Wednesday 10/17, I rushed home after work to get everything set for girls night, talking to Mom on the way home. The litter box was a mess and there was shit all over the place and I was so mad and crashing around trying to clean it up and put J outside while I cleaned. I finally let him back in and he was in the litter box right away and I was like "Seriously cat? Can't you shit outside?" but what I didn't realize until later was that he was sick and felt like he had to go and couldn't, or was going just a little bit. Poor cat. I had calls in from everyone that they were en route so I showered and prepped and waited. Kay-See was the first to arrive and we talked about my cat and also Ryan and how that's going. Then Susan and Chrystol showed up so we all chatted in the kitchen while eating chips and mango peach salsa, yum! Sos was the last to show up and I felt bad because she was sick and came anyway. I popped the pizzas in and we chatted until ANTM came on then settled onto the couch and floor for the big event. I went and got my comp to show Susan the hilarious cat / kids in a raft picture on N's myspace. It kills me. We ate most of the two pizzas and I made broccoli too which was good, then my phone rang...and it was Eric. I looked at Susan then ran upstairs to take it. I haven't talked to him on the phone for, I don't know, like 6 months...at least...? It was weird, but so so so strangely familiar. I had people over so I asked if I could call him back and he was waffling so I was like "Yes or no Eric?!" and he was all "Damn, yes, yes you can call me back". I went back downstairs and everyone looked at me expectantly, thinking it had been Ian, and I was like "No, it's not what you think...I'll tell you on the commercial" so then a commercial came and I was like "No one is going to be happy about this...but..." as worried looks manifested themselves on all of their faces and I filled them in. Sos was especially not happy, but I think curiosity was overruling their collective rational thinking in this situation and they all wanted to hear stories after it was over. We finished ANTM and I totally called who was going home, then Sos took off because she felt like shit and the 4 of us started watching Gossip Girl and talking about my Ian dilemma and all of my friends are wise in different ways and it made me feel better getting their opinions. We ate some of Susan's chocolate cream pie and Kay-See dished up huge portions, except for herself. We all pretty much killed what we were given though. Everyone left right around 10 after we took a ridiculous "holla!" picture that seems to be anything but. My cat was still acting weird and I was glad he had an appt for the next day. I went upstairs and called Eric back and left a message, then called Ian after he sent me a mushy text and we ended up talking for almost 40 minutes and it was so fun and even he said we should do it more often. It was cute. I think I blogged a little then went to bed without a call back from Eric. No shock there.
Tuesday 10/16, I rushed to the eye clinic right from work to pick up my contacts, then picked up Susan and we headed down to the mall from there. We parked at Lincoln Square and decided to catch the later movie so we ate dinner at PF Changs and I filled her in on my Ian dilemma and discussed texting Eric about meeting up for lunch. I stipulated a few things that I would then end up going back on later that night, but Susan was on the same page for most of it I think. We both got good fortunes and headed into the mall. We went to Sephora where I got some tweezers then looked at the bakery items but decided on Starbucks instead. Back over to LS where we settled into our movie. There was no "20" happening so we ended up watching this salmon swim upstream about 72 times. The theater was empty when we got in and of course a group of people comes and sits RIGHT BEHIND US then another group comes and sits RIGHT IN FRONT OF US. WHY??!! Do you not see 800 other seats available that you need to sit RIGHT THERE?! Seriously? It baffles me. And Susan. I thought she was going to lose it, but she didn't. We both loved the movie and drooled a little when Clive Owen appeared onscreen. Plus Cate Blanchett is just like one of my favorite actresses ever, if not my favorite. I love her. After it was over I drove Susan back to her car and headed home calling Alix on the way home to get the scoop on Homecoming. I had to pick out pictures I liked so I called her back and let her know. I got ready for bed and right before turning in I texted Eric "We should do lunch or something soon. It's been like forever." and surprisingly I got a response back very quickly "Yeah, actually that's what I have been thinking" so I asked him what he wanted to do and he suggested making me dinner so I told him that might be fun (despite what I had insisted on to Susan) and he told me "Think about what you want and let's get specific tomorrow" so I wrote "Yes sir. Talk tomorrow." because it was midnight and I was trying to go to bed. He kept writing little things back like "how does that sound" so I confirmed again and ignored the last text. Apparently I should have stayed awake a little bit longer because about 20 minutes later he texted "I've been thinking about you lately" which I didn't find until the morning. Uh oh. This would have been much better received 2.5 months ago. When I was seeing LPC because I would have dumped his ass in a second. But it's not and I'm so not jeopardizing anything with Ian for Eric. But I do want to be friends with Eric so I still totally want to get together and catch up. This may get interesting.
