Thursday 6/29, Susan and I walked down to the park and actually did some jogging down to the water where there were a couple of boys swimming. I told Susan that we should make out with them on their beach blankets, but we didn’t. Because they were like 15. When we got home I made a big salad and my leftover pizza. Not much else, just read before going to bed.

Wednesday 6/28, I did my short walk but I didn’t really push it because it was hot out. I made brownies and a pizza for dinner and talked to Dad about hiking. He gave me some great ideas for places to go and they’re all a bit out there but should be fun when I get around to doing them.

Tuesday 6/27, I was going to go on a walk but cramps got the better of me so I didn’t. I read and played on my computer instead. I made a big omelet for dinner with broccoli and yellow tomato with cheddar and mozzarella cheese. It was good.

Monday 6/26, Got home from work and it was very hot, but I dragged up the AC from the garage and got it kind of set up and had cool air blowing without too much trouble. It didn’t cool my room down that much but standing right in front of it felt good. I had a make-shift dinner that consisted of a giant salad and a toaster strudel and left the house at 8:00 for my walk. I was determined to bust ass and try to be back within a half hour. I ran about ¼ - 1/3 of it and made it back at exactly 8:30 exhausted with sweat dripping off of every part of my body. It was still like 80° outside, probably maybe. I don’t really know, but that’s what it felt like. I took a cool shower and read my Paul Thoroux book until I went to bed.

Sunday 6/25, I couldn’t sleep past 7:00 despite having gone to bed around 2:00 so I finally got up around 9:30 and went on my long walk, but it was already hot out and I sweated my ass off. Plus my butt hurt from the hike on Sat so my butt really hurt after that. I was hanging out when Kay-See called and asked if I wanted to go out on a boat, so I said yes and she was going to call me back, so I hopped in the shower and shaved my legs then she called back and told me we were going to be traveling to Lake Tapps (Taps?) to go ride on Ryan’s friend Hoss’ boat. I thought it would be fun so we decided to meet up and join in the sunny-day boating experience. We all met up at the Top Foods then headed to somebody’s boss’ house with Carolyn and Dave (I think). We hung out on the dock for a while until everyone arrived then we boarded the boat and took off. Kay-See and I sat in the back and we joked that I owed it to the boys to let them look at me in my bathing suit as a form of payment for letting us tag along on the boat trip. We went to a kind of calm spot and parked and the boys all jumped in and swam around while we listened to old-school rap and chatted. We got a call to go pick up Hoss’ brother so we got them and cruised around the lake for a while enjoying the sun and just being on a boat. It was a fabulous way to spend a Sunday. We jumped ship a little after 5:00 and headed home where I took a cool shower and relaxed for the rest of the evening and tried not to overheat. I talked to Chrystol briefly and she said that as her and Schuyler were driving home from The Ballroom they saw me, Kay-See and AGF as we were walking past the Egyptian and she said she heard me say “I’ve got a pep in my step” and she figured it must have gone well with Andy. How funny.

