Thursday 10/25, I talked to Dave on the way home to discuss our meet up later that evening and decided on 8 at Black Bottle. I showered and got ready, talked to Susan, got a text from Dave requesting 8:30 instead, and finally headed out. I called Ian and was telling him about it and he kind of freaked out like "Great, maybe he doesn't want kids, and he lives in Seattle and it'll work out great for you guys" and I was like "...uhhhhh...no, it's not even like that" I didn't even want to go out with him and the last thing I wanted Ian to think was that this was a date, which he did, or that I had sketchy intentions with Dave. Yuck, no. He eventually said it was ok then wanted to know his name so he could check him out on myspace and we hung up. I called LPC to make sure I didn't have anything to worry about but he didn't answer so I left a message and called Kay-See next, who was like "You're doing WHAT?!" so then I started REALLY asking myself what the hell I was doing. Groannnnn. I called Eric just to see if he'd be on call in case I needed backup but he didn't answer so I left a slightly frantic message. He later was like "What the hell are you doing?" and "Of course you met him online". I walked down a block to Black Bottle and went in but didn't see Dave, so I called him, he was parking, then LPC called back and said he didn't think there was anything to worry about but what about that guy I was seeing? I told him I still was and this wasn't a date! Dave's profile says In a Relationship! I don't even want to meet him! He told me about his gay Abe costume then all of a sudden Dave popped up from behind a tree and scared me so I told LPC thanks but I had to go. We went in and sat down and started chatting, and he was fine and normal...at first. He started doing some weird shit with my hand and kept making eye contact for too long and saying weird stuff about sex with his ex, so when he suggested we do this again and at a French restaurant, I was like "Yeah, sure" but inside I was like "Hell no" and already plotting how I will get out of it. At least the food was really good, I had a prosciutto and béchamel flat bread thing, that was kind of like a pizza. He looked at every girl's ass that walked by which I thought was hilarious, I was like "Dude! You're not even being discreet. At ALL!" It was 10 so I said I needed to go and he insisted on walking me to my car and kissed my cheek which I was like, don't, got in my car, called Susan and said I was heading up her way, then called Ian and left a message that I wasn't dead. At Susan's we laid on her bed and talked about my non-date and looked at stuff online and I ate a peanut butter cup. Mmmm. We left a little before 11 and parked in the usual spot and headed in. It was all decked out for Halloween and very spoooky. We probably went straight upstairs to spy on people and to see who was there before going back down to dance. We checked our coats then Susan spotted Andrew and we fled to the dance floor. We danced danced danced but hated being by the fan so eventually we moved and this rowdy group of girls were all screeching and howling when this one guy was attempting to Thriller it up on the stage, and I was like "Ughh, shut up, he isn't even good". Then some trannies (eek, Marissa!) kept bumping into Susan so we made our way back over to our usual dancing spot. Andrew kept lurking around but Susan was ignoring him and I kept my monocle on him as much as possible. I spotted this guy on stage dancing hilariously and with these great side moves and hands behind the back moves and (AND!) he had a ponytail. Susan called him SPM (Sensitive Ponytail Man or Sensitive Period Man, because he would ask you questions about your period and be supportive and maybe write you a poem about it) and we enjoyed watching him all night. It was truly wonderful. Socks and Sandals was wearing cheetah tights with a tight cheetah minidress and Susan got some freaky dirt on her later in the evening. Teal and Darren showed up and Darren looked so hot with his fingerless gloves on, mee-ow. Some nasty guys tried to hump Susan from behind so she moved, putting me in prime humping territory, and I rushed to Teal's side yelping "Teal, that guy is trying to dance with me!" while clinging to his arm. The guys kind of backed off but when I just didn't turn around to pay them any attention they eventually moved on. Richie showed up with a friend, whose name I can't remember, and we all danced and talked which was fun. Richie is such a sweet heart and is always so complimentary. Him and Susan took off to dance by Red Sweatshirt (ie "my probably gay bf") and I was left dancing by my lonesome. It wasn't more than a few moments however before I noticed Michael standing on the sidelines and it was as though the crowd parted as I made my way over to him. Like in slow motion or something. I got a nice muscle-y hug and started gabbing immediately. We talked forever, about Eric and Ian and sobriety and working out and with Samuel about how we all met and how the boys had spotted us from up above and how Michael is a great wingman. SPM walked by and apparently Samuel and Michael know him and I think I may have put my foot in my mouth but I can't be sure...so his name is Christopher and I was introduced. Fuckin great. He was actually very nice, which isn’t surprising since he’s so sensitive. Susan was trying to get Michael and me to make out again but I had horrible breath so I knew I wasn't going to let that happen, though the thought of it makes me a little light headed. Richie and Susan found us and we all did introductions and I talked to Richie a little more then decided it was time to take off and said my goodbyes. Michael suggested we get together for coffee sometime, but he always does. I saw Richie and Co. outside and almost slapped his ass but kept walking, only to turn around farther up the alley to see him running toward me to slap my ass. It scared me. I ran to my car and heard Richie yelling from afar "I love Karrah!" which made me smile. Had a text from Ian, drove home and went to bed.

