Sunday 10/21, I woke up around 8 but hadn’t heard from Eric via text during the night so I didn’t get out of bed right away. I texted him at 9:30 and through texting and a phone conversation we decided against hiking and instead on lunch at Jalisco’s at 11:45. I had already showered and was in my hiking gear so I changed and got ready then hit the road. I called Lish on the way and talked to her about relationships and kids and stuff but then I saw Eric walking down the street, right on time I might add, so I told her I had to go and crossed the street to meet him. I got a half side hug then we went in and sat in what I think was the same booth Zach and I sat in like 2 years ago. We talked and laughed about the couple next to us and he didn’t even have to look up to know what I was doing and he was like “Shut up, I know exactly what you’re doing!” but I played innocent like I wasn’t doing anything and didn’t know what he was talking about. We talked and talked and talked and it was great to kind of continue where we’d left off on Thursday. I got a really delicious spinach enchilada and Eric got something that is cow taste buds and I at least tried a bite, and though it wasn’t offensive or bad, I wouldn’t ever order it for psychological reasons. Since he didn’t know if he was doing his skate thing, and we were just sitting talking in our booth forever, he suggested we move into the cantina and continue talking in there. I was amazed he wasn’t trying to escape. He ordered some more drinks and me a glass of water which I found to be adorable and reminded me of old times, like when we were at Michael’s and he took the initiative to get me a glass of water even though I told him I was ok and even put it in a paper bag to give me some street cred. Ahh, memories. We talked about pot and the significant decrease in his use and I asked in a mock-frustrated tone why he couldn’t have done that months ago, but it also sheds light on what has taken the place of it. Ian called and I answered but tried to make it quick and asked if I could talk to him later, but it would come back to haunt me later on in the day. We went between watching the game and laughing at the people who were really into it and talking about a lot of different things. I expressed my appreciation for him never judging me and hoped that he’d never felt that I had with him. At one point I felt like he was studying me like he was going to kiss me or something but I broke the eye contact because clearly I didn’t want to open up that can of worms. He was going to order another drink but I told him we should go on a walk instead, like up to Easy Street. So he paid and we headed out, listening for fan noise at the stadium, but decided to drive instead and talked about how he doesn’t like it when I call myself a stalker. We looked around then I found a skate mag for him and he told me about some crazy skate park in the San Juans that he’s only been to once. We headed out and he needed to get home so I drove him out there and he referred to my car as a “bitch ass” car and I got all mock offended but he quickly corrected and said he meant bitchin ass so we laughed about that and talked about how I would always pump Michael for information whenever I saw him because I worried about him. We pulled up to the house and he asked if I was going to get out but I said no, we did the “car hug” and he got out and said he’d call me and I drove away. I looked at my phone and had a disturbing text from Ian, so I called and left a frantic and apologetic voice mail for him then almost like clockwork Kay-See called to get an update and I told her where I was and what had happened with Ian, then guess who beeps in: Ian, so I ask if I can call her back and find out that he’s with the fam and can’t talk but that he had been feeling insecure and asked if I had been on a date (gulp), I told him no but that I had been having lunch with Eric and he asked “Skateboarding Eric?” and I told him yes. We hung up pretty quickly but I told him I would call him later. I called Kay-See back and two seconds later Eric beeps in so I ask her again if I can call her back, Eric wanted to know what I was doing for the next 3 hours and if I wanted to accompany him to Olympia and back to drop the kids off, but I couldn’t because of dinner and I thought that might be crossing a line or something but thanked him for thinking of me. Called Kay-See back and continued the conversation when a text from Ian came in that said that he’d been a little jealous and that must mean he likes me, so that was cute. I talked to K for a little while longer and when I got home I talked to Mom FOREVER and she gave me all sorts of insight and advice and it was just great to talk to her because I so rarely get to. I went and picked Grandma up early for dinner so we had lots of time when we got to Mom’s to talk and catch up and for me to fill everyone in on Eric and Ian and all that drama. We had spanikopida and it was really good, then talked for a little bit in the living room and hit the road around 7:15. I called Susan on the way home and I filled her in on everything and she wished me luck. I called Ian when I got home and got really nervous when he asked if he could call me later or the next day and that he had something he wanted to talk to me about. I got super paranoid and started feeling sick to my stomach, like “he’s going to break up with me, I know it” and called Susan for moral support. I vowed to call him after 10 if I hadn’t heard from him, but I did, so we talked and talked and talked. About us, about the distance, about kids, about compatibility in relationships and how much we are for each other, and though I ended up crying through some of it, we left it on a positive note and we’re not doing anything right now. Which was SUCH a relief. After we got off the phone though I cried like a baby because I don’t want it to end but we both just don’t know how it’s going to work out in the end. I think I updated this a little then crashed because I was exhausted.
