Thursday 9/21, After work I kept packing and getting ready to go into Seattle for the evening. I showered and got dressed, called Chrystol to see if it was still ok to come over (she mentioned that B's new gf would probably be there), ate some dinner, talked to Mom and Dad then headed out the door at 7:00. On the way I realized that B may not know I'm coming over so I called Chrystol back to make sure and she said she had told him and he'd said "Do you think she'll be nice to her" yeah, like I'm going to take out my anger on the girl you've managed to wrangle in, rather than you. So I told Chrystol, "Oh, I'll be nice to her, it doesn't mean I'll be nice to him" and she laughed then we hung up. I got over there and unloaded the goodies I brought and was faced with B and gf who walked right by me into the living room from the kitchen. Chrystol, Schuyler, Jason and I sat down at the table to chat and so I could open the gift C got me. First though, she wanted to bring me over to the gf and introduce me, so she stood up and I shook her hand, smiled and said it was nice to meet her, then I glance down at B cause he's sitting right next to her and he won't even look at me. Fucking pussy. So we sit back down and I open my present: Hunks, which is a publication from 1982 by the editors of Playgirl. This thing is hilarious so we looked through it page by page and rated each of the guys. Finally it was just C and me and I was "talking shop" with her about Eric and she made a gesture and Jason saw it so we were all laughing and I'm surprised he was being so engaging. Anyway, pretty soon I started packing up (B and gf had retired to his room about 20 minutes previous) and Jason asked where I was going and then made the same vulgar gesture C had made earlier, so we all laughed and they want me to get a picture with some beefcake on the beach just for Chrystol. As I leave I call Eric who tells me to meet him up at Kate's with some friends so I waited in my car for awhile then went in. Him and Michael were there so we sat for a minute then went in the back where Stacy and Jason met us. Eric was acting kind of weird but Michael and I were chatting away about ANTM, etc so I didn't let it bother me. Then he asked me for my no. but I got his instead so now we can hang out or something. Finally Eric moved over to sit by me but was still acting distant, so I finally got out of him that he was feeling a little down but that he would be better in a few days. We left there to go down to Dante's in the U-District and Michael rode with me and we found it ok, though when we got there we felt super old and thought about asking some of the kids if there were any cool frat parties going on. We only stayed there for about 20 minutes before leaving to head up to the Hill. I went up by myself, parked and walked over even though Susan wasn't there yet. The new bouncer asked for my id and that made me sad but he said he has to and that he remembers my face so I introduced myself and his name is Eric, go figure. I went upstairs for awhile then back down and ran into Susan and we went out to dance and pretty soon Derek made his presence known. I went to do a lap and saw Julien, said hi then kept going and got wrangled by Derek and he was trying to make out with me or something and said he would ask me out if he thought I wasn't seeing someone, but I am, and was still on the lookout for him to save me, but no luck. Finally I got away and back to the floor, then I saw Eric sharking me, but he disappeared and Derek was trying to hump me and dance, but I kept pulling away and trying to figure out where the hell Eric was. I got back to dancing with Susan then spotted Eric and Michael so I went over to say hi and I know both Chris and Derek saw me with him. Then Kyle walked by and I did introductions and he told me about his birthday and almost getting killed by some guys in Kirkland because he mouthed off about his gf. I told Eric I was going back out and ran into Julien on the dance floor and danced with him for a long time and just talked and laughed, he tried to get me up on the stage but I wasn't having it then Susan and I were back in the middle and Eric finally came out so the dancing began. It was fun as always but he wouldn't kiss me, just teasing, then this older woman came over and Eric knows her and she grabs Susan's boobs, then mine, like really groped me for like 5 seconds, then grabs my hands and makes me squeeze hers, OMG. Anyway, so then this guy comes over and is dancing with Susan and he's really cute and Eric is dancing with me on and off but then takes off for awhile so I find Julien and we're dancing again and he's trying to hook me up with his friend Jerry, but I do another lap and find Michael and ask him about Eric, he doesn't know where he went only that he wouldn't leave without saying something and he's probably outside, so I go to look for him and get a juicy kiss. Neither Susan or Eric were outside but when I got back in I found Eric and M but that woman was upset when I came over and Eric told me why and then we went to dance. We started dirty dancing and Craig comes over and is dancing right between Eric and me and Susan and her make-out partner. It was so weird and I finally said hi but he only gave me a half-hearted hug. Finally Eric kissed me and we made out a little bit on and off and Michael was breaking it down a couple of times and around 1:40 I decided it was time to go, so Eric walked me to my car and we talked and then I drove him back and we just sat there and looked at each other and kissed and he wished me a good trip then he finally left, which made me a little sad but it was ok I guess. Drove home and went to bed by 2:30.

Wednesday 9/20, I did my short walk again because it was sprinkling and I didn’t really want to walk at all but knew I should. Got back and ate some dinner and watched tv with Susan then kept packing for my trip. I talked to Eric for quite a while on the phone but kind of got dissed…hmmm, I don’t know, I have to think about things. The good news is all his tests came out ok, even though he tried to fake me out. Susan and I watched Top Model and I talked to Chrystol during the commercials and decided I would go see her and Schuyler the next day before going over to Eric’s. She thought we had broken it off because my myspace blog didn’t mention him, but I told her I wrote that before I even met him. After ANTM (I was sad that the girl I liked was the first to be kicked off, hmpf!)I was excited for Project Runway, but it was a repeat, BLAST! I continued packing and unloaded all the pictures on my camera onto my computer and talked to Kassie. I booked our rental car and finally read and went to bed around 11:45.

Tuesday 9/19, I didn’t do my walk and felt guilty for it because it wasn’t raining and it’s probably one of the last days it won’t be for a very long time…but oh well, I didn’t. I had some waffles for dinner then Susan persuaded me to join her on a jaunt to Northgate so she could get a new monitor. She told me we could go stalk one of my bfs so that cinched the deal. We hit Best Buy and I scoped out all the super hot guys there. Northgate Best Buy has tons of cute boys, who knew? Plus I saw Kay-See’s ex-gay bf, Scott with an older gentleman, who I assume is his bf. After that we drove over to the mall and I bought a new bra at Victoria’s Secret because I had a coupon and I got some free panties (PANTIES Susan, PANTIES!) then we went to the Gap where I picked up some Favorite T’s because I love them and they were on sale. We left the mall and decided to drive by Eric’s work if we could find it, which we did, so we just sat outside and Susan wanted to go in but I felt like such a stalker so I was saying no. So we end up moving from the street into the lot and kind of peeking in the windows and trying to figure out if they’re still open or not. I had called him when we were on our way to tell him casually that we were in the area and thinking of stopping by, but he didn’t answer or call me back in time so I didn’t want to just show up unannounced. So we sat in the car for awhile giggling and plotting but ultimately decided to go home. I watched Flava of Love when we got back and started some laundry. Eric called around 10:15 and I told him we were in the neighborhood and thought about stopping in but I was too chicken and he told me I shouldn’t be and that he has told me before to come down. I reminded him however what the circumstances of that invitation were, and he told me again that I could come by whenever. Yay! Anyway, we got off the phone and I read for a little bit then went to bed.