Monday 10/15, At home I cleaned a ton, ate dinner, watched some tv, thought about Ian and talked to Susan. I called Ian after 11 and had a whole list of things to cover and he said I am a breath of fresh air and he doesn’t know if it’s because he’s growing up or because he likes me so much. It was very sweet. We also discussed our amorous status and that I want him to trust me and he said something very flattering and reassuring about who I am as a person so that made me smile. We chatted for a little while longer then hung up and I went to bed.
Sunday 10/14, I woke up at like 10 but I knew Ian wasn't ready to get up so I went back to sleep and woke up at noon. Noon! I was like, "Ok, we HAVE to get up, I'm not staying in bed for my last 4 hours!" We got moving and hopped in the shower together and he let me pull the shade up and have the window open so I could spy on people, he's such a sweetheart. One lady saw us though, so I had to hide after that. We got dressed then asked Ryan which breakfast place he thought was the best so the three of us headed out to the one he suggested. I got a wonderful blue cheese and bacon omelet in which the bacon pieces were huge and juicy. Soo good. We looked at some cat book and pretty much shut the place down as it was like 2:30. When we got back home I sat in one of the chairs in the living room while Ian burned some cds when the topic of Andrea's sort-of bf came up and Ian as my sort-of bf and I told him that if he wanted to refer to himself my bf that I wouldn't have a problem with it. You know, real chalantly. He made some joke like all the girls say that or something, but then said that if he called himself anyone's bf it would be mine. We decided to take a walk since it was so nice out and I knew I'd have to be leaving soon. We took off then went back to grab our cameras and walked around the hood and Ian hasn't ever walked the way we did apparently. We held hands and talked about houses we liked and moving and PDX vs SEA. We talked about the party and Kyla’s cleavage and how I couldn’t stop looking at it so no one can really blame Nick for getting caught on film in the act then he made some comment about how he saw at least a half dozen guys looking at my chest over the course of the day on Saturday and how that jealousy or possessive switch easily gets flipped on. Interesting. I would have never guessed. I didn’t notice a-one though. He’s a guy and apparently notices these things. Back at his place I looked at an Impressionism book he has while he compiled a mix cd for me but was having trouble so I requested a few and it got all filled up. He pulled me onto the floor and we just laid there for a while looking at each other and kissing and holding each other while listening to music. We realized we won't see each other for a few weeks which bummed both of us out, but what can you do? C'est la Vie. Or Siesta la Vie. Either one. I gathered all my stuff, he requested I leave one of the movies I brought down, then walked me down to my car. We took a couple more pictures and hugged and kissed then I took off and he watched me as I left. I called and talked to Mom for a really long time about Ian and kids and parenting and overall happiness and how it relates to having children or not having children and narcissism. It basically made me feel like shit, but she did say something that made me tear up about when I was born, which she's never told me and made me get all emotional. It still didn't make me want to have kids though, in fact it made me realize even more how much the idea makes me nauseous and I would probably claw my eyes out. And I’m not even being dramatic, I seriously couldn’t ever do it. I hit traffic in Tacoma then talked to Susan for a bit then Beth and Jason beeped in and we made plans to hang out on Saturday. I talked to Susan again when I got home, unpacked, uploaded some pics and eventually went to bed.