Saturday 6/24, I got up around 7:45 and went and got gas at Costco then back home to eat breakfast and prepare for the hike. Chrystol and I departed around 9:20 (after experimenting with the stripper mug that Schuyler purchased for me for “$100.99”) but a little while into our trip I realized that I had forgotten to go to the bathroom before leaving, so I had to use the stinky outhouse and I will NEVER FORGET AGAIN! The parking lot was totally packed by the time we got up there around 9:40 and I had to park in front of the stop sign, but I didn’t get a ticket so it was ok. It was warm before we even got started so I knew I’d be sweating a whole lot. I think we made it to the top in record time because I let Chrystol lead and it kicked my ass. I’m convinced I can’t lead because I go too slow, I need someone else who’s motivated so I don’t want to lead ever again. I get a better workout that way. We got to the top without seeing a single cute guy, it was all couples, groups of women and dogs. Very disappointing. We sat up top for a while then started our descent down and probably did that in record time too, talking all the while. As we got close to the bottom Chrystol spotted wild blackberries and they were teeny, so we both found a couple that were ripe and they were delicious and made up for not seeing any cute guys. We got in the car and drove back to my house still gabbing away and I think she might do it with us again so that’s fun. We gossiped about B quite a bit on the drive home so I’ve got some insight on that, but not much reassurance. Oh well. After she left I cleaned up the kitchen a bit and did some tidying up then I made my rice krispie treats and they turned out very good. I decided I wanted a fresh batch in case I managed to wrangle Andy into coming over to make out. I showered and relaxed for the rest of the day until it was time to start getting ready for partying festivities. Kay-See called around 7:00 to see how we wanted to coordinate and ended up calling me back around 8:45 to see if I wanted to go with her and AGF (Adorable Gay Friend) to Rosebud before heading down to Cowgirls Inc. so I said yes and headed out the door. Got up to Capitol Hill and it was already crowded and it was barely 9:00 so I made my way over from the lot and thought I would stop in Toys in Babeland before finding Kay-See and AGF, but I was spotted across the street and holla-ed at by them so Kay-See and I went to TiB, got Chrystol’s b-day present, met AGF outside the store and went into Rosebud. We hung out in the courtyard and gossiped until about 10:15 then headed down to CI where we soon learned there was a Kenny Chesney concert happening at Qwest Field and there were people everywhere. And not just regular old people, people in cowboy hats and shirts with eagles and American flags on them. Kay-See decided she was going to take pictures of people wearing cowboy hats, and little did we know that’s all that would be at CI. So I spotted Andy working the exit door and went up and gave him a hug, but was a little disappointed to see that he’d cut his hair, I liked it longer. So we chatted for a minute and I did introductions then we went in. AGF got stranded though because the stupid girl at the front said the cover was $10 when Andy had said it was $5 then one of the bouncer’s wouldn’t let me back down to give AGF money to get him in, finally the girl shouted “Let the blonde girl through!” so he did. We got in and then started taking pictures and people watching. AGF got a dark picture of Andy so I’d like to see that one again, but it was so fun we just took pictures and danced and laughed at people falling off the mechanical bull, it was a really good time. Kay-See kept saying she wanted to come back when she was drunk and AGF tried to act straight and we decided people probably thought he was gay but he didn’t know it yet, like “Who’s he kidding?” it was fun. About 11:15 we decided to make our exit and I was so nervous and AGF told me how I should slip Andy my number so I felt better about that and they were going to lead and wait for me outside to make my move. So we start toward the exit door and I realize he’s not working the door anymore so I yelled at the other two, “Stop, he’s not down there!” so we all clambered back up and I spotted him and went in for the kill while AGF and Kay-See waited a few feet away. Andy told me good luck or something, but I didn’t hear him so he repeated it and I was like, “Uh, ok” then I told him we were going to take off and then I told him I was going to give him my number in case he ever wants to hang out or make out. And he goes “I think I could do that” so I said good, smiled and said bye then I turned to the other two and said “Let’s hit it!” though AGF was looking out of the corner of his eye when I turned around and I thought that was hilarious. So we left and I told them about the exchange and we laughed all the way to the car. The Kenney Chesney concert had just let out so we sat in traffic for a while then saw some pickup back into a Mercedes and speed off though there were people everywhere that saw it but I doubt anyone actually got the information. We couldn’t catch up with him because of the light but then this guy in cowboy boots and a hat goes running up the hill after him because he was stopped at a light and they start yelling at each other but the guy speeds off so who knows if anyone got his plate or anything. We got up to the Hill and traffic was still terrible, but AGF ran up to the top and saved us a spot and pissed off two queens. We ran over to Neighbours and there was an insane line that went around the block. While we were walking to the back of it I saw Matt Parker the gay guy I had a huge crush on when I was 15 and when he was still in denial. I went up to him and he had the most confused look on his face but then said he recognized me from myspace and said that I looked really good, so that was nice then he offered to let me stand in line with him, but I didn’t need to plus he was really drunk. So we waited in line and the bouncer hugged me then we paid and Travers said “Hi Sunshine” so that made me laugh, then we went in and saw the downstairs then danced. The music was kind of weird though, too trance-y, we ended up staying until 1:00 then Kay-See and AGF walked me to my car and I drove home, a little giddy of course.

Friday 6/23, I got off of work early around 11 and went home and got ready for my walk, I did the 3 miler and got a little bit of sun in the process. When I got back I ate, showered and went down the lake for 3 hours. When I got home I hung out there for a little while then went over to Mom’s and brought some movies for us to choose from and ended up picking “Don’t Tell Mom the Babysitters Dead” because Josh Charles is in it, though I realized, he isn’t in that much of it. I left Mom’s around 9:45 and went home and enjoyed having the house to myself and stayed up reading but turned in kind of early because Chrystol and I were going hiking the next morning.