Saturday 10/20, I woke up semi-early to get a start on the day, which included administering meds to my cat and doing a few things around the house before taking off to get my oil changed. The guy at the place was cracking me up and I was surprised at how good he was at the game shows on the Game Show Network. This other lady was pretty good too and really hilarious especially when the 24 year old on the Dating Game said she didn’t date divorced men because she didn’t want anyone’s leftovers. She was like “Everyone is leftover, I’d like to see where she’s at today” and was cracking other jokes. The Grease Monkey guy asked me how I get my hair to look the way it does so I told him but I don’t know if he was truly interested or just trying to get in my pants. Ha, sike. He was married. I called Julien after I was done and he told me 45 min so I went to Mom’s and talked with her and Alix for a little bit about Eric and Ian and dilemmas and such then took off for the Hill, found parking ok and walked up. Harper was sleeping when I arrived and Beth greeted me and we chatted until Jason got out of the shower then we started comparing baby pictures of him and Harper and I told them about Ian. We were hungry so we took off for West Seattle and ended up at the Alki Café. We had a nice breakfast talking about aliens and the world ending in 2012 and SLS and ended up back at the car and headed up to the top of the hill just driving around and looking at the sights. I called Kassie to find out where a few things were then parked by Easy Street and walked around. We tried to find formula then hit Cupcake Royale and I got a Caramel Apple cupcake and Harper got a vanilla with chocolate frosting and was really enjoying it. I got a ton of pictures and he was adorable. We headed back after that and I met J’s brother as we arrived, gave hugs and called Susan on my way to the car. I met her at her place then we walked up to Smith for some late-afternoon Poutine. It was as delicious as I remember and after I ate about half I was so full I was cursing myself for eating that much. There was a super hot bar tender and I kept checking him out and our waitress caught me 2 or 3 times, whoops. We walked down to Sonic Boom after that and both behaved ourselves, walking out with nothing and ended up walking back to her house. It was getting late and J needed his meds so I headed home calling Kay-See on the way to make plans for dancing later. She called after I got home and asked if we could not do it, and I told her of course even though I was really looking forward to going. I texted Eric to find out what he was doing and we made plans to go hiking the next morning. It surprised me how enthusiastic he was about going, which made me even more excited about it. I watched some tv for the rest of the night but went to bed earlyish at 10:30.
Friday 10/19, I had an invite to go to Kay-See’s for dinner but I felt like I needed to stay home with the cat and force feed him water and keep him comfortable. I think it worked and I ended up just watching tv and hanging around for the night. It was crazy to have a Friday night at home with no plans…don’t think that’s happened for months. I talked to Ian before bed for a few minutes but he had to go after not too long, but it was wonderful talking anyway.
