Sunday 5/21, I woke up and went over to Mom’s for brunch and was planning on going over and helping Kassie clean up the mess. Brunch was nice and I ate a little too much, but it was fun and I spent some time with Grandma just talking. I bought a tomato plant from a little kid on the side of the road for Chrystol and Schuyler on the way to B’s house. When I got there we sat down and he said he was sorry and I told him I appreciated it and got up to give him a kiss but as I leaned down into it something was off so after I pulled back I looked at his eyes and knew something was wrong. I asked “We need to talk about something don’t we?” and he said yes and then was having a hard time saying it and was putting his hands over his eyes and had his head back. Finally he said that he was still thinking about the future and just didn’t think it was going to work out and that he was feeling different about me and I just started crying because I was so shocked, I couldn’t believe what he was saying. I told him I didn’t even know what to say and he offered to get me some tissue and I kept crying and he was talking but who knows what he was saying. Finally I stood up and looked at him and told him I couldn’t believe he was breaking up with me and as I was going into the bathroom to get more tissue he said that he didn’t think it was fair to me to be half-hearted and didn’t I agree. When I got back in the living room I picked up my purse, put my sunglasses on, looked at him and shrugged and turned around and walked out. I didn’t even know what to say. I couldn’t even think. So I sobbed on my way to the car and called Kassie and asked her if I could come over and when I got there she just hugged me we talked. She had to go to work so I went home and cried the whole way barely even paying attention to what I was doing. When I got there I was still sobbing and Susan was like “Oh my God, what’s wrong” and hugged me and I told her and she was shocked and we laid in her bed for a while and talked until I got up to go into my room to try and sleep and sort things out. I called Kay-See and she came over and brought me my S-Bucks favorites: hot chocolate and chocolate chip cookie, what a good friend! We talked for a while which made me feel better and after she left Dad called so I rehashed it for him then to Mom. They were both so helpful and I was still in shock and crying every two seconds but it really helped a lot. Um…I’m not sure what else happened for the rest of the day but I’m pretty sure it involved crying in bed. Oh, Desperate Housewives two hour finale, too loooong. Mom finally called at like 11:15 and had some choice things to say about B and was very long winded about it considering I didn’t get off of the phone until after midnight. I surprisingly had a dream where we were still together and Diana was there and everything was fine and we had just bought some things at an auction. Then I woke up.

Saturday 5/20, I got up around 8:30 and went to water the plants again and drop off the mail. When I got back I went on a nice walk and listened to the Scissor Sisters. I felt pumped! I packed up my stuff for Kassie’s party and stuff to spend the night at B’s and headed out. When I got to Kassie’s I helped her start cleaning up then Chels got there and we did more decorating, but the place looked great, very seafarer. We went to the salon later in the afternoon and Tiffany did my makeup and put fake eyelashes on me which looked very cool. We continued to set up all the way until people started showing up at 9:15. B came but wasn’t feeling good and had a headache and later was being mean saying “I’m not feeling chatty” when I asked him to come sit by me on the couch and when I asked him if he wanted me to come over after the party to spend the night he said “I don’t care”. This pissed me off, but I wasn’t about to let it ruin my night, it had the opposite effect in fact, I was determined to have an even better time. So Kay-See and her friend came and we went upstairs for a tour then Chrystol and Schuyler showed up and they came upstairs and we chatted there for a few minutes before going downstairs where B told me he was leaving, with no sort of emotion. I got the camera out for Chrystol and she got some really great shots that are hilarious. So much happened so I guess I’ll hit the highlights. One of Kassie’s friends brought some performance artists guy who ended up taking all of his clothes off and putting his penis and nuts in a shoe and dancing around with Zack’s triton. After he took all of his clothes off he sat on Kay-See’s lap and rubbed his ass and scrotum all over her pristine white sailor pants. It was HILARIOUS! And it’s all on video. Before this lap dance and strip tease he had introduced himself to me twice in the span of 5 minutes, saying “Hi, I’m Chris”. I’m pretty sure he was on something. The other highlight of the night was the dance party that started and everybody getting down. Kassie and Mike had some flirty dancing going back and forth and finally she got him on the floor, was dry humping him, licked his chest and then bit his nipple. He screamed and after Kassie went outside Schuyler heard him say “I kind of liked it” and then “Hot!”. We ALL got some good laughs out of that one. Dave the helicopter pilot and Mike started kind of having a dance off and while Dave’s moves were controlled and precise, Mike was all over the fucking place like a spastic. Very entertaining. I danced with Dave a little bit and Zack pushed us girls all over the place with his ass. After Chrystol and Schuyler left the dance party continued but the cops showed up and when the cop said to Chelsea “Hey sailor, keep it down” she pushed his arm playfully and said “You keep it down” with a coy smile. Only Chelsea I swear. I met one of the hot guys after Kay-See and friend left, talked to Dave one last time and then headed home. Kassie's parties are great because there are about 5 guys to every 1 girl. I remember thinking that if I didn't have a bf that I would be all over Dave, especially after he said we'd have to have another dance party again soon, with a suggestive smile. I got into bed around 3:00 or 3:30 I think.

Friday 5/19, I went home after work and Susan and I went to Nordstrom Rack where I picked up some new party shoes and some workout wear for the walks I’m going to try and make regularly. After we got back I started making chocolate chip cookies for Kassie’s Sequins and Seafarers party, but only had enough supplies for one batch, so I made them small so there would like there were more. B and I only talked briefly and he was going to go straight to his house after work because I was meeting Kay-See for coffee the next day. I went to bed at a normal time I think.