassie’s party and stuff to spend the night at B’s and headed out. When I got to Kassie’s I helped her start cleaning up then Chels got there and we did more decorating, but the place looked great, very seafarer. We went to the salon later in the afternoon and Tiffany did my makeup and put fake eyelashes on me which looked very cool. We continued to set up all the way until people started showing up at 9:15. B came but wasn’t feeling good and had a headache and later was being mean saying “I’m not feeling chatty” when I asked him to come sit by me on the couch and when I asked him if he wanted me to come over after the party to spend the night he said “I don’t care”. This pissed me off, but I wasn’t about to let it ruin my night, it had the opposite effect in fact, I was determined to have an even better time. So Kay-See and her friend came and we went upstairs for a tour then Chrystol and Schuyler showed up and they came upstairs and we chatted there for a few minutes before going downstairs where B told me he was leaving, with no sort of emotion. I got the camera out for Chrystol and she got some really great shots that are hilarious. So much happened so I guess I’ll hit the highlights. One of Kassie’s friends brought some performance artists guy who ended up taking all of his clothes off and putting his penis and nuts in a shoe and dancing around with Zack’s triton. After he took all of his clothes off he sat on Kay-See’s lap and rubbed his ass and scrotum all over her pristine white sailor pants. It was HILARIOUS! And it’s all on video. Before this lap dance and strip tease he had introduced himself to me twice in the span of 5 minutes, saying “Hi, I’m Chris”. I’m pretty sure he was on something. The other highlight of the night was the dance party that started and everybody getting down. Kassie and Mike had some flirty dancing going back and forth and finally she got him on the floor, was dry humping him, licked his chest and then bit his nipple. He screamed and after Kassie went outside Schuyler heard him say “I kind of liked it” and then “Hot!”. We ALL got some good laughs out of that one. Dave the helicopter pilot and Mike started kind of having a dance off and while Dave’s moves were controlled and precise, Mike was all over the fucking place like a spastic. Very entertaining. I danced with Dave a little bit and Zack pushed us girls all over the place with his ass. After Chrystol and Schuyler left the dance party continued but the cops showed up and when the cop said to Chelsea “Hey sailor, keep it down” she pushed his arm playfully and said “You keep it down” with a coy smile. Only Chelsea I swear. I met one of the hot guys after Kay-See and friend left, talked to Dave one last time and then headed home. Kassie's parties are great because there are about 5 guys to every 1 girl. I remember thinking that if I didn't have a bf that I would be all over Dave, especially after he said we'd have to have another dance party again soon, with a suggestive smile. I got into bed around 3:00 or 3:30 I think.
Friday 5/19, I went home after work and Susan and I went to Nordstrom Rack where I picked up some new party shoes and some workout wear for the walks I’m going to try and make regularly. After we got back I started making chocolate chip cookies for Kassie’s Sequins and Seafarers party, but only had enough supplies for one batch, so I made them small so there would like there were more. B and I only talked briefly and he was going to go straight to his house after work because I was meeting Kay-See for coffee the next day. I went to bed at a normal time I think.