Monday 9/18, I did my short walk because it was kind of raining and I really didn’t feel like going but forced myself to at least do something, so I booked it and felt good about at least attempting a mile and a half in the drizzly weather. I ate way too much for dinner and ended up just hanging out in my room and not really doing anything for the evening. I talked to Dad and Mom on the phone and Eric called right as I was going to sleep and I faked him out pretending I was asleep like he always does to his friends. We talked for a few minutes then he let me go so I could go to sleep.

Sunday 9/17, I got up around 9:15 and took off for my walk and ran for more of it than I ever had because I was on a schedule, I also didn’t go all the way to where I usually go, but felt I got a pretty good workout anyway, especially since I’d “worked it” on Friday night and my legs and side were killing me. I showered when I got back and called “Julien” and he gave me directions to his apartment and I told him I would meet him there around 11:15 – 11:30, though I got ready so quickly and found parking so easily I was there by 11:00. Jason came down and let me in and they showed me their place, it’s really cute and the baby’s room is adorable and they’ve got more clothes for that kid than I’ve got, and they haven’t even had a baby shower yet! So Jason, Beth and I took off to go down to the Fremont Market, walked around just talking and looking at stuff and Jason wanted to buy everything. Beth was like “He’s a shopper!” and had to dissuade him from buying a giant trunk for all of Harper’s clothes. They did however buy a bench for their living room and while Beth was using the bathroom Jason reprimanded me for ever dating someone who wears tighty whiteys, I told him Eric doesn’t wear any and he said that’s way better than briefs. I agreed. We then hit some hodge podge type shops and some antique ones as well before heading off to Ballard. We talked about Project Runway, smoking and drugs, our families and parenting styles, it was just great! So we go into Ballard and park right by the Ballard Bowl where I proceed to talk all about Eric and look for him, but he wasn’t there (I did find out later that we had just missed him, damn!) so we proceeded on in search of food. Jason called his hot friend to find out where to go but he was busy and didn’t know of anywhere, so I suggested the Highlife and Jason was all over that so we set off for it. When we got there I saw Michael right away and he came over and I got a wonderful hug and he told the host to seat us quickly so we were, ha! I also saw Bun working the bar and was sad that we weren’t seated in Michael’s section, but we were in Laura’s and she said I looked familiar so I jogged her memory and she was very nice, though I felt a little weird about it. We all got breakfast (brunch?) fare, and mine was especially good: vanilla french toast with espresso cream butter and it was absolutely wonderful, and not coffee-y at all, which was my primary concern. We talked all about eco-friendly homes and building materials, cloth diapers vs disposable which contain some chemical banned everywhere except in the US and more about Eric. It was really good and Jason insisted on picking up the tab, thanks dude! Um, then we headed over to ok ok but on the way I showed them the furniture store I like with the two chairs I want and Jason was agonizing over the $1,100 crib that he wants for the baby, then we found ok ok. I was sad that they skateboarding print was gone that Eric and I had seen when he took me there last month. Beth and I mostly looked around and talked about the toys and how creepy some of them are while Jason picked out the ones he was going to buy. After we left there we looked in a baby shop and I wanted to get everything in there for them because it was all so cute and even teased Jason that I was going to buy Paul Frank “tighty whiteys” for Harper, he was disgusted. Then we walked to Starbucks so they could use the bathroom, then back to the car and to Archie McPhee’s where Jason begged Beth to let him buy an old dentist’s chair because it was so comfortable. We all left empty handed and drove back up to Capitol Hill where I said my goodbyes and headed home. I took a nap when I got there and was woken up when Dad called and asked me to pick Jake up. We had dinner and it was really good, spaghetti and I ate about 5 (large) pieces of garlic bread. Kassie and I listened to some music in her car and talked about our “boys” and leaving for St. Martin then we both took off for home. I watched tv and cried from the Home Makeover show right as Eric called so we talked for a little bit and assured me we’d see each other before I left, though I’m skeptical. He told me he’d call me tomorrow so we hung up and I watched Flava of Love then read and went to bed.

Saturday 9/16, We woke up around 9:00 and he said I had woken up earlier around 7:00 and told him I was tired, so he said, “Well go back to sleep” and I said “Ok”. We laid in bed for awhile and I chanted “4 more ‘O’s!” and he was like, “Oh that can be arranged” but I told him I was kidding and had no desire to get off right then, but we ended up messing around for awhile because he had an enormous erection, so you know, what else do you do? Finally we got out of bed and started to get ready, I ate some breakfast and we decided to go up to Crossroads to look at cds. I ended up with 4 dvds but they were all used and cheap so it’s ok. We headed back and he left so Susan got ready and we took off for South Center. We hit Best Buy so she could get her external hard drive, then to Taco Del Mar to try it out and I was moderately pleased with my lunch, but Susan wasn’t at all impressed. We went to Amour on the Boulevard and I almost tried on like 3 outfits, but refrained, though it was especially hard not to try on the nurse costumes. I also almost bought some handcuffs but put them back and decided to try and find some online that are cheaper. Or just take Kay-See’s advice and use a tube sock or some other household item that can work as a tether. We then headed up to Capitol Hill so I could return the stuff I’d purchased at Urban Outfitters then hit American Apparel then back into Bellevue to see “The Last Kiss”. I got a Strawberries and Cream Frapaccino (sp?) and molasses cookie, then Susan gave me all the topping and crumbs from her Coffee Cake which was DELICIOUS and had me practically licking out the inside of the bag. We got settled into our movie and I thought it was fairly good though Susan wasn’t as impressed. We drove home and were there for about 20 minutes so I called Kay-See and made plans to meet up after Billy’s show, then we got back into the car and headed down to Pogacha to watch Billy play. We sat down and Susan ordered the spinach artichoke dip which I ate a ton of because it was pretty good and we watched Billy play and also checked out the 3 really cute guys that were there watching and performing later. I also saw Jordan P. from UPS with some soccer guys but doubt he even saw me or would even recognize me or know who I am, but it was just weird seeing him there. We stayed until 9:40 which was way longer than I had planned on, but the music was good and we wanted more dirt on the cute guys that he knew. I got one of them on video, hee hee hee! Finally we left and Billy walked us out, then I dropped Susan at home and headed out to Kirkland to meet Kay-See at Purple. We decided to get the “Dip” dessert which consisted of strawberries, bananas and shortbread served with warm chocolate and mascarpone which neither of us had had before but found so good that we were both tempted to ask for a box to take the leftover home. We laughed and talked and gossiped about my 4 ‘o’s, boys and real estate among other things. It was a typical fun night with Kay-See. We also vowed to start going out more often to just get dessert or drinks or whatever in Seattle because it’s fun and gets us out of the house. We left Purple around midnight and I had a hard time keeping my eyes open on the way home and crashed out when I arrived.