Thursday 10/18, I took J to the emergency room and he definitely had something but they were taking care of him for me during the day and I picked him up after work and the doc showed me how to administer the pain reliever drug and also went over all the special instructions for his food and medication. Susan came over for moral support and helped me as I drugged him, then I heated up the pizza and texted Eric who had never returned my phone call from the night before. He claims he never got my message and thought I didn’t want to get together for dinner but invited me over for bbq pork he was making for his roomies. I told Susan the plan and we hung out talking and strategizing until about 8 then both took off hoping for the best with traffic on the bridge. I made it over to Eric’s pretty quickly but he wasn’t there when I arrived so I talked to Michelle and Ronny until he arrived. I heard all about the wedding then Eric showed up and he gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek, which worried me a little, then started chatting. We discussed, as a group, suggestions for the bbq sauce and Michelle sent us off to the store for molasses and apple cider vinegar. He hugged me again in the parking lot so I knew I needed to tell him about Ian but I didn’t really know how to bring it up so I put it off a little longer. We ran around the store checking in “Bake Time” for the molasses but came up empty. We finally found it and I told him to stop being such a pussy and just pick one (full flavored) then we talked about Grand Cayman in line and he said he would have found that skate park in 5 minutes if he had gone. On our way out he asked if I could get over the fact that he never called and I said yes and that being bitter wasn’t good and that I would try. He told me that in the past he’s made some bad decisions then I broke it to him that I was seeing someone and he was very positive and didn’t seem weirded out by it so that was a relief. Back at his place he kept going on the sauce then some of M’s friends showed up and they all ended up in the kitchen and we’re in the living room sitting on the same chair and just talking…forever. We talked and laughed and reminisced and I confessed the cookie story which blew him away and I was the one person he didn’t think of, which made me laugh. The whole experience basically reaffirmed why I’ve been trying to keep him in my life and stay connected to him all this time. We talked about us and how he’s been over the last year and bfs complementing their gfs and Michael and his living situation and all sorts of things and it was just such an amazing night. I fell a little bit back in love with him…I forgot how funny he can be. So it’s finally like 10:45 and I needed to get going so I said bye to Michelle and Eric walked me out and we talked for a little while longer by my car and hugged then he said he might call me over the weekend and actually seemed sincere not all ambivalent and loosey goosey like he usually is. He also drove home that it was him and not me and that he’s the one who lost out. V. sweet. I called Susan and told her I was on my way up to the Hill. I parked and told her I had to change my pants and would meet her in front of the Egyptian, got off the phone and just as I was getting out Kay-See called and wanted some dirt so I told her a bit then told her I had to go and ran down to Susan. Got into Neighbs ok (new wood floor in the entry) and went straight upstairs and saw Awkward Trannie on the way up, a good song came on so we went back downstairs to dance. We went to check our coats and saw Richie and Cory on our way out and started chatting with them, then saw Craig who came by and said hi, then told R and C that we were heading out to dance. We weren’t out there very long before Craig popped up and started dancing with us and commented on how we’re always in the same exact spot and I told him I was glad he was paying attention, which I’m sure freaked him out. Soon Richie and Cory came over and we all started dancing and chatting and at some point Craig asked me what Richie’s name was and last name and it turns out they used to know each other through church (I totally called it to Susan) when Craig was his junior camp leader or something. Teal and Darren showed up and so did Susan’s gay bf from a few weeks ago and he grabbed my butt and asked me if he’d done something last time and I told him no but that he had pinched my butt, so then he did it a bunch. We were all trying to get Susan to wrangle him in but a free range homo is hard to contain. Richie and I talked some more and he was trying explain to me that he thinks he’s attracted to me because I’m built just like his sisters with those “child bearing hips” and was that my hips are like an aphrodisiac, but he was like “You know, like oysters…” and I was like, “Umm…muscles? Lobsters?” but then I got what he was saying and shouted “Aphrodisiac!” so that was a running joke for the rest of the night. We also talked about how Richie sent Cory home with a sandwich and she held its hand all the way home and talked to it too. Soon Richie disappeared and our free range homo was back in effect and freaking all the boys out ie Teal, Craig and Richie when he was still there. It was hilarious. The funniest part was when he took one of Susan’s and my hands each into his and insisted we hold hands with each other, raise them all over our heads and jump up and down. Then he enthusiastically asked “Can you feel the energy?!” and I was like “Yeah Susan, can you feel it?! Oh yeah!” It was so funny. Craig came and went depending on the song and who was dancing by us, but it’s always interesting when he decides to dance with us. It must mean that it’s a real slow night for him friend-wise, if we’re the ones he’s choosing. We danced some more and Teal was over by us breakin it off but I decided it was time for me to head home and Susan decided to go too so we told Teal and he had a mini little tantrum and was like “Fiiine” so we kissed him goodbye and went to get our coats, hugging Craig on the way out and booking it to Susan’s car; she dropped me off and I headed home with all sorts of conflicting feelings floating around inside my body.