Thursday 6/22, I didn’t work late and ended up staying at home because I didn’t have to go down the lake. I relaxed and it felt like a very long evening. I kept looking at the clock and thinking that it felt like I’d been home for a very long time but it still wasn’t that late. I was too tired to go for a walk plus it was warm.

Wednesday 6/21, Stayed late at work again and didn’t have time to walk before going over to Kay-See’s for dinner, so I just showered and relaxed until 6:30 then grabbed my salad-fixins and headed out. I got there and she was busy preparing a delicious wheat pasta with veggie marinara combination and I pretty much watched because I’m not much help in the kitchen besides stirring something once in a while. We ate and gossiped about all sorts of things, but one of the highlights was our discussion about the independent pirate film I’m looking into purchasing. It’s received rave reviews and a little bit of pirate action could really improve my outlook on life. Um, sure. I always have so much fun hanging out with Kay-See, mostly because of the fun conversations we have, but it also helps that she puts yummy food in my belly. And speaking of yummy food she made this strawberry/balsamic vinegar/brown sugar/yogurt dessert that was so good that I went to the store this morning and purchased some vanilla yogurt to create my own delightful dessert this evening. Yum! I even bought a peach to see how it goes with a variety of fruits (I have blueberries too!). When I got home I crawled into bed and read for a little while then went to sleep.

Tuesday 6/20, Stayed an hour late at work so Susan and I went on a short walk after work because I was tired and hungry. Um, I can’t remember what else.

Monday 6/19, I stayed a little late at work to get some overtime and to also help prep for the big meeting on Friday. When I got home Susan and I took a walk and went up the switchbacks twice and got a decent workout. Ate some dinner, called Mom and talked to her a bit and hung out for the rest of the night.

Sunday 6/18, Dad called me around 9:00 and we chatted for a bit, I wished him a happy Father’s Day then talked to Auntie Heidi, Rose and Aubs. Susan and I went for a walk and didn’t want to go back because it was so nice outside, but we eventually did. When we got back I got the ladder up from the garage and finished painting the stairwell going to the upstairs. It was a little nerve wracking because I couldn’t really reach some parts so I was holding onto the ladder for dear life and leaning into those spots and I eventually got them all. So now it’s done! Susan left to go do errands downtown so I had the house to myself for the rest of the afternoon. I went grocery shopping and watched Sex and the City until I fell asleep. Mom called at 4:40 to tell me they were leaving for Outback for Father’s Day, so I groggily got up and drove down there. Since I had a late lunch I only had a bowl of onion soup and a salad, though Grandma shared her steamed veggies with me so that was nice. It was a pleasant dinner, if not a bit too early. I went home after that and laid around editing blogs for the rest of it until the Brady show came on so Susan and I watched it downstairs then retired to our rooms.