Saturday 5/20, I got up around 8:30 and went to water the plants again and drop off the mail. When I got back I went on a nice walk and listened to the Scissor Sisters. I felt pumped! I packed up my stuff for Kassie’s party and stuff to spend the night at B’s and headed out. When I got to Kassie’s I helped her start cleaning up then Chels got there and we did more decorating, but the place looked great, very seafarer. We went to the salon later in the afternoon and Tiffany did my makeup and put fake eyelashes on me which looked very cool. We continued to set up all the way until people started showing up at 9:15. B came but wasn’t feeling good and had a headache and later was being mean saying “I’m not feeling chatty” when I asked him to come sit by me on the couch and when I asked him if he wanted me to come over after the party to spend the night he said “I don’t care”. This pissed me off, but I wasn’t about to let it ruin my night, it had the opposite effect in fact, I was determined to have an even better time. So Kay-See and her friend came and we went upstairs for a tour then Chrystol and Schuyler showed up and they came upstairs and we chatted there for a few minutes before going downstairs where B told me he was leaving, with no sort of emotion. I got the camera out for Chrystol and she got some really great shots that are hilarious. So much happened so I guess I’ll hit the highlights. One of Kassie’s friends brought some performance artists guy who ended up taking all of his clothes off and putting his penis and nuts in a shoe and dancing around with Zack’s triton. After he took all of his clothes off he sat on Kay-See’s lap and rubbed his ass and scrotum all over her pristine white sailor pants. It was HILARIOUS! And it’s all on video. Before this lap dance and strip tease he had introduced himself to me twice in the span of 5 minutes, saying “Hi, I’m Chris”. I’m pretty sure he was on something. The other highlight of the night was the dance party that started and everybody getting down. Kassie and Mike had some flirty dancing going back and forth and finally she got him on the floor, was dry humping him, licked his chest and then bit his nipple. He screamed and after Kassie went outside Schuyler heard him say “I kind of liked it” and then “Hot!”. We ALL got some good laughs out of that one. Dave the helicopter pilot and Mike started kind of having a dance off and while Dave’s moves were controlled and precise, Mike was all over the fucking place like a spastic. Very entertaining. I danced with Dave a little bit and Zack pushed us girls all over the place with his ass. After Chrystol and Schuyler left the dance party continued but the cops showed up and when the cop said to Chelsea “Hey sailor, keep it down” she pushed his arm playfully and said “You keep it down” with a coy smile. Only Chelsea I swear. I met one of the hot guys after Kay-See and friend left, talked to Dave one last time and then headed home. Kassie's parties are great because there are about 5 guys to every 1 girl. I remember thinking that if I didn't have a bf that I would be all over Dave, especially after he said we'd have to have another dance party again soon, with a suggestive smile. I got into bed around 3:00 or 3:30 I think.
Friday 5/19, I went home after work and Susan and I went to Nordstrom Rack where I picked up some new party shoes and some workout wear for the walks I’m going to try and make regularly. After we got back I started making chocolate chip cookies for Kassie’s Sequins and Seafarers party, but only had enough supplies for one batch, so I made them small so there would like there were more. B and I only talked briefly and he was going to go straight to his house after work because I was meeting Kay-See for coffee the next day. I went to bed at a normal time I think.
Friday, May 19, 2006
Thursday 5/18, I stayed 2 hours late to finish up a project and to make some overtime. I ate dinner when I got home and then watched OC and am still shocked by the outcome. How could they kill off Marissa? Maybe it will be like last season when Marissa shot Trey but he didn’t die and lived to make a brief appearance at the beginning of the next season. I just can’t believe that they would kill her off. Why doesn’t she want to be on The OC anymore?? Oh well, anyway, talked to B for a little while but he wasn’t as enthusiastic about me talking to Willie as I would have hoped he would be…and he quickly changed the subject to something else once I stopped yapping for a moment. Weird. The rest of the night was standard.
Wednesday 5/17, I had to go down the lake to water some trees and pick up mail as a favor. As I was going back Susan called and said that her and A broke up and she was coming home to watch ANTM. I helped her unload her car a little then we watched the show and were both really surprised that Danielle won, but I wasn’t disappointed because I loved both of them. I talked to B for a little bit but not much was said so we hung up. Around 9:20 though I got a call on my cell that was an 808 area code so I thought it was AL calling me but when I picked up it was a guy and it sounded like Nic, but then he was all “It’s Willie” which totally shocked me. So we ended up talking for over an hour and promising each other that we were going to hang out soon. I didn’t get off of the phone until 10:40, so I took a late shower, read and went to bed.
Tuesday 5/16, Peggy let me leave at 1:00 so I booked an appointment to have my annual and the blood work done for the Diflucan I’ve been taking on a regular basis. When I got home I just laid in bed because my arm hurt from where the girl pushed really hard onto my needle mark on my arm. I should have worked out but it was hot and my arm hurt.
Monday 5/15, I’m not sure why I didn’t work out on Monday, but I’ve been slacking so it’s time to pick it up again! Um…probably just hung out and did nothing. Bella died in the morning.