Saturday 10/20, I woke up semi-early to get a start on the day, which included administering meds to my cat and doing a few things around the house before taking off to get my oil changed. The guy at the place was cracking me up and I was surprised at how good he was at the game shows on the Game Show Network. This other lady was pretty good too and really hilarious especially when the 24 year old on the Dating Game said she didn’t date divorced men because she didn’t want anyone’s leftovers. She was like “Everyone is leftover, I’d like to see where she’s at today” and was cracking other jokes. The Grease Monkey guy asked me how I get my hair to look the way it does so I told him but I don’t know if he was truly interested or just trying to get in my pants. Ha, sike. He was married. I called Julien after I was done and he told me 45 min so I went to Mom’s and talked with her and Alix for a little bit about Eric and Ian and dilemmas and such then took off for the Hill, found parking ok and walked up. Harper was sleeping when I arrived and Beth greeted me and we chatted until Jason got out of the shower then we started comparing baby pictures of him and Harper and I told them about Ian. We were hungry so we took off for West Seattle and ended up at the Alki Café. We had a nice breakfast talking about aliens and the world ending in 2012 and SLS and ended up back at the car and headed up to the top of the hill just driving around and looking at the sights. I called Kassie to find out where a few things were then parked by Easy Street and walked around. We tried to find formula then hit Cupcake Royale and I got a Caramel Apple cupcake and Harper got a vanilla with chocolate frosting and was really enjoying it. I got a ton of pictures and he was adorable. We headed back after that and I met J’s brother as we arrived, gave hugs and called Susan on my way to the car. I met her at her place then we walked up to Smith for some late-afternoon Poutine. It was as delicious as I remember and after I ate about half I was so full I was cursing myself for eating that much. There was a super hot bar tender and I kept checking him out and our waitress caught me 2 or 3 times, whoops. We walked down to Sonic Boom after that and both behaved ourselves, walking out with nothing and ended up walking back to her house. It was getting late and J needed his meds so I headed home calling Kay-See on the way to make plans for dancing later. She called after I got home and asked if we could not do it, and I told her of course even though I was really looking forward to going. I texted Eric to find out what he was doing and we made plans to go hiking the next morning. It surprised me how enthusiastic he was about going, which made me even more excited about it. I watched some tv for the rest of the night but went to bed earlyish at 10:30.
Friday 10/19, I had an invite to go to Kay-See’s for dinner but I felt like I needed to stay home with the cat and force feed him water and keep him comfortable. I think it worked and I ended up just watching tv and hanging around for the night. It was crazy to have a Friday night at home with no plans…don’t think that’s happened for months. I talked to Ian before bed for a few minutes but he had to go after not too long, but it was wonderful talking anyway.