Saturday 6/17, Got up around 7:15 for Kay-See’s and my hike up Little Si again. We got an earlier start this time and though it was a cooler and cloudier day, it was just as beautiful a hike as when it’s sunny. We saw one really cute guy on our way up and when we got to the top there was only one guy who was all “zen” as Kay-See put it. We sat up there for quite a while just watching the clouds and talking. There was the cutest little squirrel that wanted something to eat, but we didn’t give in despite his constant circling around us and incredible cuteness. We decided to start back down but checked this look out point that drops straight down but has a better view than our other one, then joked about jumping out of the bushes at unsuspecting hikers and scaring them. We passed quite a few groups of people hiking up and one particularly cute blonde boy with his mom (we’re guessing). Kay-See almost made me turn around a couple of times to go back up and make him fall in love with us, but we didn’t. We’re working on our “hiker banter” so we can start to make friends with cute boys. We talked all the way back down, tried some salmon berries (the orange ones are apparently more ripe than the red, go figure) and ended up beating our time, then back down to my house. I showered and dressed then headed out to a tile place to browse. I hit the bank for some cash and saw Troy the banker who worked at the MI branch then at the Issaquah branch then disappeared, but now I know where he is. We talked for a while and he gave me his card in case I ever have any problems with my account, though I don’t foresee that happening. After I got home I napped for a while and felt groggy when I woke up. Susan and I both started getting ready to hit Cowgirls Inc and Neighbours. We wanted to get to CI early so that the crowds wouldn’t be so big and I would be able to talk to Andy more. We found parking closer to the club this time and went in. Susan asked if Andy was working and the bouncer said yes so we went in. Susan sees him first, but I get the first hug and we chatted for a second about how he keeps not coming to Neighbours but he said that they’ve got him working there Tuesday to Saturday, so he can’t. Then he said something but I didn’t hear, so I said “What?” and he nodded. Um, ok. We decided to go watch the girls dance on the bar and he kept walking by us cause they have to keep that area clear, so one of the times I grabbed him and we chatted for a minute and I was feeling brave to I asked him if he was still with his gf, he said no, I asked him if he had another gf he said no, that him and his gf broke up 2 weeks ago, so I was like “My bf broke up with me 3 weeks ago!” and he said “They don’t know what they’re missing” and I just smiled at him, so hopefully he got the hint. That’s all I could do was keep smiling, he’s just so damn cute. Susan corrected me and told me it was 4 weeks, and she’s right, which means that him and his gf must have broken up right at the time we went to see him last time. Hmmm. We got asked by some guy if we wanted to dance, but I don’t think he spoke English or was drunk or something because he just kept asking if we wanted to dance. Andy also said earlier that he’s almost worse off financially now than he was when he was working Neighbours and I asked him how and he said “This place is weird” and that he’d been bar backing in the beginning but now he’s back on security full time, so I hope he doesn’t mean it’s weird like he’s doing coke and wasting all his money that way. Um at some point I said that we were going to go up to Neighbours and he said that he appreciated that we came and saw him, which was nice. He saw us by the mechanical bull and pointed toward us and then to the bull and smiled, I just shook my head and smiled. He’s so cute, his hair is getting long and I like it. Not long in a conventional sense, just long for him. I think he’s still got that tongue ring too. Then when we were leaving I said “It was good seeing you” and he said “It was great seeing you” oooh, “great”! I’m a little irritated that I didn’t give him my number or ask him if he wanted to make out but I’ll finesse my line for next time. So I said bye and I think I got another hug then we headed up and Travers started screaming and calling for help. I laughed and gave him a tip so that he won’t scream the next time we come, but he wouldn’t promise anything. Nothing terrible exciting happened, we just danced a lot and ended up leaving around 12:40, pretty early for a Saturday night.

Friday 6/16, I was too tired to go for a walk so both Susan and I stayed in for the night. I watched tv and vegetated for the night. I think I went to bed around 11:30.

Thursday 6/15, I went for my 3 mile walk when I got home because I got off a little early and wanted to get a good workout in. I think I ate dinner and watched tv, showered and then got ready to go to Neighbours. Susan and I decided to leave earlier than usual so we could go to Toys in Babeland before it closed at 10:00. We got there around 9:00 I would say and looked around for quite a while. I got the Orchid and wanted to get this pirate porn because it looked totally entertaining, but at $60 I decided it would not be a very good investment. We went back to the car to drop off our loot then walked up to Everyday Music where I proceeded to buy 4 cds, all used, but still, I wasn’t intending to spend that money but out the door it went. I thought I saw Julien but I’m not sure if it was him or not. We walked back to the car so I could drop off the cds then we headed up to Neighbours and gave the bouncer a hug, talked with the money-taker guy who surprised me again by actually engaging in conversation, then went in. The place was pretty empty for a while and surprisingly no Bun. I think he’s probably still humiliated from last week after his awkward attempt at conversation with Susan. After dancing for a while we decided to go try to find that cute trucker-hat boy that had hit on Susan before so we went upstairs and watched the crowd before Susan went over to talk to him because he was playing pool by himself. Faith came on so I ran downstairs to dance by myself and as I was doing it I looked up onto the stage behind me and Craig was standing there so I just sat there with my mouth open pointing at him. I didn’t go up to him though, and he came down to me, so I told him his hair was long and I liked his jacket and that they were doing a new Top 40 80’s Night and that DJ Von Trapp had been in and out of the dj box all night. Then Footloose came on and a horrified look manifested itself on Craig’s face and he walked back up onto the stage, while I really let the dance moves come. Susan came down too so we danced to it, then another one came on and Craig came down to give Susan a hug and he actually stayed and danced with us for a while, despite these ugly humping gay guys who kept bumping into us and some drunk girl who fell down the stairs right into Craig. I laughed for about 5 minutes after that happened, not because she fell into Craig, just that she fell period. I didn’t go over to say hi to Thomas like Susan did so instead he blew me a kiss across the dance floor so I blew him one back, it was so cute. Blue shirt was back, but I don’t know if he recognized us. We went outside to get some fresh air at some point, but there isn’t fresh air out in the alley anymore because of all the smokers. I was introduced to a couple of Susan’s other friends and they were all very nice, but then we decided it was time to go so we walked back to the car and went home.