Wednesday 5/17, I had to go down the lake to water some trees and pick up mail as a favor. As I was going back Susan called and said that her and A broke up and she was coming home to watch ANTM. I helped her unload her car a little then we watched the show and were both really surprised that Danielle won, but I wasn’t disappointed because I loved both of them. I talked to B for a little bit but not much was said so we hung up. Around 9:20 though I got a call on my cell that was an 808 area code so I thought it was AL calling me but when I picked up it was a guy and it sounded like Nic, but then he was all “It’s Willie” which totally shocked me. So we ended up talking for over an hour and promising each other that we were going to hang out soon. I didn’t get off of the phone until 10:40, so I took a late shower, read and went to bed.
Tuesday 5/16, Peggy let me leave at 1:00 so I booked an appointment to have my annual and the blood work done for the Diflucan I’ve been taking on a regular basis. When I got home I just laid in bed because my arm hurt from where the girl pushed really hard onto my needle mark on my arm. I should have worked out but it was hot and my arm hurt.
Monday 5/15, I’m not sure why I didn’t work out on Monday, but I’ve been slacking so it’s time to pick it up again! Um…probably just hung out and did nothing. Bella died in the morning.
Monday, May 15, 2006
Sunday 5/14, I got up early and went over to Mom’s so we could catch the 9:30 ferry to go to Josh and Amy’s for Mother’s Day. We had a nice time and there was plenty of good food. Kassie had to leave early to go to work and the rest of us walked down to the beach later, the 280 steps down were a piece of cake, but going back up almost killed me. The beach was nice, much nicer than the one at our old Bainbridge house. Their property is gorgeous, though the house isn’t exactly my cup of tea. We left to catch the 1:10 ferry but it was late and then when we got off we got stalled by a train for a while. I finally headed back to B’s and we walked up to see this cute little open house where the girl gave us raspberry lemonade and chatted with us for a while. It was so warm out we were both really glad there was something to drink, and the house was cute but pretty tiny. We walked back to the house and sat inside watching an episode of X-Files then sat outside sunning ourselves. Around 6:00 I headed home and made myself B’s leftover tempura for dinner and watched the usual Sunday night shows. Kassie posted her party invite on myspace so we talked about that for a little while. I read then went to bed.
Saturday 5/13, B got up around 8:15 to go to work for a few hours, so I got up shortly after and started some laundry then decided to go on a walk. I did a little exploring and worked up a pretty good heart beat. When I got home I cleaned the kitchen sink, the counters and the stove which were all totally disgusting. I made an omelet for lunch and was waiting for B to get there so I took a shower and got ready. After he ate his lunch we went to the store to get muffin mix so we could both make our mom’s bear muffins out of my new used muffin pan. The first batch turned out but the second sucked because I didn’t clean the pan out before putting the second one in, but I eventually got it and we both ended up with 8 muffins for our moms. We packed up and headed over to B’s and sat in traffic for a while, so I talked to Chelsea about the party her and Kassie are throwing this weekend and came up with a lot of good ideas. After hanging out at B’s for a while we went to Kiku and got some dinner then went back and talked with Schuyler, everyone else was gone, and decided to watch Match Point. I think the boys liked it though it’s not really a feel good movie. We all went to bed after bed cause it was almost 11:00.
Thursday 5/11, Did some work after work and got home a little after 8:00. B and I had gotten into a slight snit, which I started by saying that he be the one to call me from now on because most of the times I call him in the evenings he says he doesn’t feel like talking and wants to cut the call off after 5 minutes. Well I don’t see him that often (compared to other couples I guess) and it irritates me that he can’t hold a conversation with me on the phone a couple of times a week. I decided that he shouldn’t call me unless he actually wants to talk to me, even if that means not talking to each other every day. This did not satisfy him and he said he would have to think about it. He later decided that he still wants me to call him too and I think he’ll make more of an effort to converse with me when we talk on the phone. Not always, but more often anyway.
Friday 5/12, Did more work after work and got home around 8:15 with B on the couch and half a pizza that needed to be warmed up for dinner. We watched AFV and sat on the couch for most of the night. We went to bed around 11:00 after watching a prison special on MSNBC.