Wednesday 10/24, I picked up cat litter at the pet store and talked with the guy there about why my cat is so crazy and he had a few suggestions then wished me good luck. I called Sos on my way home to see if she wanted to do ANTM and she did plus Jake was going to get a pizza so I was in for that as well. I had some broccoli and yogurt before going over to ensure I wouldn't gorge myself on delicious pizza. I headed over at 7 and Sos and I chatted while Jake watched the game. I filled her in about Ian and she said she was sorry but that it wasn't a complete surprise. We talked about why I don't want kids (a theme this week apparently!) and Sos has a few theories of why I feel it's such a scary thing and I totally agree with her. The pizza was finally done and we chowed down and watched tv, then Jake retired to the office while we watched ANTM and talked during the commercials about how her class is going. I stayed for a few minutes after it was over then headed home and ended up talking to Ian on the phone for a little while which was nice. I like being able to talk to him on a daily basis. I played with J for quite a while, swinging his frog on a string all around my room while he would lunge at it from behind different objects in the room. I'm sure I watched the news and went to bed.

Tuesday 10/23, It was a beautiful day and Peggy let me leave a little early so I called Sos to see if she wanted to go on a walk but she was already out so I went home and ended up falling asleep instead. It was only for about 15 minutes but I felt totally refreshed afterward and was running around the house freaking my cat out. I put him outside since it was so nice out and about 20 minutes later I heard his collar jangling, which was v. odd since he was supposed to be outside. How did he get back in? Well, he chewed a hole through the screen door. Nothing surprises me anymore. I had a pretty healthy dinner and cut myself off early with the ice cream which I was proud of. I watched Beauty and the Geek and probably went to bed early.

Monday 10/22, I was feeling a little shitty at work about what had happened with Ian but felt much better after I got a cute message from him. I went home after work and prepped a little for Dad to arrive. When he arrived we sat and talked in the living room for a little while then took off to the Keg for dinner. We had a nice time talking and eating and I told him about Eric, my situation with Ian and my stance on kids. Ian texted me and told me to entertain him so Dad told me to write “You can’t always get what you want” and the idea was that he would write back “But if you try sometimes…” etc, and I’m guessing Dad wanted the meaning to sink in because he thinks Ian should be more open to us potentially having a long distance relationship. He didn’t get it right away and Dad and I laughed when he finally did and how exasperated his text sounded. We shared a brownie dessert then took off for Home Depot where he got me a fireplace grill thing and a box of Envirologs. We went home and watched some of Dancing with the Stars and looked at pictures from Grand Cayman. Dad was yawning so I got him all set up to go to sleep then got into bed and updated the blog and went to bed not too late since I was tired.