Wednesday 6/14, I stayed late at work again so that I can sleep in on Friday morning after dancing it up. When I got home Susan and I went on a walk, it’s the one I do when I’m feeling tired or not particularly inspired to be walking. I ate dinner and like 4 cookies then up to my room for some reading, showering and blog editing. I watched Celebrity Poker Showdown until 11 then read a few chapters in my book about Caravaggio. I dreamed I promised Leigh that I would go to Mexico with her for Thanksgiving. It was weird.

Tuesday 6/13, After getting home and relaxing for a while Susan and I took off to go do some errands. First to Costco for gas and other necessary items, then to Pier One to return that little table I wasn’t in love with, then to Bed Bath and Beyond for some cedar chips and stuff because I’ve got a renegade moth or something eating holes in my new white Favorite T and other items. Then we walked over to Target where I spotted a few semi-cute guys, but Susan called me desperate for looking at them. Well maybe I am. If Andy isn’t at Neighbours tomorrow I might have to make out with myself, or worse, some irritating frat boy. After we got home I started on my batch of chocolate chip cookies and called Dad to thank him for sending me a brand spankin new Eagle Creek bag that I didn’t even ask for or know was coming. Then I called Zeph to see if he wants to hike on Saturday and he said yes if he doesn’t have to work, yay! It’s been forever since I’ve seen him and it would be nice to have a hot guy to hike with. After I finished my cookies I took a shower and settled into bed and had lights out by ~11:00.

Monday 6/12, I stayed a little late at work in order to come in late on Friday morning after dancing. When I got home Susan and I went on a quick walk because it was raining and I was starving. Ate dinner and watched the usual shows, then showered and relaxed in bed for the rest of the night. I dreamt that B ran off with B. Boskett from high school and humiliated me all over again. I cried a lot.

Sunday 6/11, Kay-See and I were going to go on a hike so I got up around 7:00 and started getting ready. She got there right at 8:00 and we took off about 20 minutes later and were at the trailhead by 8:45 or so. We started up and were just having fun talking and enjoying the scenery, taking an occasional picture and waiting for the cute guys to show up. We watched the rock climbers for a while and talked about how hot they were, even though I’m pretty sure they could hear us. We got to a point that we thought was the end and had our snack and took pictures but then these girls walked by and I was all “Are we not at the top?” and she told us it was only about another 100 feet, so we got up and walked the last little bit and it was gorgeous. The sun was out and there were only a couple of people up there and we had just hiked 2.5 miles UP HILL! It felt good. I took a couple more pictures where I have fat face, and we eventually decided to start on our way back down. This was a much easier task and as an added bonus all the cute boys that I’ve heard about were making their way up while we were descending. Some sans shirts even. We heard some little girls say they were eating salmon berries and I shouted “I knew they were salmon berries!” because I had told Kay-See I thought that’s what they were, and this little 4 year old just confirmed it. I was very proud of myself. We got back to the bottom at 11:20 and headed back to my house then Kay-See took off. I showered and laid around for a while and eventually went to Bed, Bath and Beyond for a cheese grater then to the grocery store. I lounged for the rest of the day, working on my “Homes and Gardens” scrap book while watching The Bread, My Sweet. Talked to Chrystol for a little while on the phone then watched some SatC until Susan got home. We watched the Brady Wedding show and each turned in for the evening.

