Thursday 11/2, I found a hilarious new blog to read and just found this not so hilarious part, but felt it really describes my situation with B and had to copy it down, otherwise I knew I’d lose it and never find it again in her archives: “I’ve always believed that any relationship can work as long as both people involved really want it to work, and both of them make it their first priority. This is a terrifying thing if you think about it, because you have to blindly trust the other person’s desire to make it work, and acknowledge that if they change their mind, you’re fucked. Which is basically what happened to me.” Hey, me too Sarah B! I have a huge girl crush on her and laugh out loud at her posts. But anyway, back to business. After work I got a whole bunch of pillows and blankets, cranked the heat and settled in front of the big tv downstairs to watch Two Towers because I haven’t watched it forever and it sounded nice. That’s pretty much all I did because it’s like 4 hours long or something. When Susan came home she told me she is moving out in December sometime so now I’m on the lookout for potential new roommates, though I wish I could afford to live by myself because, well, I like living alone. I’ll probably look to get someone in at the first of the year, but we’ll see how things go. Or maybe I’ll get such a fantastic raise I’ll be able to justify not having a roommate and turn it into a guest bedroom or craft room or something. Just kidding about the craft room thing. As much as I don’t want to deal with living with someone, a stranger no less, at least I can “jack up the rent now” as Susan so eloquently put it. Indeed I will. Susan also told me that Travers found his name in my blog and I am wondering how mortified I should be…I guess I still don’t think anyone besides 3 of my good friends and one of my sisters reads this thing, so when I think about strangers, etc. reading my blog it makes me feel a little uneasy. Do I want people out there reading about how Eric humped me up against the mirrored pillar or how many times he makes me come? I don’t know, but I guess the answer is no, but I’m not changing my format…yet. Anyway, back to what I actually did on Thursday, um, so we finished watching LoTR together then went upstairs to our rooms. Jacob suggested, via myspace, meeting up this weekend so we’ll see if/how that pans out. Do I really want to juggle? I pretty much have a crush on only Eric right now and definitely don’t want to be sleeping with anyone else, but who knows how that will pan out and I’m not trying to keep all my eggs in one basket so I guess I should be open to meeting someone new (and really cute no less), even if his profile does say he’s Christian. Let’s face it Karrah, Zeph is Christian and totally hot and you adore him, who says Jacob doesn’t have the same potential? We’ll see. Hmm…how do I run this by Eric? He’s not trying to hide anything and neither am I.
Wednesday 11/1, I went straight into Seattle after work and sat in traffic FOREVER trying to get off at Mercer to get to John’s office (my mortgage guy). We went over some paper work and scenarios for about an hour then I called Eric to see if he still wanted to hang out. I went into Ballard and he thought he was behind me and was all “I know what you’re wearing” and I told him he didn’t because a van was behind me, not him, then he realized he was behind someone with the same car as mine. I met him in the parking lot of the store but we were both on our phones (me with Mom who was trying to tell me that “down low” is a term homosexual black men in the south use, ok Mom) and Eric laughing at me for the duration of the night because of the content of that conversation and calling me "so white." Well yeah, duh. When we got inside the store I could tell he was totally high and that made me feel weird, but whatever, I dealt. He was making meatballs so we perused the store until all the ingredients were collected, including some Sudafed because pot is a weed and apparently he’s allergic to those and was all stuffed up as a result. I told him he’s ridiculous. We drove back to his house and he started making dinner while I watched a new skate video he’d just gotten but he didn’t really give me a straight answer when I asked him if he’d been dancing with other girls the night before at O’hana so then I felt really weird, though I didn’t know if I should because a) we’re not bf / gf, b) sometimes he doesn’t answer my questions because he loses his train of thought easily and c) he's not good at answering questions I ask him period, whether it's about girls or his favorite skate park. About an hour and half later (and one back massage courtesy of his magic hands) one of the batches of the meatballs were done so he served them up with some basmati rice and they were soooo good, I was practically licking my bowl. He put The Big Lebowski on and I think I’ve seen it once before at the South 8th house sophomore year but don’t really remember much of it, so we watched that and it was funny. I asked him again about the dancing with girls and he said he was dancing with everyone so then I asked him if he was making out with anyone and he said no. He asked me if I was getting jealous and I said, well a little, but mostly I just want to know where we stand. So that was fine then he laid down and put his head in my lap and I rubbed his scalp and it was really nice. I thought he had fallen asleep because he does that very easily, so I laughed and he peaked one eye open and asked what I was laughing at and told me to keep rubbing. Then he started getting all frisky and wanted us to have sex like right on the couch in the living room. I told him no way because his fricken roommates could walk in at any moment and to button his pants back up. Needless to say we ended up downstairs in his little freezing-ass room naked and under the covers with our legs entwined and leveraging off each other. Um, then I got up and told him it was time for me to head home so we both dressed and he walked me out. When I got home I showered, despite it being close to midnight, wondered where Susan was off to, and went to bed.