Friday 9/15, I didn’t go on my walk after work but instead laid around and did some light cleaning in my room in anticipation of Eric coming over. At 6:30 Susan and I decided to go down to the Rack so I could return one of the shirts I bought and to look around and see if there was anything else worth picking up. I almost bought a wallet but decided not to, though I might go down later this week and get it, and I didn’t buy anything else either. After that we went to Dairy Queen for a little snack and I had a delicious Snickers Blizzard, yum! Back at home I showered and watched SatC and had fallen asleep by the time Eric called. He suggested just coming over the next morning if I was tired, but I said nonsense and told him to head over. He got there around 11:30 and we talked a little before starting to make out. He got me off 4 times, yes 4, and literally by the fourth one I was laughing as I was having it because I couldn’t believe I was having yet another one. His goal was 5 but I told him I was done and my legs were very sore from straddling him for an hour in the same position. I told him I was going to start chanting “4 more orgasms!” like the Republicans did during the election (You know “Four more years!”) and he changed it to “4 more ‘O’s!”. I needed to shower off so he joined me and proceeded to hump me in the shower for a half hour right as Susan got home and I’m sure trying to get some sleep. I kept telling him we should get out but he wasn’t having it. When we got out he wrapped both of us in his towel and we made out in the bathroom then he said something about handcuffs and cops and robbers and role playing but we ended up starting to kid around that he was the “patient” and I was the nurse and he was so funny, all “Oh my God, are we doing this already?” but we just played around with it and laughed, I told him I needed a clipboard to draw dirty pictures on and I would say “Now I don’t usually do this with my patients, but…”. It was fun and hilarious. Eventually he got off too but kind of nailed me in the eye, which made me start laughing and led to both of us laughing. I’m still in shock with how intuitive he is, I mean, he knows exactly where to go and how much pressure and what to do when he gets there. I told Susan all he pretty much has to do is touch me and I have an orgasm. The way he does it makes it seem effortless and like all guys are born knowing, but clearly from past experience, I have found this to not actually be the case. It’s hard to explain, but let’s just say, he knows how to get things done and very well to boot. Around 3:15 we settled into bed and fell asleep.

Thursday 9/14, Peggy let me leave early so I could meet up with Auntie Heidi and Rose earlier, so I ended up getting down to the U-District by 5:15 and waited in my car for them and read outside Agua Verde. They arrived, we went in and sat down, put our orders in and started chatting. At the end of the meal I told them about Eric and showed pictures then we packed up and they left. I called Eric to see if he wanted to hang out, he said yes and told me to meet him up on Capitol Hill because he had to take Michael home, so I drive all the way up there and he calls me and says it’s his friend Ruben’s birthday and that he has to go down to Ivars to see him but that it’ll only be like 15 minutes. I told him that if it’s going to be an hour, just tell me now and I’ll go hang out at my sister’s rather than just hang out on CH by myself, he assured me it wouldn’t be that long. So I drive around forever trying to find parking, walk down to Urban Outfitters, buy the same wallet Susan has and some sunglasses, then left because they close at 8:00. I walked down to Everyday Music and looked around and decide by 8:15 that I’m going to start walking back to my car because it’s far away and because I wanted to go to the Muse laser show which started at 9:15 and tickets were only available on a first come first serve basis, so I wanted to be sure to get one and I didn’t know when the hell Eric was going to be calling me. Sure enough he calls me when I’m on my way to the car and says he’ll meet me down at Seattle Center, so I drive down and am looking for parking when I drive by and see the line is around the block, so I call him back and say forget it, it’s not even 8:45 at this point and the line looked like that! He says to meet him up in Wallingford at Kate’s so I drive up there, parallel park (yay!) and go in. He’s there with Michael, Jason, Stacy and Rueben the birthday boy. I talked with Michael forever and at one point I looked over at Eric and I could tell that him and Stacy were talking about me but I asked him later and he wouldn’t be specific. Then Michael left for awhile and Eric wanted to get a hotel room but said it in a very dirty way then we had a conversation about what we’re doing and he told me that it sounds bad but that I shouldn’t expect anything from him but earlier had said he wants to be in a relationship with me, but then said not right now but in the future. It was all very weird then he told me that his friends have all been giving him advice and one said to not call me again, but wouldn’t say who and that obviously he hadn’t taken that person’s advice. I told him that I have super low expectations which he thought was sad and wants to improve. I don’t know, we weren’t done but he got up and went to talk to Rueben and Michael came back so we started talking again. He had found the “Rolls Royce of honey buckets” and we talked about life goals which led to STDs and HIV then Eric came back into the conversation. Finally Michael left and we went into the back to play pool and I talked with Stacy and that was fun, especially when she gets all sassy with Eric and says she’s his only friend because the rest of them had pawned him off on her. At 11:00 I told him I needed to go and he walked me to my car but not before stopping me every 20 feet to make out and lift my shirt up. He said some really nasty things, but I kind of like it, then we made plans for Friday night and next Wednesday. I drove him back and we sat in my car talking and making out some more and he was being dirty again but I told him it was ok, just that guys have never talked to me like that. He finally got out of the car and I drove home and got there around 11:50. Yikes!

Wednesday 9/13, Called Eric after work and made plans to drive in at 6:30 to hang out. Picked him up and we drove down to the U-District to walk around. We went to Tower and I talked with Sandra and she looks great, then looked at the magazines but they didn’t have the new Q so we left, hit Starbucks then walked back to the car. We drove down to Northlake Tavern to meet up with Jason and Stacy, but they didn’t show right away so it was just the two of us talking and laughing and trying to figure out the comic on the wall that referred to “porking”. Jason and Stacy showed up and we all talked and drank (well not me) and made fun of Eric for his cheesy hot dog bun lunch and being from Kentucky. Julien called and I’m planning on meeting up with him on Sunday morning and he spouted off about B for a while so that made me feel good, then we talked baby and hung up. Around 10 we decided to leave so I could drop Eric off at El Corazon, but we made out in the car for a little bit first. Since Jason and Stacy were meeting Eric there I sat in a no parking zone and we just made out until they got there, then he went in and I drove home.

Tuesday 9/12, Walked after work then drove to the SE 8th Park and Ride in Bellevue to meet Alan to go look at the couch I want at Costco Home. We get there and it’s gone, and were then told that they only had it in red, it can’t be special ordered right now and they have no idea when it will be available for special order. Damn! I was really upset because I was ready to buy RIGHT THEN! I should have bought it earlier! Oh well, so I drove home and hung out in my room for the rest of the night. I invited Eric to come over but he said he wasn’t going to or something but that we could get together the next day.

Monday 9/11, Went on my walk, made an omelet for dinner and hung out at home. Can’t remember if I did anything else.

Monday 9/11, I got off of work around 4:00 so I didn’t have an excuse to not go on my walk, and I did pretty well with running for a good part of it. I showered when I got home and re-tried on all my clothes and decided I love all of them except for one shirt I’m not sure about but we’ll see. I did a ton of laundry and hand washed some stuff then just sat in my room. I finally got a hold of Auntie Lauryn and talked to her for a half hour or so, then worked on my collage again before getting ready for bed and reading a little bit in Whale Rider.