Saturday 10/13, We woke up around 10 and got ready and headed out to the beautiful sunny day. We drove by a few neighborhood breakfast spots that looked crowded so we just decided to go to Noah’s again and I put in Ratatat and he liked it right away which made me happy since he had expressed some skepticism when I first mentioned the name. We walked in the sunshine and he said if I “walked like that” that he would walk 20 feet in front of me. Ouch! I grabbed a table outside while he went in and ordered and remembered my order from last time almost to a tee. We talked and laughed as we consumed our respective breakfasts. He told me some girl he knew looked like “that girl with the blue necklace” which turned out to be a dog tied to a hydrant. We walked back toward the car, but not the same way we came so we got a little lost but saw some girl run right into a bunch of spider webs so we ducked real low, Vietnam style. We continued to laugh all the way to the car and I kept saying “I’m SURE it’s this street!” and he was like “You can’t claim that on EVERY street!” but I did anyway, and I was finally right when we found it. We drove downtown and parked, went to Whole Foods so I could pick up some moisturizer and got a disturbing call from Mama about G. Dixie. After that we walked over to Everyday Music where I picked up 3 or 4 new cds then we continued on, walking toward some park he wanted to show me. On the way he took me on a tour of some environmentally conscious building that was rehabbed with some cool techniques and I picked up a hot chocolate before he hit the park with the fountain that would go from nothing to gushing water. We sat in the sun and took our shoes and socks off and put our feet in the water. He was embarrassed about the toenails on one of his feet but I promised not to look. We saw a really cranky looking guy who might have been homeless but appeared to have just purchased some items from REI. We tried to watch the stand up video again but it wouldn’t work, then he told me about some disease that makes your body twist all up involuntarily. It was nearing 3:30 (time we needed to be back at the car) so we headed toward the “POST” stop and rode it back to “Cooch” St. We went back to his house where we made plans with Ryan for later that night for dinner, movie and party at Kyla’s. We decided to go on a walk to the nature preserve or whatever and both found walking sticks but ended up switching as we picked up sticks better suited for the other than for ourselves. He took me into the woods where we went by this huge, creepy mausoleum and eventually ended up at a pond where we took pictures and sat enjoying the sunset for a little while. On our way back Ian almost stepped on a snake then I saw it and it freaked me out because I almost stepped on it too, then saw a little tiny brown frog, walked back to his house passing the dead rose with the face and busted ass to get ready. We were supposed to be downtown to eat and for the movie, but still hadn’t heard from Nick and Lauren, but went anyway. I got all cute for Kyla’s party because I wanted to make a good impression and didn’t want to look bad in general. We parked and bought tickets for a later show as they were selling out quickly, then went over to the Virginia something for cheap burgers with tots. We talked about where Ryan’s from and I think I told a story that wasn’t very good. Ian kept his hand on my leg as we ate dinner. We headed over to the theater and Ryan and I left Ian outside to find N & L and we got seats. Even though we were like 20 minutes early the theater was packed and we had to sit fairly close to the front but not too bad. We all LOVED Darjeeling Limited and Ian and I held hands through the whole thing. One part made me cry but it was more that I was thinking about Grandpa Smittey than anything. I mean it was obviously a very sad part and the cinematography was beautiful, but I was feeling a bit overwhelmed with the whole thing. We all walked back toward the cars and as we were standing waiting for the light to change to cross, Nick asked if Ryan and myself were going to the party as well and when Ian was like “Duh!” I sidestepped behind the telephone poll, like “No way, I’m outta here, and don’t tell Ian” and N was like “There she went! Where is she going? She just took off across the street!” and Ian was totally baffled and looking and waiting for me to reappear across the street somewhere but I was behind the poll right behind him and I started laughing so hard along with everyone else. Ian was like “Shut uuup!” and like “I was like “What a bitch!”” HahaHAAA. Sucka. We all went to Kyla’s for her housewarming kegger and it was rockin when we got there, had introductions and it was a little intimidating but everyone was really nice. N and L showed up and the four of us (N, L, Ryan and me) ended up hanging in the kitchen for most