Thursday 10/5, I was tired after work from the night before but I got ready nonetheless for the night’s events. Eric had mentioned wanting to hang out before I went to Neighbours but couldn’t get it together and decide when / where to meet up in a timely manner. Finally he said that him and Michael were going to go on the art walk and asked if I wanted to meet them down in Pioneer Square, I said yes and headed out the door. I found parking under the viaduct and walked past French Quarter peaking in the windows at the beautiful things, then continued up to 1st where he said he was walking up to. Finally I saw them down by the Owl and Whistle or whatever it is. I barely got a hug from Eric but got a kiss on the lips from Michael. At this point I thought, “How is it that I’m getting more action out of a gay guy than a guy who two weeks ago was giving me multiple orgasms?”. Hmm. Anyway, we walked down to this building and started up the stairs to the various studios, but Eric wasn’t really talking to me or standing near me or anything. Soon I started feeling really weird, especially when he left one of the rooms to answer a call, and I started thinking “Fuck this, I need to leave, why the hell am I hear when he clearly doesn’t want me to be?” I kept looking at him quizzically and he asked me if I wanted to ask him anything, and I just said I didn’t know but clearly he was acting different and I didn’t know how to approach it and certainly didn’t think the art walk was the place to do it. Michael was off flirting and talking to friends, one of whom complimented me on my shirt, and at one point asked me in front of Eric what kind of guys I’m into and I just said I didn’t know because I then felt like even Michael was well aware that Eric wasn’t interested anymore and was trying to steer me in another direction away from Eric. Finally we left after some guy told Michael he was going to have his grandpa pee on him and we walked over to another bar so Michael could see his friend again. Eric and I stood outside and I continued to look at him and try to figure out what the hell I was still doing there and he asked me again, a little confrontationally, if I wanted to ask him anything, like daring me to bring up the fact that he was acting so fucking weird and distant. So finally I said it, I don’t feel like you want me here or are even attracted to me anymore or anything. Then he said his friends had been talking to him about me while I was gone and making him feel bad and all of this stuff and that he didn’t want a gf and doesn’t want to string me along and that he felt like that was the direction we were headed toward, so I told him this was not new news, I knew it all and wasn’t sure why he was forgetting that we’ve talked about this several times before. I still felt a little weird but he reassured me that he’s very attracted to me and wanted to kiss me so I let him a little before pulling back and telling him that’s all he gets for now. We went in and found Michael sitting alone and making hilarious comments about the guy at the next table farting and saying that he would have sex with any of them, and then looking right at them telling them he did. We were ready to leave and Michael went to the bathroom and while he was in there Eric looked at me and asked if he could take me on a date just the two of us and not to a bar. I said of course and that pretty much made my night because he was so sincere. We started walking down toward Cowgirls Inc and I asked if they wanted to see it and early I had used the “Eric who?” line because I wanted him to know that my life wouldn’t be over if he decided he never wanted to talk to me again. I’ve still got Andy. So we walk down there but I don’t see Andy so I ask the bouncers if he’s working, they say yes but I don’t go in, though I did see him as we were walking back by when we were leaving. We walked back to the cars and Michael asked some random cute guy if he was into threesomes and the guy goes “Threesomes or foursomes?” so we all laughed and headed up to Capitol Hill in separate cars. We went to some pizza place on Pine and as soon as we walked in I recognized the guy who Michael had just asked if he was into threesomes paying for his pizza, so he looked down and kind of laughed and I told the boys and we all cracked up. It was really funny. Then we went down to the Bus Stop and Eric and I talked more, especially about sex and him taking his penis out but I said I wasn’t that kind of girl and he said he knew. We all sat and chatted for about 20 minutes then Susan called so I told her I would be there in 10 minutes. Eric walked me back to my car so I could stash my stuff and we talked and I made fun of him about getting married and we made out against my car for awhile then he suggested we have sex in his car because it’s a hatchback. I declined. I asked him if he wanted to go to Leavenworth with me the next night and though he was indecisive at first he finally said yes but stipulated that what happens in Leavenworth stays in Leavenworth. I asked him what that meant and he said he didn’t know. 30 minutes later I was on my way to Neighbours and the cute new bouncer said he didn’t need my id, and then I made both him and some other new guy laugh when I told them to stamp either wrist because I’m so crazy! I ran onto the floor but got a drink spilled on me trying to say hi to Susan so I had to go into the bathroom and wash my shirt out. Tye ran over and hugged me then we saw Kyle who I thought was with this guy so I was all “HI!” to him but then it was clear that Kyle didn’t know him and I had just given him an enthusiastic hello which he took to mean I wanted to dance with him…I didn’t. Kyle leans over and says “That’s a big piece of meat” and I told him I thought he was with him and he goes “Hell no!” Shit, so then Susan tries to pull me away but the guy grabs my other arm and pulls me back toward him, yuck. I danced with him for about one song before we ditched him and went to the other side of the floor. I saw Richie and went and said hi and got a hug and Cory too. We went to the bathroom and saw Kyle on the way where he said he was going to put his spooge in us and get us both pregnant and I said they would be twins! He then bit my neck so hard that it left a mark and felt bruised for the next 2 days. He dragged us onto the floor to dance with him and Kitty Cat and their group of friends and Kyle was being so hilarious. He plugged his nose when these two girls were dancing by us and kept grabbing both of our crotches. It was hilarious. Finally at 1:00 I took off and ran to my car since I hadn’t done any of my exercising since Monday.

Wednesday 10/4, After work I got ready to go to the Muse concert and waited until about 7:30 to leave to go to Kassie’s. I sat there while she ate dinner and soon we were off. We parked in Pacific Place and walked up from there. We got there a little after 9 and pretty much missed the opening band, especially since we sat out in the lobby eating a cookie (the snack bar guy teased us by saying “Skinny girls should eat a cookie!” so we did). Finally we went in and cruised around looking for where the hot guys were, but there really weren’t any, so we settled in the back and soon they came on. We danced and sang to the songs and Muse put on a great show, just like the last time, though this time there were more fancy lights and videos where we could watch Matt playing the piano on these huge screens. So hot. When the show was over we drove back to Kassie’s (I never saw Jacob who said he would be looking for me) and I started to take off but tried calling Eric to see what he was up to. He called me right as I was getting home and we talked for a minute before hanging up and going to bed.