Sunday 9/10, I got up around 8:30, ate some breakfast, laid in bed for a little bit then got up and ready for my walk. I pushed it harder than the day before and even ran for a good portion. Sunday mornings are always nice because there’s hardly anyone on the road. When I got back I showered and called Eric to see if he wanted to hang out before going to work, he said yes and to meet him at the Ballard bowl, so I drove down and met him wearing one of my new shirts. I watched him and some other guys skate for a while then he said we could go but we just ended up behind some building with him trying to show me some tricks and saying we couldn’t make out because his skate friends might see. I busted his chops a little over that. Finally we left and drove into downtown Seattle and parked right outside Red so that I could go in and see if Kassie was working, she wasn’t, but I talked to Tiffany and she said Sean would be in later and to stop back by to see the baby if I wanted. She also asked if Eric was my bf and I said no, we’re just kind of dating / hanging out. We left and Eric wadded up his gum wrapper and threw it toward this canister on the ground meant for cigarettes, but missed so I lectured him on littering. When we got to the corner he asked me “Where are we going to go now? Litter school?” and I didn’t even catch it, then he started laughing and saying how stupid what he just said was, and then I realized the ridiculousness of it and we both started laughing hysterically. It was fun. So we ended up just walking around and “window shopping” waiting for Michael to call and meet us. In the meantime we got something to drink and walked up to the Rack and went in and looked around, Eric helped me find some shoes but we both ended up leaving empty handed, then we headed back to the car to go back to Ballard when Michael called and said to meet him, but since we were so close to Red I went in to use the bathroom and Sean was washing someone’s hair and as I walked toward him he goes “I didn’t recognize you because you have SUCH HOT HAIR!” so I laughed and told him Eric was outside and asked if I could use the bathroom, he said of course, so I did then on my way out told him that everyone seriously loves my hair and he said, of course they do, you look hot. I giggled and he said he’d see me soon and as I was walking out Eric came and held the door open for me, awww, then we headed down the street to meet up with Michael and his friends from NY. Michael told me my shirt was cute and we all walked down to Pike Place and just chatted. This girl selling stuff in the market goes “Feel free to handle the woodwork ladies!” and Eric and I laughed for like 5 minutes. We decided it was time to go because Eric had to work so we said goodbye to Michael and headed back to the car. As we walked up to it Sean was facing the street so I pointed to Eric and he smiled and nodded, then we drove back to Ballard where he dropped me at my car and I drove home. When I got there I curled up on my bed watching SatC and fell asleep. Susan woke me up and asked if I wanted to go to Target and Soundsations, so I got up, we drove down and I returned one of the shirts from the day before but ended up buying 3 more then going over to Soundsations to talk to Richrd and Jeremiah for awhile, then to Taco Time so Susan could get some grub. I called Dad when I got home and talked to him all the way to the Mongolian grill place in Bellevue for dinner and got an update on what’s going on down there then went in for dinner which was actually a pleasant meal. Jake was being nice and we talked about Eric a little and Auntie Lauryn then everyone jetted. I called Court on the way home and talked to her for like an hour and a half, forever! I even made a stop at the store all while we talked about the wedding, Eric, me coming down to San Diego and the UPS boys and Spencer. I hope they put him in the wedding that way I can walk with him. I don’t think I did anything else for the rest of the night, except eat some cookies or something and watch SatC.

Saturday 9/9, We woke up at 8:30 and laid in bed until about 9:00 then got up and ready and out the door to go to Sweet Addition where I got a peach scone and Eric got…coffee. Boo! I told him he doesn’t eat very often so he had some bites of my scone, but not the sugary part. We hit the road to Carnation and our first stop was the “bowl” and there were some youngish kids there who were enamored of Eric. It was kind of cold out but he was sweating up a storm while I sat on the bench and watched. We were there for probably an hour before we decided to go to the park. He changed his shirt and we walked around this park which was pretty empty. We found these deserted camping sites and picked blackberries, then I found a stick and was playing with it but almost nailed Eric in the eye a few times. We walked up to “Whiskey Point” or something where him and Michael and someone else had come a few months back, then this little kid comes out of nowhere in the woods, so we get fake-freaked out and leave, but Eric was trying to make out with me while this kid was behind us. We walked back across the suspension bridge and I dropped my stick into the river and we headed back. We talked about our exes a little bit on the way back and he offered to drive, but I was ok, then we decided to get some food and settled on XXX. We sat outside and made out at our table for awhile then he tried to get the splinter out of my finger and it was so cute. A couple of Porsches showed up and it was getting me all hot and he was trying to use it to his advantage. So we ate our food and headed back to my house and he had to leave right away because he only had 20 minutes to get to work. I called Kay-See to tell her to come over and she said she’d call when she was on her way, so I put on Sex and the City and fell asleep then the phone rang but I didn’t answer it, then my cell and Kay-See asked where I was, I said home, and she said she’d been knocking on the door, whoops! So she came back and we talked about Eric and living situations and stupid B then she had to go around 5:30 so I watched more SatC and decided to go on my walk. I was a little stiff so I didn’t really push myself. When I got back Susan and I decided to go down to the Rack where I ended up buying two coats, three shirts, two pairs of underwear and some earrings. Um, I needed new clothes I guess. After I came out of the dressing room I see Collin McCoy and go over and get a hug and we chat for about 15 minutes about what we’re each doing and I met his gf, Jamie I think, and that was really fun. We gossiped about people we went to school with and how we’ve each been spending our time. It was good to see him. Then we headed over to Target where I got more shirts, then we went to Applebees because Susan wanted dessert. We ended up with the appetizer platter and a chimi-cheesecake which I ate way too much of and felt sick from for the rest of the night. We had fun though, chatting, looking at the one semi-cute boy at the bar, conversing with our waiter and listening to the decent music they were playing, plus Susan treated, yay! We went home and I crawled into bed (it was a little after 11:00) and went to sleep.

Friday 9/8, I didn’t go on my walk after work and instead laid in bed and watched SatC. I ate leftovers for dinner and began making a new collage to put in the kitchen with pictures and postcards and stuff. Around 9:30 I showered and got ready for Eric to come over because he was supposed to get off around “10-ish”. Well, I ended up laying around for a very long time waiting for him to get there and he finally called around 11:45 to say that he couldn’t make it out, and I said I figured, then he was all “Sike, I’m about 10 minutes away!” so he got me, and then tried to sneak in undetected with his headlights off. He called me and I told him he better turn them back on so he doesn’t crash into something, but he was trying to play it like he wasn’t there yet, it was funny. So I went and let him in and we just hung out for a little bit, talking, kissing, etc, then I put a cd on and we made out hardcore until 3:30. We “took care of” each other and went to sleep.