of the night laughing and joking and taking pictures and making fun of girls eating corndogs. Ian did a keg stand and was disappointed that none of us were there to watch, then was back in and Kyla was doing introductions to Gabby and she was like “This is Ian and this is his…friend…Karrah from Seattle” and I was like “How diplomatic of you Kyla!” and she was like “Fuck it, this is his GIRLFRIEND Karrah” and I just laughed nervously. A little later on, still in our kitchen nook, we started talking about some commercial and I suggested the grandma must have been on a break and Kyla lost it, she was laughing so hard and totally gave me a high-five. We ended up outside to watch Danny do a keg stand but then N and Kyla got into it so they went to make up and Ian took a picture but N is totally looking at K’s boobs in it. Christ though, I couldn’t stop looking at them either. I think everyone was preoccupied. She was like “I know, I’m like “I’m up here!”” and pointing to her face, so that made me laugh. Pretty soon Ian was getting a bit drunk and there were announcements of a dance off in the living room between Ian and Kyla so we all gathered around as the furniture was moved and it was kicked off. Ian narrated as he did it and cracked me up with the “Cleaning the Gutters” move. So it goes back and forth two times then Kyla pulls all the stops out with the corndog and some really suggestive moves so Ian grabs a pillow, throws it on the floor, licks his fingers (inspired by Darjeeling Limited apparently) and throws himself onto the floor as he pretends to have sex with the pillow and use his fingers to, you know. I was so mortified I looked away while covering my face. The crowd judged and Ian won by a landslide. One meathead was like “That was genius!” It was pretty hilarious. Then Nick got out there and had some hilarious moves that I believe were caught on video. Eventually Ian and I were sitting on the couch talking and snuggling and I would glance over in N and L’s direction every once in a while and I felt like N was always kind of looking at me. Maybe I’m paranoid or full of myself, but it happened quite a few times that evening. Whatevs, I’m not worried. The night was winding down and we decided to go and as I was saying bye to Kyla she gave me multiple hugs and a pep talk about Ian and exes and to let her know if I ever wanted to talk because she understood and has been there. Ian tried to come over and she was like “No, uh uh, leave, we’re talking!” haHA, snap. We went home and talked in bed about Kyla and N and L and how they took him aside and he wanted to make sure I’d enjoyed myself and that I hadn’t felt weird. So that was good, then I totally got off and I didn’t even expect to.
Friday 10/12, Peggy let me leave at 3:30 so I rushed home, showered, grabbed my stuff and headed out. It took me forever (like 3hrs 50min) and Ian called me right as I was pulling up to find out where I was because "everyone" was wagering. That made me nervous, who the hell is there?! Turns out it was only Nick and Ryan, phew. He told me to hurry up and get my ass up there as he watched me from the porch. I went up the stairs and gave him a hug and we just held each other and breathed one another in. It was nice. I met Nick who was helping himself to beer in the fridge and I found him to be quite good looking and very funny. They were all drinking and Ian was all smiley and kept saying hi and giving me googly eyes, which I ate up with a spoon. We all sat in the living room talking and listening to music which was fun but I didn't really know what to do with his friends when he would leave the room. Try and make awkward traffic related conversation I guess. Actually Nick used to work in Seattle or something and lived with his sister in Federal Way. Anyway, we all just sat around talking until it was time for Nick to go pick Lauren up so then it was the three of us but Nick and Lauren were back soon so then it was the five of us looking at the scary pictures the boys had taken of themselves earlier in the evening. I talked to Lauren a bit and eventually everyone cleared out and it was just the two of us. Ian put the couch down and we laid there for a long time talking about drugs and I was quite relieved to learn his stance and what he’d done earlier that night. It made me feel special but at the same time I told him that I don’t expect him to adopt my stance. It’s just not realistic. I told him about exes and my experience and siblings and other things. We kissed and snuggled though I was careful to avoid any quick jabbing motions toward his pelvis. We started getting ready for bed because we were both tired and he had a headache but as I was getting ready he turned on a Cate Blanchett interview and we watched that for a little while. We ended up in bed talking some more and trying to watch some standup comic he liked until about 12:30.