Saturday 6/10, I heard Susan leave for PDX and I got up not too much later, ate some breakfast and got ready to go on a walk. When I got back I went on a cleaning frenzy. I cleaned both the downstairs bathroom and mine, the kitchen sink, the counters and stove top, swept the main floor then mopped, vacuumed the main floor and stairs, then finished by vacuuming my room. I decided I was going to see the 12:00 showing of Da Vinci Code so I showered, got ready and headed out the door to that. It was good, though some of the stuff I thought I remembered from the book wasn’t in the movie, but it was still entertaining nonetheless. I walked over to Pier One after the movie and picked up a new little rug for the kitchen and a little table for the entryway, but I think I’m going to take the table back because for $90 I should be in love with it right? Yeah, I could spend that $90 on an external hard drive or something instead. I went home and continued on my organizing / cleaning crusade. I moved the bookcase Susan no longer wanted into my room and started shifting books / pictures / knick-knacks around and it looks pretty good now. I started watching Brokeback Mountain because I was alone and feeling a little down and I knew that watching that would allow me to cry and feel sorry for myself and sad, and boy did it deliver! I read and watched tv for the rest of the night.

Friday 6/9, Went home after work and went on a walk, though I was tired from being out the night before. I believe I lounged around for the rest of the night.

Thursday 6/8, I showered and kind of did my hair after work then I headed off to Kay-See’s for dinner and gossip. I did the salad and she did the fajitas and all was delicious. I made cream cheese lemon bars and those were pretty good too despite being very difficult to get out of the pan. We had some very important matters to talk about, more specifically Willie and Andy. I told her I would write a blog if anything happened with Andy and I’m sorry to disappoint, but he didn’t show up, boo! Ok, so after I went home I finished getting ready and fixed my hair cause it was a little out there. Susan and I left about 10:20 and I listened to my new cd Kay-See gave me, but mostly I listened to the Muse song over and over. Susan and I both parked in the lot and walked over. There was some butt-metal-hipster show at the place next door and we were very worried for a minute thinking Neighbours wasn’t having 80’s Night, but instead Butt-Metal-Hipster Night, thankfully they weren’t. The bouncer made each of us give him a hug and I think he’s gaining weight cause he looked kind of thick around the middle. The guy who takes the money usually doesn’t say a word to us but last night he was all “I remember you from the last time” and I was like “Boy, it doesn’t sound like that’s necessarily a good thing” to which he didn’t really reply. It was the most I’ve ever gotten out of him. We checked our hoodies and went upstairs to watch the unusually high number of hot guys dancing with each other. They’re doing some “Top 40 80’s Night” now so I’m not sure how I’ll like it, but we’re willing to give it a chance. Kyle was there for the first time in like 6 months he said, so that was nice even though he didn’t dance with us but instead with that other girl we don’t like. Sebastian kept coming over and dancing by us and that weirded me out. Thomas was there and he gave me a hug, yay, and he danced with us for a while. Bun told Susan he loves to watch her dance and then kept apologizing and bowing his head in shame or something, it was weird, but kind of hilarious to watch Susan try to not be a total bitch to him because he was clearly going out on a limb talking to her. Um…I had my eye on the door the whole night but no bf, oh well. There was this short little guy dancing on the stage like a stripper or something that was endlessly entertaining. Then there were a couple of guys who I thought kept looking at me, but I didn’t know if they were looking at me or past me or to the side of me so I just kept dancing, but then the one that wasn’t cute came over but I didn’t pay him much attention so he moved along. That weird raver guy was staring at my ass for a while Susan said and his drunk ass bleach blonde girlfriend wanted to “twirl” me when Susan was talking to Kyle, but I told her I didn’t want to…it was weird. I decided to leave a little after 1:00 and I couldn’t make it out without the bouncer stopping me and asking me how “the better half” is, and I was like “Susan?” and he said no, so I told him B broke up with me and he kept being like, “Let’s hug it out girl” so I had to hug him like 2 more times. Yuck. He wanted to chat, but I wanted to get out of there so I finally left and made it home around 1:30. I think I’m going to change my “About Me” on myspace…

Wednesday 6/7, After work Susan and I went on a walk up the trail by the freeway and decided to do it twice to work our asses. We watched the usual shows and ate dinner in the living room. I think I talked to Aubs this night on the phone forever about Andy, or maybe it was Tuesday night. That’s all I think.

Tuesday 6/6, It took me an hour to get down to Daniel’s from Sammamish, so I was in a charming mood by the time I got there. It was Grandma’s 91st birthday dinner even though her birthday isn’t until Thursday. I got stuck on the end with Dad, Alix and Ernie talking about the Holocaust. The other end of the table was Jake and Kassie fighting and Mom giving in and allowing Jake’s behavior like usual. I’m not sure where the best place would have been. I got the chicken for dinner and have a lot leftover so that’s good. When I got home Susan and I went to Peggy’s cause I forgot to close the windows upstairs then back home. When I got home I showered and settled into bed. Mom called a little after 10 and I argued with her on the phone until 11:00 over Dad and Jake. I had to read my Martha Stewart to calm my nerves. I think I have an idea for repainting my night stand thing.