Thursday 9/7, I found a whole bunch of pictures online on someone’s flickr account of B and that girl Leia, so of course I can’t look away but at the same time am revolted and start feeling lightheaded. I got pretty upset to say the least. It was him and this girl going to a wedding, hanging out in the backyard at B’s, with Schuyler, at the library downtown, at a park wearing each other’s accessories and having a gay old time. I got so sad and mad that, well, I started crying at work, that’s always good…and felt like absolute shit. I wanted to call him up right then and tell him how much of a fucking asshole he is and that if I never saw his face again it would be too soon. But I refrained through some miracle and instead just felt terrible all day. On top of that I called Eric (before I found the pictures of B) and left a message apologizing for the previous night and hoped he wasn’t all weirded out by it and blah blah blah, and usually he calls me back within an hour and there was no such call. So then I start thinking that he doesn’t want to ever talk to me again so that put me in a super mood in addition to the B stuff. I rolled out of work at my usual 5:00 and cried on the way home, not because I’m not with him or miss him or anything, but because once again I feel like a piece of garbage and he’s just totally moved on and will never look back. I got home and talked to Susan about it a little and told her I didn’t know if I would be up for dancing but that I was going to lay down and let the evening unfold. I started watching SatC and about halfway through my first episode my phone rings and it’s Chrystol and she can sense in my voice that I’m not feeling good and asked if it were an ailment or emotional and I told her emotional and then started spilling about how I found all these pictures and know that he’s now “In a Relationship” with her and that some of the pictures were in their backyard and that I’d had visions of the four of them frolicking together and how much they love her now instead of me, like I’m out of the club. She tells me that he’s not seeing her anymore, and then asks how much I want to know, but then says that I’ve already got my fingers in the mud so she may as well tell me all of it and that she hadn’t because she didn’t know if I wanted to hear it and I hadn’t asked so, yeah. She starts telling me all about B and Leia, some other girl B dated after me that broke it off with him because he offended her when he said that people shouldn’t expect him to buy them gifts and things, then there’s this new girl that he’s seeing that apparently he’s been stalking through the Stranger personals. Anyway, so I talked to Chrystol forever and she made me feel so much better for a number of reasons and had originally called to see if I was going to Neighbours and that if I was and hadn’t had dinner yet, if I wanted to get dinner first, so by the time our conversation was wrapping up I thought that would be fun and that I would go dancing too, so I hopped in the shower, got ready and was out the door a little before 7:00. As I was pulling up to their house Susan called and I could see B and some girl out front with Chrystol, Schuyler and the neighbors, and the girl ran to her car and took off as I was sitting there talking to Susan…so that’s the new gf. She’s a brunette, tall and drives a Pontiac Vibe. Anyway, so as I’m chatting with Susan, Eric beeps in (finally!) so I ask if I can call her back, I talk to Eric for a minute and told him I didn’t think I would be hearing from him again and he asked “Why, cause you’re mad at me?” and I said no, how could I be mad at someone that cute and then gave him a whole bunch of other compliments and he was like “Keep going…” it was cute, so I told him I was going to dinner with some friends and would call him later to hang out. By this time B had gone in the house so I talked with C & S and the neighbors for a minute before we all went in and paged through some magazines, most notably “International Male” and also the International Male underwear catalog, and they were both hilarious and made me feel a little dirty. B came back out and said hi and was trying to join in the conversation and though I gave him a half-hearted “Hi” I pretty much ignored him for the rest of the time. Eventually we took off to go into Fremont to get some Thai and when we were in the parking lot Chrystol mentioned that she had thought about asking me if Eric wanted to come but didn’t want it to be weird, but I was all about it and called him to see if he wanted to come down, he said yes, so we went in and got a table for four and waited for him to show up. We talked and I showed pictures and finally Eric showed up with his skateboard (how cute!) and sat down. We ordered and apparently they give girls bigger plates and meals according to the “Winter Portions” that are put into place. Eric wasn’t very talkative but we all had a good time and had some good laughs, especially at the “Roman Shower” and “Red Wings” discussions, and something to do with me licking my lips that Schuyler caught. I kept pestering Eric about going to Neighbours later because he was saying he didn’t want to go but I had a feeling I could change his mind. Chrystol suggested skipping Neighbours to hang out alone, and I said I would like that but that Susan would kill me. Eric asked me if I wanted to go to Carnation on Saturday morning and I told him I would love to so we’ll see how that goes too. Um, anyway, so we finally leave and I tell him he should ride with us back to the house because my car’s there so we headed into the parking garage but C & S had to do some light shopping so Eric and I hung out in there with him doing tricks on his skateboard and sharking on me. He decided he would go to Neighbours so that made me happy, then C & S came back down and Eric tried to do some trick up the wall but it ended up looking more like he just ran into it. We drove back to the house while talking about break dancing and Roman Showers again and how the combination at Neighbours would be really great. Sick. We got back to the house, said our goodbyes, then Eric and I kissed in the street a little bit and took off to his house so he could change. We drove up to Michael’s where him and Rebecca were watching Boogie Nights and drinking. Michael asked if we would ever do one scene in a porn for $1 million and I said no, he said he would. Then he asked if I’d ever done coke and I shook my head vigorously, but I’m pretty sure I was the only one in the room that hasn’t, yikes! At 11:30 I told them I needed to go so Eric walked me out but we didn’t make it past the stairwell before he pushed me down onto the stairs and started making out with me, but I pushed him off me and Susan called right then, so he walked me the rest of the way down and I told him to hurry up and come to Neighbours (they were waiting for Michael’s friends to arrive from the airport) and took off. I got rock star parking and went in and the new bouncer said he recognized me so I didn’t need to show my id, yay! Found Susan and danced to a few songs, then got some water and did a lap, but there wasn’t much to see there that night. Except Brett, mmm, Brett. He’s hot and does this thing with his arm when he dances, it kills me. Some goth guy hit on Susan so we darted to the bathroom. Finally we went out so I could call Eric and it didn’t sound like they were going to be making it before I had to leave so I told him I would call him when I was leaving to see if he needed a ride home. Went back in and danced some more, saw Craig and wished him a happy birthday then Susan told him he was in her club now, and I don’t think he took comfort in that. Nothing exciting happened and I knew Eric wasn’t coming so at 1:00 I left. The bouncer gave me this super long hug and wouldn’t let go and then tried to pick me up, and I was like “Uh uh, no one picks me up!” so that put him in his place. Went and picked Eric up, took him home then headed home myself and went to bed.

