Thursday 11/30, I had to wake up super early to make it to my 7:30 dermatologist appointment in Bellevue and everything looks good but he wants me to stay on the meds and put me on something else as well so after work I went to Fred Meyer to pick up my prescriptions. I had to wait a little while so I called Eric and we talked for a few minutes and he made fun of me and said I needed to pick up some Xanex for my anxiety and said also that he might come up to Rosebud to say hi before going to his show with Michael, so then I was all “Oooh, how fun!” and he retracted like, “Well, MAYBE” and I told him I knew that meant no and then he had to go all quickly. Why the hell would he even suggest it in the first place if he really doesn't intend to? I don’t know. Anyway, so then I called Kay-See to make sure she was really going out, and she was and suggested I come over early then we can gossip and head over to meet everyone together. When I got home I jumped in the shower and had decided to straighten my hair for the first time since Kassie’s birthday party way back in April. It was really poofy at first but I managed to tame it and it looked really good, surprisingly. I ate some dinner then Kassie called to tell me she was bringing her final loads over but I was going to be gone by the time she got there. I headed out to Kay-See’s and had some trouble parking but ended up right in front of Richie’s building and walked over. When I got there Kay-See gave me my present from Australia and they are beautiful blue pearl earrings (to match my eyes!) and they just happened to match my shirt for dancing so I popped them in and they look fabulous! We dished some dirt for a while about Eric and some other topics then decided to head out. After parking I walked up to Rosebud and found Kyle, Richie, Cory and Carina (I think…). Then Neil showed up and finally Kay-See and we sat outside talking about all sorts of random topics and Richie asked me if I was a virgin and I laughed but he had a serious face, so I asked “Are you serious?” and he was like “Yeah” so I told him the cold hard truth and I was glad that I at least come across as, um, virginal, I guess? We’ve played T or D while camping which would have made this fact known, but I guess he didn’t remember. Yeah, but it was getting cold out so we all decided to head in but since the couches were taken we took up the back part of the bar. We played Odd Man Out and some other clapping hands game which I was first out in both of them. I guess my track record for not playing games is pretty obvious. Neil doesn’t like the name of the “Coffee Nudge” drink and kept saying it really funnily. Ky, Kay-See and I played a super short game of T or D then Ky asked me about "FuckinEric" then Kay-See left but I think we’re going to hang out on Saturday. I stayed a while longer until Susan called so I took off and reparked my car in the handicapped spots then went in to meet Susan. As I came in all the bouncer boys were looking at me (including a new one) and I pulled my money out and my extra stick of gum fell on the ground and after I picked it up the bouncer Eric said “Don’t want to lose that, you may need it by the end of the night” and I was like “Right you are my friend!” and went in. I didn’t see Susan immediately so I went back and asked the main bouncer if Susan was already there and he nodded so I went in to search for her. I went upstairs and she snuck up on me and we talked then went down to dance and Tye came up behind me and put his arms around my waist and it scared the shit out of me and he laughed when I was all “Waaahh!” but then I laughed because he was wearing a purple negligee over stretch pants. Soon Susan and I realized that everyone there was really not attractive and there were a ton of lesbians all swinging their elbows and acting all rowdy. It was kind of weird. More than one person over the course of the night commented on the total lack of attractive people. We saw one guy kind of being shy on the sidelines and he was really cute but it soon became apparent that he was gay gay gay when he got up on the stage and was bending backward over the crowd and doing twirls and kicks and things. Damn! Then I saw this bald guy with these really exaggerated and weird dance moves and finally I was like, Oh my God, it’s Bun! And I told Susan and we were both like, “I knew I recognized those tae-bo dance moves!" We were stunned that Bun would have shaved all his hair off and got that piece of skin on the bridge of his nose pierced but, whatever, it’s been a while since we’d seen him. Anything's possible. He started dancing close to us on the dance floor and soon we realized it wasn’t Bun, but looked just like him and the dance moves were so similar. Susan said things were a little off though because Bun’s moves are more elegant tae-bo while this guy’s dance moves were more tribal punching. Finally Bun did show up and we wanted them to have a tae-bo-off, but it never happened. Teal came and danced with us and said “There are a lot of unattractive people here tonight” and we laughed because we’d been talking about it all evening. Brett and Ryan and another friend showed up so we danced with them for a while then took the party to the side lines and a drink got spilled all over Susan and some random person’s coat on a stool, whoops. A few more good songs came on so I we went back out and danced then I decided to head out. I got a very long grope-y hug from the bouncer and he was pretending to fall asleep on my shoulder, but I shook him off and ran to my car. On my way home I was feeling sad / confused so I came up with a strategy re: Eric, which I’ll be putting into effect this weekend. We’ll see where I end up.