Wednesday 5/10, Susan was home and I still did my yoga and Susan joined me at the end. We made her pizza for dinner and used my mozzarella to cheese it up then watched the usual shows: Wheel of Fortune, House Hunters and then America’s Next Top Model. I can’t believe Jade is in the final three, it’s terrible. Susan actually stayed the night for the first time in like 2.5 months. Crazy!
Tuesday 5/9, I did more yoga when I got home, but this time I did a Pilates one too. I vacuumed and did some other light housework, then relaxed and sat on my ass.
Saturday 5/13, B got up around 8:15 to go to work for a few hours, so I got up shortly after and started some laundry then decided to go on a walk. I did a little exploring and worked up a pretty good heart beat. When I got home I cleaned the kitchen sink, the counters and the stove which were all totally disgusting. I made an omelet for lunch and was waiting for B to get there so I took a shower and got ready. After he ate his lunch we went to the store to get muffin mix so we could both make our mom’s bear muffins out of my new used muffin pan. The first batch turned out but the second sucked because I didn’t clean the pan out before putting the second one in, but I eventually got it and we both ended up with 8 muffins for our moms. We packed up and headed over to B’s and sat in traffic for a while, so I talked to Chelsea about the party her and Kassie are throwing this weekend and came up with a lot of good ideas. After hanging out at B’s for a while we went to Kiku and got some dinner then went back and talked with Schuyler, everyone else was gone, and decided to watch Match Point. I think the boys liked it though it’s not really a feel good movie. We all went to bed after bed cause it was almost 11:00.
Thursday 5/11, Did some work after work and got home a little after 8:00. B and I had gotten into a slight snit, which I started by saying that he be the one to call me from now on because most of the times I call him in the evenings he says he doesn’t feel like talking and wants to cut the call off after 5 minutes. Well I don’t see him that often (compared to other couples I guess) and it irritates me that he can’t hold a conversation with me on the phone a couple of times a week. I decided that he shouldn’t call me unless he actually wants to talk to me, even if that means not talking to each other every day. This did not satisfy him and he said he would have to think about it. He later decided that he still wants me to call him too and I think he’ll make more of an effort to converse with me when we talk on the phone. Not always, but more often anyway.
Friday 5/12, Did more work after work and got home around 8:15 with B on the couch and half a pizza that needed to be warmed up for dinner. We watched AFV and sat on the couch for most of the night. We went to bed around 11:00 after watching a prison special on MSNBC.
Wednesday 5/10, Susan was home and I still did my yoga and Susan joined me at the end. We made her pizza for dinner and used my mozzarella to cheese it up then watched the usual shows: Wheel of Fortune, House Hunters and then America’s Next Top Model. I can’t believe Jade is in the final three, it’s terrible. Susan actually stayed the night for the first time in like 2.5 months. Crazy!
Tuesday 5/9, I did more yoga when I got home, but this time I did a Pilates one too. I vacuumed and did some other light housework, then relaxed and sat on my ass.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Monday 5/8, After work I hit the store then home and did one of Susan’s yoga videos for about 40 minutes. Then I made some dinner and sat up in my room watching tv. Court called and I talked to her for a while and she sent me the five stages of grief cause it’s been harder than I thought to get over Grandma’s death and I think yesterday was the first day I hadn’t cried for some reason so I’m trying to figure out what’s going on with my emotions. I put some new pictures up on flickr then read and went to bed.