Wednesday 9/6, After work I went on my walk but didn’t take my watch so when I got back I figured it was around 6:00, but if I’d just done the math I would have realized that that would have been impossible, and instead it was 6:35 and I wanted to leave the house by 7:00 to go to Ky’s thing so I had to bust ass. I made some potatoes for dinner then hopped in the shower and got ready and was out the door a few minutes after 7:00 and cruised into Seattle without any traffic. I parked a few blocks down from Rosebud and walked up, concealed the cookies as I walked through the door and out to the back patio to find Kay-See and Ky. I got hugs and we all chatted until more people showed up. Ky told us some funny stories and did some hilarious impressions, which would prove themselves accurate later in the night. Kelly showed up and we all talked about going to SF in the spring just to go to H&M, then Neil at the back gate and he looked adorable in this little sweater vest and tie, I almost died, and finally Cory and Richie. There were more hugs and talking and Kay-See escorted me inside to get a Shirley Temple, then we discussed the Shirley Temple vs. the Roy Rogers with Richie. When I went to sit back down in my chair next to Neil he put his hand down so I sat on it and I almost died! He was being so saucy! Kay-See left around 8:30 and I decided to stick around for a while longer but knew I wanted to meet up with Kassie too, so the group of us just talked and laughed and finally most of the other people cleared out from the patio and they turned the lights out so the atmosphere was very cool. At 9:15 I attempted to leave and said my goodbyes. I gave Ky a long hug and didn’t want to let go, then Neil and he says to Kyky “We might be married by the time you get back” and again I almost died, but in a very good way! Ha, so I go into the bar to say goodbye to Richie and he’s like “I can tell you’re leaving, with the coat and the purse and everything” and the bartender is like “Don’t go yet, I’ll make you a Shirley Temple on the house” so I asked him how he knew I didn’t drink and he was like, “I can just tell, here I’ll make you a mocktail, I don’t get to do those very often” but I told him no, I really had to go, so he said he would make it anyway and I didn’t have to drink it, but after he made me this pretty pink drink in a martini glass with a whole bunch of garnish, I couldn’t say no. So Richie and I devised to say it was a real drink and that since it was free I couldn’t turn it down. So I said thank you to the bartender and we went back out and sat down. Kyle and Neil were both taking pictures and Richie is such a little devil and he just kept smiling at me slyly. He leans over and says, “Let’s never tell them the truth” so I agree, but here I am publishing it on here, so we’ll see who ends up finding out. Neil called me out a little, saying, “I feel like we’re being lied to” but Richie and I covered up pretty well I think and the subject got changed. I pounded my drink because more friends showed up and I wanted to give up my chair, so I said good bye again, said I was fine to drive and walked to my car. I called Eric to see if he wanted to go with me to Kassie’s since I still wanted to see him at some point. He said he was up on Phinney Ridge and to come pick him up and he would go with me, so I head up, park and go into the Chupacabra or whatever it is, and there’s Jason and Stacy along with Sarah and the friend that had been trying to have sex with Eric a few nights previous. Everyone was having a good time though, and I got the impression that I had been a topic of conversation prior to arriving and ended up chatting mostly with Sarah about Bellevue and Seattle before really talking to Eric. Then Stacy and E did “cranky baby” for me and that was pretty hilarious. After sitting there for quite a while (10:15 by this point) I told him I really had to go and asked if he still wanted to come along, he said yes, so we took off. Got to Kassie’s and we made out in the car for a minute then he carried the box of Auntie Peggy’s clothes in for me and we went upstairs to do introductions. Her friend Derek was over and we mostly listened to Kassie’s stories about Europe then they all smoked while I just sat there and finally around 11:45 I said we were going to go but first all went downstairs to go through the clothes and Kassie tried on a hilarious “one-sie” or what is otherwise commonly known as a bodysuit and a big shoulder pad style blouse over it. It was really funny. Then Derek left and Kassie started interrogating Eric and brought up weed and was going off about it, so then he was all worried that things were going to be weird because it was now out in the open how we each feel about it, so I thanked Kassie for stirring the pot and we made our way out, but not before she told Eric that I was the best girl he’d ever get and that it’s nothing personal, just that I’m her sister. So Eric and I got in the car and started driving to Ballard so I could drop him off and I talked a little more about how I felt. He said I know where he stands, and I said the same thing back because as much as I have to figure out if his smoking weed is something I want to “deal with” he’s got to figure out if hanging out with someone who doesn’t and is uncomfortable with it is something he wants to deal with. He kept saying, I feel like I got to know a little bit more about Karrah, but at the same time I think he was weirded out a little, even though he’d go back and forth from really saying it. So we got to the bar and sat in the car for a minute then kissed a little, then he went in and I headed home. Pulled in the garage at 12:30 and went straight to bed, but not before contemplating calling him and telling him that there are like 20 things that I find really attractive about him and like about him and I think it kind of sucked that one of the few things that I’m not crazy about got brought up and nitpicked for the evening, but I think I’ll do that later today instead.

Tuesday 9/5, I looked at B’s profile and he’s changed his status to “In a Relationship” which put me into a funky mood all day. Fucking asshole. “I don’t want to be in a relationship while I’m in school. I won’t be able to focus on school and give you enough time.” Yeah, right. I don’t know why I’m surprised, I went through being angry and sad to hurt and pissed off. I decided to delete the comments I had left him while we were together and then deleted him off my friends list, because I was mad, and well, he’s not my friend. He’s a fucking opportunist, insincere and narcissistic. I still want to let him have it, but can’t decide whether it’s worth it or not. We’ll see. Also, Missy deleted me from her friends list. Weird. I suppose Erick and Fair will be the next to delete my ass. Movin on! Anyway, after work I went on my walk but was fairly preoccupied with stupid B, then made dinner and made a batch of chocolate chip cookies, though I ran out of chocolate chips so I incorporated some butterscotch chips in too. They are surprisingly good. I think I’ll take them to Rosebud and give some to Kyle as a going away treat. After my cookies were done I showered, folded laundry and watched tv. At 9:30 Eric called to say he was off work so I invited him over to make out but he said he might be going to Portland and would call me back, but didn’t until 10:30 to say he wasn’t going to Portland, but also wasn’t coming over and that we would hang out tomorrow. Well, I said, I’ve got this thing for a friend so I’ll call you and see if we can work something out. After that I went to bed and had some super fucked up dreams about B, ghosts in our old Mercer Island house, flying around really high with Kay-See in some ski-gondola style seats without seat belts and showering in a locker room with a bunch of girls and attempting to keep the boys outside the door from seeing in. Wee-eird.

Monday 9/4, We woke up at 8:30 and, of course, started making out and ended up doing that kind of stuff until 10:15, which turned out ok and he said he hasn’t gotten off from oral in about as many years as I had, so that made me feel better. TMI, sorry. I made waffles for breakfast and we put blueberries in some of them, I cleaned up then got ready and we hit the road. I took him to the Mercer Island skate park and watched him skate for about 45 minutes and really had fun. Watching B was more embarrassing than a turn on, but watching Eric was totally hot and he seemed to have fun so that was good. We hit QFC and were both being dirty and laughing about it, then I drove him home and dropped him off down the street because the ex-gf was there. I drove back home, made some lunch and took a nap. When I woke up I ran some errands and had my car washed then went home and watched Flava of Love. Ate dinner, watched more tv, talked to Eliso and her and Jake are engaged but I didn’t get the whole story because she had company, then I talked to Susan who’s up in Bellingham for a couple of days. Eric called me when he got off work and the funny word is "ferfill" and he said he'd talk to me later, then I read a little bit and went to bed.