Monday 6/5, Peggy let me leave early and I contemplated going for a walk but couldn’t muster the energy. If Susan wanted to go on one when she got home I would go. She did so we got ready and went up the trail by the freeway and got a little exercise and sun. I think I’m getting tan already. This walking regime might pan out in more than one department. I made dinner then we watched the usual shows. I did some digging in my room for my Franz Ferdinand and Thrills cds and actually found both of them! Yay, I was very relieved. I played on the internet and read for the rest of the evening.

Sunday 6/4, I got up around 8:30 to go get gas in my car and pick up my groceries for the week then came back and laid in bed. I finally decided around 11 to get up and go for a walk, but I was so exhausted that I had a hard time making it back. I showered and started to get ready to go to Kay-See’s, but she wasn’t feeling well so we rescheduled and I laid in bed for most the rest of the day. When Susan got home we went down to the Rack and I got some bright red Puma walking pants. While I was gone Willie had called me so I called him back but he didn’t answer but eventually called me back and we probably talked for about an hour total (we had one interruption) and talked about all sorts of things. I think I might be slightly smitten with him, but mostly it’s just because I think that he’s a really great person and he’s so funny and easy to talk to. A girl needs that in a boy once in a while. So we have tentatively planned to get together, but we’ll have to see when it actually happens. Susan and I watched A Brady Wedding or whatever it’s called and then turned in for the night.