Sunday 5/7, We woke up at 10 and B made me some toast then I ate one of the pancakes Jen and Jason made. Aubrey came home and her and B were switching rooms so that got underway. I gained another bargaining tool by helping him move all of his shit out of his room, down the stairs into the living room, then into his new room after Aubrey moved her stuff. Schuyler helped too and we came up with new song titles and lyrics, some of the best being “Lay beaver lay, lay across my big bed” or “Lay across my big face” then Schuyler came up with the best “shaved to perfection, guaranteed to induce erection” (it was better than this, but I can’t remember it exactly) then we’d spent the previous night and morning coming up with new “Beaver” song titles, such as “Achiever Beaver” (a girl with good grades), “Griever Beaver” (a widow), “Believer Beaver” (a religious girl), “Fever Beaver” (a girl who’s sick) the list goes on and on really, and they’re all hilarious. Ok, back to the move, we finally got ready and left the house around 1:30 to begin seeing the open houses. C and S said they would call us and maybe meet up to see a few of the houses later. We first went up to CH and saw a hung $3m mansion then a littler house. Then we headed over to QA and saw the house I’d seen the day before, C and S called so me met at a house where the open house was already over, so we headed over to GL and saw one there that wasn’t that impressive. After that we went to Laurelhurst together and that was the favorite of everyone cause it was so cute and well done. We got to that one just in time. We went back to B’s after that and hung out for a little bit before I left to go to Mom’s for dinner. Hung out there until about 7:40 then went home and started some laundry, watched my tv shows and went to bed.
Saturday 5/6, B and I got up around 8:45 so that we could walk to the store for breakfast and then he could make his eye appointment at 10:15. I got yogurt and an apple, healthy! When we got back we just sat and talked with Schuyler and Chrystol, then B left so I stayed and talked with them, then when B got back we all walked up the street to go to a yard sale and the church rummage sale across the street. I got a “Young Players” version of Trivial Pursuit (I didn’t look very closely before buying did I?) and 3 books. This was the beginning of the end for me at the day’s garage sales. B decided he didn’t want to make me any lunch and that he wanted to go play pickle ball so Chrystol and Schuyler took me under their garage sale-ing wings and showed me the ropes for most of the afternoon. First we went to one on the other side of 45th where I got my lunch, a black bottom cupcake. None of us left with anything besides that muffin. Next we headed up to Queen Anne and looked for signs, we found a multi family sale with a free pile so I got a couple of little bowls and shallow muffin pans, while Schuyler got a spoon rest that looks like a cat that we named Maitre-Chat. Maitre-Chat loves to shop at garage and yard sales, just like us. Chrystol bought a little orange glass. Schuyler caught me talking to myself while rummaging through the free pile. Then we hit another one (and passed a house I wanted to see the next day) where this crazy old woman talked me into buying a cast iron teddy bear pan for making muffins or cupcakes. She also talked me into buying another set of pear salt and pepper shakers. Then Schuyler made a terrific discovery, the big old people glasses B has been looking for everywhere, so I got those for $.10, the other two items set me back $3. After that one we went up to Phinney Ridge and hit an estate sale where I pretended to be retarded wearing my new sunglasses and kept asking “How much for the lot?”. There were some weird things at the estate sale, but the funnest part was in the basement of the house looking at the old school shitter and trying to hatch an escape plan for getting some of the junk out of the basement without paying for it. We finally returned back to the house and shared our treasures. B’s face was hilarious when I walked in with my new sunglasses. I told Chrystol and Schuyler that I wanted to see 6 open houses the next day and that my bargaining tools were the sunglasses and that I let him go play pickle ball without me. B and I were both hungry so we went to an early dinner at some Chinese place on 45th, we walked, and it was fairly overpriced for what it was. After we got back we just sat on the couch all evening watching episodes of X-Files. B and I had a talk whilst in bed and I cried a little, but I guess the bottom line is that everything is fine, but I have sort of prepared myself now for him breaking up with me.
Friday 5/5, I went home after work and hung out with Susan until about 8:30 then she left and I showered and got redressed and did my hair and headed off to B’s for the weekend. We watched AFV until 10 then some home special came on with a crazy guy with permed blonde hair who builds and sells $150m homes. Yikes. We all went to bed not too much later.