Tuesday 10/31, I went to the dermatologist during my lunch break and he put me on two different kinds of meds and also said my mole is fine but the scar tissue can be leveled with monthly injections. Ouch, I don’t know about that one Doc, I’ll sleep on it. After work I went home and transferred some pictures between computers but I can’t get my old one to recognize the charger now, so it’s losing battery power and I can’t recharge it, what am I going to do?! Augh! Anyway, I got the fashion show pictures up on flickr and two from CA of Aubs and I in the car. I’m so bad at taking pictures, I need to break the camera out more often. Maybe that will be my New Year’s resolution except I’ll start early, like tomorrow. I then showered and got ready to go over to Jason and Beth’s to see baby Harper. I stopped at the QFC on MI to get flowers for the new parents and the cashier was quite a comedian then I swung by Mom’s to drop off that useless VCR and found out they had been handing out half dollars and quarters to trick or treaters, weird. Then I drove over to Capitol Hill found parking after driving around for 20 minutes, met Jason outside then went up. Beth was feeding him so I had to wait about 10 minutes before I could get my hands on him, and he’s so teeny and cute I can’t stand it. I held him for a long time until he started getting fussy and Jason put his nose in his mouth to show me how cute it is when he thinks it’s Beth’s nipple and tries to suck it. Jason put on some of his skate videos and I was really impressed and we talked shop a little bit (ie Eric) before Beth went to bed with the baby. I stayed a little longer and we talked about siblings and rolled out around 9:30, called Eric but he didn’t answer so I went home. I continued cleaning and organizing until it was bed time. Eric called around 11:30 and said he would call me tomorrow and I went to bed.
Monday 10/30, I did some grocery shopping after work then went to Bed Bath and Beyond for some new hangers. At home it was freezing so I decided to get warm by busying myself with cleaning my room and doing laundry while my heater kicked in. I called Jason and congratulated him on the new baby and he invited me to come over the next night to meet him. I got quite a bit accomplished in my room, the most noteworthy was getting the electric heating blanket situated under my sheet and mattress pad so that my bed is nice and warm when I get in at bedtime. I’m getting goose bumps just thinking about it.