Sunday 9/3, We woke up and watched Failure to Launch then went outside where Jess made some phone calls and I sat down by the lake in the sun and talked to Billy. Day got back from getting gas and made us breakfast which included the biggest and thickest pancakes I’ve ever seen and a whole bunch of bacon. After eating those three hot dogs the night before and feeling so sick, I didn’t think I’d be able to eat even half of the pancake, but I ate the whole damn thing, and it was really good…um, plus like 8 pieces of bacon. Let’s just say I made myself a little bloated for the day. We suited up and laid on the dock until Marissa and Jess’ cousin’s new wife got there, so Billy got his Dad’s boat out and took us for a long ride around the lake and it was fucking awesome. Then a spider tried to crawl in my crotch so I screamed and brushed it off and Billy grabbed it and threw it overboard, ack, it was so gross! Billy was trying to scare us by going really super f-ing fast but I had fun more than anything. We laughed and talked about anal and all sorts of other hilarious subjects and I threatened to have my period all over his boat and he was thoroughly disgusted. We came across some people whose boat broke down so we towed them back to the park but at a really slow rate which irritated Jess but we had a lot of fun and he went really fast to make up for it afterward. We went back and hung out on the dock again for a long time with Billy and talked, waved at the neighbor boys, then got him to start the jet ski for us because Jess doesn’t like to do it because it’s embarrassing to get stuck out there when it won’t start. Brad and his friends were kind of checking us out, especially this one guy, but we weren’t interested because we were still hung up on Nathan. Jess and I took the jet ski out and were trying to get the attention of this other neighbor that took some girl to Jamaica and bought her a Porsche so we wanted to impress him with our jet ski tricks, and I think he was doing the same. This new jet ski Day got is really hard to stay stable on so I always have to keep one hand on Jess’ life jacket and the other on the back handle, but I still slide all over the place and this time my ass actually slid all the way off the seat and I thought I was going to end up in the water but I didn’t. We went through 4 big waves and got splashed so thoroughly that we may as well have just jumped in because we were drenched, but we laughed hysterically the whole time so it was fun. She said I'm the only one she can ride the new one with, anyone else she rides with makes her uneasy. We tried to find cute boys on boats but came up empty. We went to the park so Jess could swim then the neighbor’s with the boat went by and were telling us to take off our tops or something and were like “Ricky Bobby! I’ll be here all week!” like the night before so we got back on the jet ski to do some tricks for them and headed back in. I jumped in the shower then we talked about long term relationships until Billy showed back up. We kept talking while we packed up then said our goodbyes and I started home, but checked my messages and realized Jake’s birthday dinner was in progress so I drove fast and got to the house right after cake was served. They were watching a slide show from the trip to Europe so I sat and watched that for about a half hour until my phone rang and it was Josh P and we decided he would call me later after they left Bumbershoot then I talked to Josh R (Big Josh) and he said he’d call me too so I hung up and decided I should get going because I needed to shower and stuff so I headed home. Susan was getting ready to leave right as I got home so I got ready too and hung out until Big Josh called me, then Other Josh called me and told me to come over to his hotel where everyone would be meeting up so I drove down, found parking and went up and he implied to the other guys there that I was a hired stripper and that it was a good thing they had a functioning clock radio for me to dance to. It was really cool to hang out but it soon became apparent that I was going to be the only girl. So I’m there hanging out with Other Josh, one of his friends from home who is his current roommate and a guy who went to UPS but was a year younger…I think one of their names was Matt and maybe the other one was Dave…maybe. Then Big Josh and Hakim showed up so I got hugs all around and we all started talking. Then Casey, Jordan and some other guy showed up too and lastly Peter, so that’s nine (hot) guys…and me. I felt like I was crashing a little but they all said don’t worry about it. I talked to Eric on the phone because I wanted to meet up with him and he was laughing and a bit curious about my situation in a hotel with a whole bunch of guys in the background. Each Josh had something funny to say about me talking on the phone to “my man” and soon we were on our way down to Pioneer Square just talking and laughing and catching up. We ended up in Fado where Josh had snagged three tables, so I chose the one in the corner figuring the guys would want to be central so they could talk to everyone and I didn't want to take up valuable real estate, but both Joshes and Hakim ended up at my table so that made me feel good and we talked about freshman year and who everyone hooked up with and that I never kissed a single person at UPS, then Josh was asking me about Mike D and I said I’d make out with him and then he asked me who I’d make out with at the tables so I said there wasn’t anyone there I wouldn’t make out with, but asked him why he was so interested and he said it was just fun so we played that game for a little bit. When Hakim and I were talking at one point this guy from the table across from ours came over and asked me if I wanted to come sit at their table but I said no, but thank you, then he goes “You’re hot” so I said thank you again then he went and sat back down, and Hakim goes “Do you know that guy?” I said no, and he goes, how does he know you’re not with me? He was baffled, then told the other Joshes, and they all thought it was funny that he approached the only girl sitting at a table with 9 guys. Then he proceeded to stare at me for the rest of the night. Around 1:00 I talked to Eric and said I would go meet up with him even though I was having fun, but still felt like I was crashing the bachelor party so decided it was a good time to make my exit. I had to walk quite far to get back to my car and Big Josh offered to walk me, but I said I would be ok, so I booked it and got a headache as a result, but got to my car and drove down to Belltown, parked and went into Shorty’s where he was hanging out with Sarah and her friend from home and another guy. Apparently the girl was trying to fuck Eric, but he wants to fuck me, so he says, so he was glad I showed up and she eventually hooked up with the other guy. Sarah took me to the back room to show me the pinball machines then when we got back to the front she asked me if I liked red-headed sluts, which I thought was a reference to Eric but turns out is a drink. The bar closed and since Eric didn’t have his car and needed a ride I schemed to get him over to the house, which didn’t end up taking much, so we said bye to his friends then walked to my car and he was skateboarding in the street and hit some parked car, then mine. We drove home and settled into bed and talked about sex and stuff and I think he feels a little awkward about my experience but I told him he shouldn’t. We both ended up falling asleep listening to Gorillaz wrapped around each other. He didn’t make out with me all night, but made up for it in the morning…

Saturday 9/2, We woke up around 8:30 and got ready and headed out so I could get gas and to go to the store to get stuff for breakfast. We got back and he started cooking: rosemary fried potatoes, eggs over easy, bacon and toast. We talked, cooked and made out, he liked that I wore my apron again, I think he thinks it’s cute. It was all very good, then I cleaned up and he took off at 11:30. I relaxed for a half hour, packed up my stuff and took off for Jessica’s Mom’s house. Traffic sucked all the way through Everett to Stanwood, so I was glad to get there. Jess was on the computer but soon we were getting ready to lay out and Megan showed up, so we all got our suits on and headed to the dock to lay out. We talked and tanned and eventually this kid comes up the dock from a couple houses down and said the guys over there had told him to come over so he invited us to come wake boarding later and we chatted with him for a little bit then he left and we talked about how hot he was. We went up to the deck and ate veggies and chips then Megan left and Billy came over from the neighbors to chat and they yelled for him to go back over because they were going on a booze cruise so he asked if the two hot girls in bikinis could come too, they said yes, so we went over and boarded the boat and took off with a bunch of guys and a couple girls, including the stud (Nathan) from the dock. We take off and just start following the sun and it was so fun, with Jess, Billy and I up in the front and the rest of the people in the mid and back of the boat just listening to music and enjoying the scenery. We were hounding Billy about the hot guy and he thought that he had to be in high school and both Jess and I were like, “That’s hot!” so Billy called him up there but he wouldn’t say how old he was so we were guessing 17, but later found out he’s only 15…yikes! They were playing this awful music and one song in particular got the attention of all three of us, it was a ditty by Buckcherry and had lyrics like this: “Hey, you’re a crazy bitch, but you fuck real good I’m on top of it, something something something, scratches all up my back, I keep right on” it was terrible and we just kept laughing because all of the guys and even the 15 year old were singing along with ALL the words. Billy goes "I'm a pussy, I need lyrics like this" which made Jess and I laugh forever, so we came up with more lyrics to go with the Buckcherry song and they were very dirty. Finally Nathan was going to wake board with a little encouragement from Jess and I so he went out and was singing along to the Buckcherry song again and thrusting his pelvis and pointing to other boats as we passed by them. He was flexing his muscles and doing some fun tricks and finally we got him to attempt a flip and though he didn’t land it, it was HOT. Then Jess jumped in to pee and they convinced her to water ski, so it was Billy and I up in the front chatting about Nathan and I said I didn’t want to sleep with him or anything, but I’d like to rub my hands all over his chest and arms because they were all hairless and really nice. Then the guy who owns the boat told him to go way up front so we didn’t have as much drag in the back so he was up there with us with the towels and heaters keeping us warm and we started chatting about Brokeback Mountain and Y Tu Mama Tambien and luckily he said he’d never looked at what we were talking about that way, so that made me feel good that he kind of reconsidered his stance on the whole gay thing, it was cool. Then when Jess got back on they were sitting next to each other and Billy was mouthing to him that he would give him $10 to put his arm around Jess, but he didn’t, and especially didn’t after looking at me shaking my head no…then I told him I’d give him $10 to put his arm around me but was kidding. He gave us these arm bands he makes out of nylons and I’m wearing mine right now, it was really cute. It was getting dark and cold so we went back and Day got the fire going so we could roast hot dogs, so Billy got some roasting sticks and the three of us went out and talked by the fire and we talked FOREVER! Jess and I both ate three hot dogs and the three of us talked about religion, politics, conspiracies, sex, 15 year olds, secret societies and lots more but I can’t remember, but we pretty much covered everything. Finally I was tired so Billy played one last song and we called it a night. Jess and I made a little bed on the floor and I was so tired that I fell asleep while she was talking to me, though I woke up and apologized to her and fell back asleep.