Sunday 5/7, We woke up at 10 and B made me some toast then I ate one of the pancakes Jen and Jason made. Aubrey came home and her and B were switching rooms so that got underway. I gained another bargaining tool by helping him move all of his shit out of his room, down the stairs into the living room, then into his new room after Aubrey moved her stuff. Schuyler helped too and we came up with new song titles and lyrics, some of the best being “Lay beaver lay, lay across my big bed” or “Lay across my big face” then Schuyler came up with the best “shaved to perfection, guaranteed to induce erection” (it was better than this, but I can’t remember it exactly) then we’d spent the previous night and morning coming up with new “Beaver” song titles, such as “Achiever Beaver” (a girl with good grades), “Griever Beaver” (a widow), “Believer Beaver” (a religious girl), “Fever Beaver” (a girl who’s sick) the list goes on and on really, and they’re all hilarious. Ok, back to the move, we finally got ready and left the house around 1:30 to begin seeing the open houses. C and S said they would call us and maybe meet up to see a few of the houses later. We first went up to CH and saw a hung $3m mansion then a littler house. Then we headed over to QA and saw the house I’d seen the day before, C and S called so me met at a house where the open house was already over, so we headed over to GL and saw one there that wasn’t that impressive. After that we went to Laurelhurst together and that was the favorite of everyone cause it was so cute and well done. We got to that one just in time. We went back to B’s after that and hung out for a little bit before I left to go to Mom’s for dinner. Hung out there until about 7:40 then went home and started some laundry, watched my tv shows and went to bed.
Saturday 5/6, B and I got up around 8:45 so that we could walk to the store for breakfast and then he could make his eye appointment at 10:15. I got yogurt and an apple, healthy! When we got back we just sat and talked with Schuyler and Chrystol, then B left so I stayed and talked with them, then when B got back we all walked up the street to go to a yard sale and the church rummage sale across the street. I got a “Young Players” version of Trivial Pursuit (I didn’t look very closely before buying did I?) and 3 books. This was the beginning of the end for me at the day’s garage sales. B decided he didn’t want to make me any lunch and that he wanted to go play pickle ball so Chrystol and Schuyler took me under their garage sale-ing wings and showed me the ropes for most of the afternoon. First we went to one on the other side of 45th where I got my lunch, a black bottom cupcake. None of us left with anything besides that muffin. Next we headed up to Queen Anne and looked for signs, we found a multi family sale with a free pile so I got a couple of little bowls and shallow muffin pans, while Schuyler got a spoon rest that looks like a cat that we named Maitre-Chat. Maitre-Chat loves to shop at garage and yard sales, just like us. Chrystol bought a little orange glass. Schuyler caught me talking to myself while rummaging through the free pile. Then we hit another one (and passed a house I wanted to see the next day) where this crazy old woman talked me into buying a cast iron teddy bear pan for making muffins or cupcakes. She also talked me into buying another set of pear salt and pepper shakers. Then Schuyler made a terrific discovery, the big old people glasses B has been looking for everywhere, so I got those for $.10, the other two items set me back $3. After that one we went up to Phinney Ridge and hit an estate sale where I pretended to be retarded wearing my new sunglasses and kept asking “How much for the lot?”. There were some weird things at the estate sale, but the funnest part was in the basement of the house looking at the old school shitter and trying to hatch an escape plan for getting some of the junk out of the basement without paying for it. We finally returned back to the house and shared our treasures. B’s face was hilarious when I walked in with my new sunglasses. I told Chrystol and Schuyler that I wanted to see 6 open houses the next day and that my bargaining tools were the sunglasses and that I let him go play pickle ball without me. B and I were both hungry so we went to an early dinner at some Chinese place on 45th, we walked, and it was fairly overpriced for what it was. After we got back we just sat on the couch all evening watching episodes of X-Files. B and I had a talk whilst in bed and I cried a little, but I guess the bottom line is that everything is fine, but I have sort of prepared myself now for him breaking up with me.
Friday 5/5, I went home after work and hung out with Susan until about 8:30 then she left and I showered and got redressed and did my hair and headed off to B’s for the weekend. We watched AFV until 10 then some home special came on with a crazy guy with permed blonde hair who builds and sells $150m homes. Yikes. We all went to bed not too much later.
Friday, May 05, 2006
Thursday 5/4, Peggy let me go home at 12:45 because I was so sick, so I stopped at Costco for a few things, including Match Point, then went home, ate lunch and watched my movie. Read and laid around all day and evening until OC came on, watched that then showered, read and went to bed.