Saturday 6/3, I set my alarm for 7:00 and got up about 15 minutes later. The weather was nice out so I decided to get ready and attempt my hike up Little Si. I prepared a snack, grabbed my water and was out the door. I got lost on my way there, like 3 times, due to conflicting directions given by different websites. I finally found it and started my hike at 8:30. I was hauling ass up that mountain, but as I got deeper and deeper into the woods, I started getting paranoid. I finally saw one girl coming down, and expected to see many more from what I’ve read on websites and heard from other hikers, but that was it. As I got to where the rock climbing area is I was hearing growling far off in the distance, and though I wasn’t positive it wasn’t a bear, I was trying to figure out if the possibility of getting eaten by a bear was worth getting to the top. I decided yes for the time being (I really wanted to make it to the top, I wasn’t even tired!). That is until I saw something black at the top of the hill I was climbing. I thought it was a bear but then decided it was a large stump. That was enough for me, my heart was racing, there was no one around and making it to the top wasn’t worth the paranoia. I turned around and hauled even more ass to the bottom. I passed about 7 groups of people as I made my descent. Where were all these people when I needed them? Next time I go by myself I’m bringing that bear mace so I can make it to the top. I made it back down by about 9:40 and was home by 10:00. I ate my snack when I got there then took a shower. I read my book for a while then Susan came in and gave me a magazine and there was an article about breakups and that one of the best ways to start to get over someone is to hook up or make out with someone you’ve had a crush on or a friend you find attractive. This is supposed to remind you that you will be attracted to other people again. If a nationally recognized magazine is promoting this, I better board that train and ride it as far as I can. I started to think about Andy and that it would be fun to go down to Cowgirls Inc and flirt with him. I was just daydreaming at this point. I wanted to get out of the house a little later and asked Susan if she wanted to go to an antique store with me so we set off in the muggy weather and looked at all kinds of things at this antique place and I found the cutest tea set that I wanted very badly but would have been a couple hundred dollars by the time the whole thing was purchased, so needless to say, I didn’t buy it. After that we went to Sweet Addition where I got a piece of chocolate toffee cheesecake (yes, it was delicious) and Susan asked me on a scale of 1 to 10 how much I was really considering going out for the night. I said a 7. I called Kassie to see if I could get a dance party going and she said she would consider going out and that Chels really wanted to go dancing that night and to call her. So I did and I told her my plan and asked her if she wanted to go and she said “Hellll yeaaah!”. So it was set. We were going out to Cowgirls Inc to try and find Andy. This is where the problem is though, my hopes were high, but what if he didn’t work there anymore and no one knew where he’d gone? That was going to put a damper on the whole night. I tried to push those thoughts out of my head but was being cautious so I wouldn’t totally be let down. I called Chrystol to see if she wanted to go and she did so we started the planning. Kassie wasn’t really cooperating with the planning process and I knew then I probably wouldn’t be seeing her even though her and Chels agreed they wanted to go to Cowgirls Inc to meet us. Oh well. I got ready and looked pretty fantastic if I do say so myself. Susan and I set out to pick up Chrystol and made our way down to Pioneer Square. I never got lost but we definitely took the scenic route and I knew the place as soon as I saw it. The line was around the block so we found parking and began our wait. I was so nervous, but then I spotted him working the exit door. I tried to get his attention a few times but it didn’t work. Finally he looked in my direction and I smiled at him and kind of put my head down and looked at him real sassy-like and he acknowledged me by bowing his head and smiling. As we waited in the long ass line I kept smiling at him and he would smile back, it was very exciting. Ha. Ok, so we got closer to the door he was working and I finally went up to him but this stupid girl was asking him all these stupid questions and he was getting annoyed but she finally left and I said hi and he put his arms out for a hug, and of course I obliged, then that stupid girl came back so I asked him real quick what the cover was and went back to stand in line. We finally got in and it was so crowded that we just stood by the mechanical bull and watched people fall off. Chrystol and I went to the bathroom then watched the girls dancing on the bar and headed back over to Susan. We decided we’d had enough because there wasn’t even a dance floor, so I plotted my next move with Andy and moved in. He asked us if we were leaving already and we told him we were going to Neighbours, and I said that he should go to Neighbours on Thursday cause I was going to go. He said he might have to work but he’d try cause he hadn’t been up there forever. There were these two guys ogling me while I was talking to him and I should have told them that Andy was my bf and to stop looking at me, but I didn’t. I’ve been keeping my fingers crossed since then that he goes on Thursday, but since he said he's been working like crazy at CI I’m not sure how much luck I can count on this week. Soooo, we drove up to Capitol Hill, parked, waited in line barely missing the midnight $8 cover cutoff. We went in and I showed Chrystol around then we went out and started dancing. Susan danced with Phillip on the stage and C and I watched and danced below. I saw Richie trip on the stairs behind C and tried to get his attention but he didn’t hear me. Then I look over and see Kyle (Kay-See’s Kyle) and look over even farther, and who is it? KAY-SEE. I had called her earlier in the evening and left a message asking her if she wanted to go to Cowgirls Inc, but figured she had other plans, well now we knew what they were. So, I run over and start dancing with her and we’re all very excited about each other’s presence. Hugs all around, then they came and danced with us by the stairs. They left after a little while then Margo came and danced with us and I was swiveling my hips and she was like, “I better quit now!” it was funny. We danced for quite a while until about 1:30. The music and crowd were both really good so we stayed longer than I would have thought, but I had so much fun. We left and drove C home and then back to Bellevue. A very successful evening, especially on so little planning. Yay!

Friday 6/2, I had decided that on Saturday I was going to go for a hike so I put out a myspace message and told Schuyler and Chrystol about it, but no one had said they wanted to go so I was tentatively planning to go on my own, provided the weather wasn’t terrible. So, to prepare, I went on a 3+ mile walk and saw a kind of cute guy walking his dog. I was pretty tired by the time I got home because I had busted my ass, but I felt really good about it. I read my book for the rest of the night I think.

Thursday 6/1, I think Susan and I might have gone for a walk and then I just stayed in my room all night.

Wednesday 5/31, B changed his profile to Single and rewrote his Who I Want to Meet and it set something off because I felt like shit for the rest of the day. I went home and cried all night. It was great. I wanted to call him and tell him that he fucking broke my heart and then hang up. I wrote a very angry letter at work and emailed it to myself, but at the advice of my mother decided not to send it. I’m glad I didn’t, but I still can’t help but feel that he doesn’t care that he broke my heart. He hasn’t called me to see how I am, and I know it’s not his job or anything, but if he truly cared about me he would be concerned and want to know how I’m doing. But I don’t think he does, so here we are. I felt like a piece of garbage that he couldn’t wait to get rid of, or that I was just disposable, and he hasn’t done anything to show me that feels differently. So that was my lovely Wednesday night.

Tuesday 5/30, I think I probably went on a walk after work and laid around for the rest of the evening.