Friday 9/1, I ended up getting out of work a little early due to a power outage but I didn’t go on my walk when I got home, instead I put on a cd and tried to take a nap, though Eric called and interrupted it right at 5:00. He asked if I was drunk the night before and asked if I still wanted him to come over to spend the night, I said yes so he said he’d call me later. I finally fell asleep for a little while and woke up right at 7:00, ate some dinner, then Susan and I decided to go to Costco. They’re out of Chex Mix and I’m very upset about it, but I did get to flirt with a cute teenage Costco employee, so at least that made up for it a little. After getting home Susan and I talked a little while she watched “The Girl Can’t Help It” and I got ready for Eric to come over. I was so tired that I kind of fell asleep again waiting for him, but started reading Whale Rider as well between napping and he finally showed up around 11:15. He was disappointed that I wasn’t wearing my apron but he got over it. We hung out in my room just talking and making out and I traced his tattoos with my finger and it was really nice and relaxing. We finally got ready for bed around 2:30 and I told him he could take his pants off to sleep but he said not the first time because he didn’t want to scare me in the morning, so I said ok and started going to sleep. It was only a second before he was on top of me kissing me and getting fresh, but then he fell asleep like the fastest I’ve ever seen anyone, he told me he was kind of narcoleptic, but come on, it was nuts. Then all of a sudden he was awake again and kissing me and this pretty much went on all night. I’d kind of wake up to roll over or something and that’s all it would take for him to start kissing me again…it was pretty hot.

Thursday 8/31, Julien called me while I was at work about this skate video premier at the Showbox so I thought it would be fun to go down there and invite Eric too since he’s a skate fan but wanted to wait until I got home to call. I went on my walk and showered and he called me back right as I was getting out so we discussed some plans and were going to coordinate later. Julien then texted me saying he probably wasn’t going to go due to a wedding and also called me a slut. I talked to Eric later and he said he would be at Neighbours but was otherwise just hanging out so I decided to stay home and relax until it was time to go. We left before 10:30 found parking with no problem and went in. Susan paid for me to get in, which was very nice but totally unexpected. We went in and avoided Bun (Eric said it was his birthday) and made our way upstairs but my spandex bf was there (Tye) and he commented on my hair and called it "kicky" then we went upstairs to see who was there. One of our gay bfs who complimented us earlier in August was there so we went down to dance by him. We were only out there for a minute before Eric came up and started dancing with us, though he told me we couldn’t make out against the pillars because he had friends coming and a reputation to uphold. Yeah, uh huh. So he came and went and we just danced mostly in our usual spot and Eric and I flirted back and forth over this group of sorority girls and he kept breaking into their circle to grab me when I wasn’t looking or bite me or something. Then he started break dancing by his friends and when he looked up and saw Susan and I watching he got all embarrassed and covered his face, it was really cute. We were all over the place and Chad, Susan’s ex-hair guy, showed up and they danced for a long time, but Eric dragged me up to the lookout stage and started kissing me up there because his ex’s friends were there and he didn’t want them to see or something, but it didn’t seem like a very good hiding place. He was really drunk and kept getting his sweat all over my face. We went back down and finally Michael showed up so we danced with him a lot and their other friends, then Ely and Brett showed up so we danced with them until Eric pulled me away again to dance. We basically just made out and danced a lot, on and off. Around 1:30 it was time to go so I asked him to walk Susan and me out, but Susan’s boys were outside so she wanted to say bye and I looked over and I could tell they were saying something about me so I smiled and waved even though Eric was trying to devour my face and asking if he could spend the night. Then his friends came out and he asked his one friend that I didn’t meet if he approved or something, I don’t know, I was like, let’s go! So we start walking but he’s trying to kiss me and Susan’s right there so I kept telling him to knock it off until we get to the car but he said something about turning me into a sponge and leaving me in the corner, I didn’t get that, but he was being dirty and said he couldn’t help himself. We dropped Susan by the garage and it took me forever just to get him down to my car and he was saying how hot I am and all of this other stuff (like "Next time just...my..."), and then we had a serious talk about what we’re doing at my car until 2:00 when I finally said I needed to go and he needed to unpin me from my car so I could drive him back. I invited him for a sleep over Friday night after work so we’ll see what happens. I dropped him and tried to take a short cut home but it just ended up taking more time. I didn’t get home until almost 2:30 and crashed right out.

Wednesday 8/30, I hurried home from work to shower and get ready before Eric came over and luckily I had plenty of time. I decided to answer the door in just the apron Chrystol gave me and my undies which meant I had to keep watch for him up in my room, but luckily Susan waited with me and we joked that it was drafty and that she would make herself scarce and didn’t want to find us having sex on the counters at any point. So he got there and I had to do a back roll off my bed so he wouldn’t see me, then I had to quickly sneak down the stairs in case he was looking up into the windows, but I don’t think he was. So I answer the door and ask him if he’s ready to start cooking, and he’s like, yeah sure, not realizing that I’m not wearing anything, then he kind of gets it and is looking at my back, so then we start kissing but I tell him just kidding, I need to get dressed so we can go to the store to get provisions. He kept laughing and saying I could just go in what I was wearing, but instead I went upstairs and got dressed and we went to PCC. We walked around for about 30 minutes putting the meal together, well he put the meal together and just asked me whether I liked certain things or not, it was actually a lot of fun. We checked out and went home where he was calling out to see if anyone was home and I told him Susan was upstairs so no humping in the kitchen. He was disappointed. We got the grill cleaned off and started up then he started prepping and cooking. Our menu was chicken on the grill with an oven roasted almond and tomato sauce, portabella mushrooms, red onion and zucchini marinated in balsamic vinegar, olive oil and garlic, grilled corn on the cob and roasted red pepper risotto. Everything had sage and rosemary in it too, and lots of butter and oil and some goat cheese that was delicious. He did everything except I stirred the risotto…that was my only job. We had a really good time in the kitchen and made out a lot, he kept saying that he wasn’t going to get anything done because I was distracting him. We sat down and ate and it was so good, I was very impressed with his skills, especially because he didn’t even use any recipes or anything, it was all just second nature. After we finished he moved over to my side of the table so we could sit next to each other while we talked then we decided to go on a walk but when we got down to the park it was really dark and creepy and we decided to just sit there and make out instead. I joked that he could be a murderer for all I know, but he said I was no use to him dead. We walked back and I told him I had marshmallows so we got out the s’mores stuff and roasted marshmallows over the grill with chopsticks. I got the kitchen cleaned up and he watched and offered to help but I wouldn’t allow it, except that he could take out the garbage. We made out on the couch for a little while then went upstairs and well, made out more, except with less clothes on. Then he went um, downstairs, and I came, which hasn’t happened in like 6 years. Yeah, I know. It was a good night. We had an awkward conversation that started out with “So, um, about blow jobs…” which he equated to his “I have to show you something, but don’t freak out” statement, so now we’re even and laugh at each other. He left around 12:30 and put the grill back together before he did and I finished my Theroux book finally. It was a good one.