Wednesday 5/3, I started not feeling good and just relaxed at home by myself.
Tuesday 5/2, B came over after work and Mom too so we all went to Outback and met up with Dad, Alix and Jake. Not much else, besides taking a shower and having an intimate evening together.
Monday 5/1, We got up around 8:00 to get ready to go but Kelly wasn’t back yet so we finally got a hold of Uncle Larry who gave us directions to the airport. The car was loaded and we were out the door when Kelly and Mark showed up so we said good bye and headed on our way. Got checked in and grabbed a snack for breakfast then had our plane ride, (we sat separately and I got a little sleep) and Kassie’s friend Jeff picked us up when we got there. I got home around 3:30 and just got into bed because I was exhausted, all around. Talked to Dad for a while on the phone about Kassie and Ginny and how hopefully the situation will settle down at some point and Kassie and I might go out this summer to help Ginny with the house. I relaxed for the rest of the day and went to bed early.
Wednesday 5/3, I started not feeling good and just relaxed at home by myself.
Tuesday 5/2, B came over after work and Mom too so we all went to Outback and met up with Dad, Alix and Jake. Not much else, besides taking a shower and having an intimate evening together.
Monday 5/1, We got up around 8:00 to get ready to go but Kelly wasn’t back yet so we finally got a hold of Uncle Larry who gave us directions to the airport. The car was loaded and we were out the door when Kelly and Mark showed up so we said good bye and headed on our way. Got checked in and grabbed a snack for breakfast then had our plane ride, (we sat separately and I got a little sleep) and Kassie’s friend Jeff picked us up when we got there. I got home around 3:30 and just got into bed because I was exhausted, all around. Talked to Dad for a while on the phone about Kassie and Ginny and how hopefully the situation will settle down at some point and Kassie and I might go out this summer to help Ginny with the house. I relaxed for the rest of the day and went to bed early.
Sunday 4/30, the day of the funeral. We got up and Jodi had fixed breakfast and we were out the door to go to the church in Brownton. The granddaughters were going to be the pallbearers for Grandma at the end so we had to have a run down of that before the funeral started. It was hard, but Ginny said some really nice things and some of us grandkids sang the “Goat Song” so that was nice. After it was over the church had a lunch with some good food (and also some not so good food) then it was off to the burial back in Stewart. That was the hardest part and where I lost it the most. There’s more, but it’s in my head and that’s where I’ll keep it. Everyone went to Cactus Jack’s again afterward and there was a lunch thing there, even though we’d just eaten at the church. Carrie Jo had made rice krispie treats like she had at Grandpa’s funeral, so I ate about 5 of those. We made another trip over to Grandma’s house where Kassie found more stuff and put it aside, by this time she had 2 boxes and a bag I believe. We went back to the restaurant because everyone was leaving. Kassie and I were going to stay with Mark and Kelly for the night since Mom and Dad were staying in Minneapolis by the airport. We went to Uncle Dick’s again and that’s when shit hit the fan with Ginny and all the stuff Kassie had taken. There was drama but I think it’ll work itself out eventually. We left for Kelly’s house around 10:00 and it took forever but finally got there and made it to bed by 12:45 or so.
Saturday 4/29, We got up and ready then over to Dick and Roxy’s to hang out for the morning before Grandma’s viewing. We watched the football draft and just talked until Beau got there with his prom date and soon after that we left for the viewing. It was from 3:30 – 4:00 for family, then 4:00 – 8:00 for everyone else. Grandma looked pretty good but Kassie and I just stood there for a while and cried together. They had her hands covered up and we didn’t know why, but later someone looked and said the hands didn’t look very good, so that’s probably why. We left to go to Grandma and Grandpa’s house for a bit to look at stuff and pick out a memento or two, I got a little salt and pepper shaker that are two birds sitting on a branch. Kassie found a lot more stuff and put it all aside. I hitched a ride back with Clint and Dylan to the funeral home and sat with Mom for most of the rest of the time. Talked with Ginny and Keith about St. Martin and chatted with a few other people. Finally we went over to Cactus Jack’s for dinner but the waitress lost the order for our table so Kassie got pissed and yelled a bit and Uncle Larry said “Is that Dale or Kassie?” which was hilarious. I got my food though because mine was on the second page, but the other girls didn’t get theirs until about 10:00. We ate and left to go back to Clint’s where we stayed up until 2:00 talking with him in his bar about all sorts of interesting stuff.