Thursday 10/18, I took J to the emergency room and he definitely had something but they were taking care of him for me during the day and I picked him up after work and the doc showed me how to administer the pain reliever drug and also went over all the special instructions for his food and medication. Susan came over for moral support and helped me as I drugged him, then I heated up the pizza and texted Eric who had never returned my phone call from the night before. He claims he never got my message and thought I didn’t want to get together for dinner but invited me over for bbq pork he was making for his roomies. I told Susan the plan and we hung out talking and strategizing until about 8 then both took off hoping for the best with traffic on the bridge. I made it over to Eric’s pretty quickly but he wasn’t there when I arrived so I talked to Michelle and Ronny until he arrived. I heard all about the wedding then Eric showed up and he gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek, which worried me a little, then started chatting. We discussed, as a group, suggestions for the bbq sauce and Michelle sent us off to the store for molasses and apple cider vinegar. He hugged me again in the parking lot so I knew I needed to tell him about Ian but I didn’t really know how to bring it up so I put it off a little longer. We ran around the store checking in “Bake Time” for the molasses but came up empty. We finally found it and I told him to stop being such a pussy and just pick one (full flavored) then we talked about Grand Cayman in line and he said he would have found that skate park in 5 minutes if he had gone. On our way out he asked if I could get over the fact that he never called and I said yes and that being bitter wasn’t good and that I would try. He told me that in the past he’s made some bad decisions then I broke it to him that I was seeing someone and he was very positive and didn’t seem weirded out by it so that was a relief. Back at his place he kept going on the sauce then some of M’s friends showed up and they all ended up in the kitchen and we’re in the living room sitting on the same chair and just talking…forever. We talked and laughed and reminisced and I confessed the cookie story which blew him away and I was the one person he didn’t think of, which made me laugh. The whole experience basically reaffirmed why I’ve been trying to keep him in my life and stay connected to him all this time. We talked about us and how he’s been over the last year and bfs complementing their gfs and Michael and his living situation and all sorts of things and it was just such an amazing night. I fell a little bit back in love with him…I forgot how funny he can be. So it’s finally like 10:45 and I needed to get going so I said bye to Michelle and Eric walked me out and we talked for a little while longer by my car and hugged then he said he might call me over the weekend and actually seemed sincere not all ambivalent and loosey goosey like he usually is. He also drove home that it was him and not me and that he’s the one who lost out. V. sweet. I called Susan and told her I was on my way up to the Hill. I parked and told her I had to change my pants and would meet her in front of the Egyptian, got off the phone and just as I was getting out Kay-See called and wanted some dirt so I told her a bit then told her I had to go and ran down to Susan. Got into Neighbs ok (new wood floor in the entry) and went straight upstairs and saw Awkward Trannie on the way up, a good song came on so we went back downstairs to dance. We went to check our coats and saw Richie and Cory on our way out and started chatting with them, then saw Craig who came by and said hi, then told R and C that we were heading out to dance. We weren’t out there very long before Craig popped up and started dancing with us and commented on how we’re always in the same exact spot and I told him I was glad he was paying attention, which I’m sure freaked him out. Soon Richie and Cory came over and we all started dancing and chatting and at some point Craig asked me what Richie’s name was and last name and it turns out they used to know each other through church (I totally called it to Susan) when Craig was his junior camp leader or something. Teal and Darren showed up and so did Susan’s gay bf from a few weeks ago and he grabbed my butt and asked me if he’d done something last time and I told him no but that he had pinched my butt, so then he did it a bunch. We were all trying to get Susan to wrangle him in but a free range homo is hard to contain. Richie and I talked some more and he was trying explain to me that he thinks he’s attracted to me because I’m built just like his sisters with those “child bearing hips” and was that my hips are like an aphrodisiac, but he was like “You know, like oysters…” and I was like, “Umm…muscles? Lobsters?” but then I got what he was saying and shouted “Aphrodisiac!” so that was a running joke for the rest of the night. We also talked about how Richie sent Cory home with a sandwich and she held its hand all the way home and talked to it too. Soon Richie disappeared and our free range homo was back in effect and freaking all the boys out ie Teal, Craig and Richie when he was still there. It was hilarious. The funniest part was when he took one of Susan’s and my hands each into his and insisted we hold hands with each other, raise them all over our heads and jump up and down. Then he enthusiastically asked “Can you feel the energy?!” and I was like “Yeah Susan, can you feel it?! Oh yeah!” It was so funny. Craig came and went depending on the song and who was dancing by us, but it’s always interesting when he decides to dance with us. It must mean that it’s a real slow night for him friend-wise, if we’re the ones he’s choosing. We danced some more and Teal was over by us breakin it off but I decided it was time for me to head home and Susan decided to go too so we told Teal and he had a mini little tantrum and was like “Fiiine” so we kissed him goodbye and went to get our coats, hugging Craig on the way out and booking it to Susan’s car; she dropped me off and I headed home with all sorts of conflicting feelings floating around inside my body.
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