Wednesday 11/1, I went straight into Seattle after work and sat in traffic FOREVER trying to get off at Mercer to get to John’s office (my mortgage guy). We went over some paper work and scenarios for about an hour then I called Eric to see if he still wanted to hang out. I went into Ballard and he thought he was behind me and was all “I know what you’re wearing” and I told him he didn’t because a van was behind me, not him, then he realized he was behind someone with the same car as mine. I met him in the parking lot of the store but we were both on our phones (me with Mom who was trying to tell me that “down low” is a term homosexual black men in the south use, ok Mom) and Eric laughing at me for the duration of the night because of the content of that conversation and calling me "so white." Well yeah, duh. When we got inside the store I could tell he was totally high and that made me feel weird, but whatever, I dealt. He was making meatballs so we perused the store until all the ingredients were collected, including some Sudafed because pot is a weed and apparently he’s allergic to those and was all stuffed up as a result. I told him he’s ridiculous. We drove back to his house and he started making dinner while I watched a new skate video he’d just gotten but he didn’t really give me a straight answer when I asked him if he’d been dancing with other girls the night before at O’hana so then I felt really weird, though I didn’t know if I should because a) we’re not bf / gf, b) sometimes he doesn’t answer my questions because he loses his train of thought easily and c) he's not good at answering questions I ask him period, whether it's about girls or his favorite skate park. About an hour and half later (and one back massage courtesy of his magic hands) one of the batches of the meatballs were done so he served them up with some basmati rice and they were soooo good, I was practically licking my bowl. He put The Big Lebowski on and I think I’ve seen it once before at the South 8th house sophomore year but don’t really remember much of it, so we watched that and it was funny. I asked him again about the dancing with girls and he said he was dancing with everyone so then I asked him if he was making out with anyone and he said no. He asked me if I was getting jealous and I said, well a little, but mostly I just want to know where we stand. So that was fine then he laid down and put his head in my lap and I rubbed his scalp and it was really nice. I thought he had fallen asleep because he does that very easily, so I laughed and he peaked one eye open and asked what I was laughing at and told me to keep rubbing. Then he started getting all frisky and wanted us to have sex like right on the couch in the living room. I told him no way because his fricken roommates could walk in at any moment and to button his pants back up. Needless to say we ended up downstairs in his little freezing-ass room naked and under the covers with our legs entwined and leveraging off each other. Um, then I got up and told him it was time for me to head home so we both dressed and he walked me out. When I got home I showered, despite it being close to midnight, wondered where Susan was off to, and went to bed.
Tuesday 10/31, I went to the dermatologist during my lunch break and he put me on two different kinds of meds and also said my mole is fine but the scar tissue can be leveled with monthly injections. Ouch, I don’t know about that one Doc, I’ll sleep on it. After work I went home and transferred some pictures between computers but I can’t get my old one to recognize the charger now, so it’s losing battery power and I can’t recharge it, what am I going to do?! Augh! Anyway, I got the fashion show pictures up on flickr and two from CA of Aubs and I in the car. I’m so bad at taking pictures, I need to break the camera out more often. Maybe that will be my New Year’s resolution except I’ll start early, like tomorrow. I then showered and got ready to go over to Jason and Beth’s to see baby Harper. I stopped at the QFC on MI to get flowers for the new parents and the cashier was quite a comedian then I swung by Mom’s to drop off that useless VCR and found out they had been handing out half dollars and quarters to trick or treaters, weird. Then I drove over to Capitol Hill found parking after driving around for 20 minutes, met Jason outside then went up. Beth was feeding him so I had to wait about 10 minutes before I could get my hands on him, and he’s so teeny and cute I can’t stand it. I held him for a long time until he started getting fussy and Jason put his nose in his mouth to show me how cute it is when he thinks it’s Beth’s nipple and tries to suck it. Jason put on some of his skate videos and I was really impressed and we talked shop a little bit (ie Eric) before Beth went to bed with the baby. I stayed a little longer and we talked about siblings and rolled out around 9:30, called Eric but he didn’t answer so I went home. I continued cleaning and organizing until it was bed time. Eric called around 11:30 and said he would call me tomorrow and I went to bed.
Monday 10/30, I did some grocery shopping after work then went to Bed Bath and Beyond for some new hangers. At home it was freezing so I decided to get warm by busying myself with cleaning my room and doing laundry while my heater kicked in. I called Jason and congratulated him on the new baby and he invited me to come over the next night to meet him. I got quite a bit accomplished in my room, the most noteworthy was getting the electric heating blanket situated under my sheet and mattress pad so that my bed is nice and warm when I get in at bedtime. I’m getting goose bumps just thinking about it.
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