Friday 4/28, Got up around 6:00 and headed over to Mom’s cause Dad was going to take Kassie and I to the airport to go to MN. We got all checked in and Kassie bought some morning goodies and we waited at our gate to board. The flight was uneventful though we both slept a little. We landed and ran into Mom and Dad, grabbed a little snack and headed to baggage claim to meet up with the girls. Mom and Dad went to get the rental car while we waited for the luggage, and us girls waited outside for about an hour for them to bring the rental cars. We finally got underway and sat in traffic for a while before turning off onto another route that Dad must’ve known was a shortcut or something. We finally got to Dick and Roxy’s and ate a bunch of food and just hung out there all night. The four girls went to Clint and Jodi’s to spend the night.
Thursday 4/27, I went over to B’s after work and was planning to meet Kassie to do a hand off of Peggy’s goods, but she never showed up. B and I hung with the roommates until it was time for him to go to bed, at which point I brought the clothes in and we all tried stuff on and had a really good time. I got talked into wearing a sequined poofy top to Neighbours, but I only ended up wearing it in the car cause I would have been way too hot. I picked Susan up and we headed over. Nothing monumental happened, just danced and left by 1:00.
Saturday 4/29, We got up and ready then over to Dick and Roxy’s to hang out for the morning before Grandma’s viewing. We watched the football draft and just talked until Beau got there with his prom date and soon after that we left for the viewing. It was from 3:30 – 4:00 for family, then 4:00 – 8:00 for everyone else. Grandma looked pretty good but Kassie and I just stood there for a while and cried together. They had her hands covered up and we didn’t know why, but later someone looked and said the hands didn’t look very good, so that’s probably why. We left to go to Grandma and Grandpa’s house for a bit to look at stuff and pick out a memento or two, I got a little salt and pepper shaker that are two birds sitting on a branch. Kassie found a lot more stuff and put it all aside. I hitched a ride back with Clint and Dylan to the funeral home and sat with Mom for most of the rest of the time. Talked with Ginny and Keith about St. Martin and chatted with a few other people. Finally we went over to Cactus Jack’s for dinner but the waitress lost the order for our table so Kassie got pissed and yelled a bit and Uncle Larry said “Is that Dale or Kassie?” which was hilarious. I got my food though because mine was on the second page, but the other girls didn’t get theirs until about 10:00. We ate and left to go back to Clint’s where we stayed up until 2:00 talking with him in his bar about all sorts of interesting stuff.
Friday 4/28, Got up around 6:00 and headed over to Mom’s cause Dad was going to take Kassie and I to the airport to go to MN. We got all checked in and Kassie bought some morning goodies and we waited at our gate to board. The flight was uneventful though we both slept a little. We landed and ran into Mom and Dad, grabbed a little snack and headed to baggage claim to meet up with the girls. Mom and Dad went to get the rental car while we waited for the luggage, and us girls waited outside for about an hour for them to bring the rental cars. We finally got underway and sat in traffic for a while before turning off onto another route that Dad must’ve known was a shortcut or something. We finally got to Dick and Roxy’s and ate a bunch of food and just hung out there all night. The four girls went to Clint and Jodi’s to spend the night.
Thursday 4/27, I went over to B’s after work and was planning to meet Kassie to do a hand off of Peggy’s goods, but she never showed up. B and I hung with the roommates until it was time for him to go to bed, at which point I brought the clothes in and we all tried stuff on and had a really good time. I got talked into wearing a sequined poofy top to Neighbours, but I only ended up wearing it in the car cause I would have been way too hot. I picked Susan up and we headed over. Nothing monumental happened, just danced and left by 1:00.