Tuesday 10/16, I rushed to the eye clinic right from work to pick up my contacts, then picked up Susan and we headed down to the mall from there. We parked at Lincoln Square and decided to catch the later movie so we ate dinner at PF Changs and I filled her in on my Ian dilemma and discussed texting Eric about meeting up for lunch. I stipulated a few things that I would then end up going back on later that night, but Susan was on the same page for most of it I think. We both got good fortunes and headed into the mall. We went to Sephora where I got some tweezers then looked at the bakery items but decided on Starbucks instead. Back over to LS where we settled into our movie. There was no "20" happening so we ended up watching this salmon swim upstream about 72 times. The theater was empty when we got in and of course a group of people comes and sits RIGHT BEHIND US then another group comes and sits RIGHT IN FRONT OF US. WHY??!! Do you not see 800 other seats available that you need to sit RIGHT THERE?! Seriously? It baffles me. And Susan. I thought she was going to lose it, but she didn't. We both loved the movie and drooled a little when Clive Owen appeared onscreen. Plus Cate Blanchett is just like one of my favorite actresses ever, if not my favorite. I love her. After it was over I drove Susan back to her car and headed home calling Alix on the way home to get the scoop on Homecoming. I had to pick out pictures I liked so I called her back and let her know. I got ready for bed and right before turning in I texted Eric "We should do lunch or something soon. It's been like forever." and surprisingly I got a response back very quickly "Yeah, actually that's what I have been thinking" so I asked him what he wanted to do and he suggested making me dinner so I told him that might be fun (despite what I had insisted on to Susan) and he told me "Think about what you want and let's get specific tomorrow" so I wrote "Yes sir. Talk tomorrow." because it was midnight and I was trying to go to bed. He kept writing little things back like "how does that sound" so I confirmed again and ignored the last text. Apparently I should have stayed awake a little bit longer because about 20 minutes later he texted "I've been thinking about you lately" which I didn't find until the morning. Uh oh. This would have been much better received 2.5 months ago. When I was seeing LPC because I would have dumped his ass in a second. But it's not and I'm so not jeopardizing anything with Ian for Eric. But I do want to be friends with Eric so I still totally want to get together and catch up. This may get interesting.
Monday 10/15, At home I cleaned a ton, ate dinner, watched some tv, thought about Ian and talked to Susan. I called Ian after 11 and had a whole list of things to cover and he said I am a breath of fresh air and he doesn’t know if it’s because he’s growing up or because he likes me so much. It was very sweet. We also discussed our amorous status and that I want him to trust me and he said something very flattering and reassuring about who I am as a person so that made me smile. We chatted for a little while longer then hung up and I went to bed.
Sunday 10/14, I woke up at like 10 but I knew Ian wasn't ready to get up so I went back to sleep and woke up at noon. Noon! I was like, "Ok, we HAVE to get up, I'm not staying in bed for my last 4 hours!" We got moving and hopped in the shower together and he let me pull the shade up and have the window open so I could spy on people, he's such a sweetheart. One lady saw us though, so I had to hide after that. We got dressed then asked Ryan which breakfast place he thought was the best so the three of us headed out to the one he suggested. I got a wonderful blue cheese and bacon omelet in which the bacon pieces were huge and juicy. Soo good. We looked at some cat book and pretty much shut the place down as it was like 2:30. When we got back home I sat in one of the chairs in the living room while Ian burned some cds when the topic of Andrea's sort-of bf came up and Ian as my sort-of bf and I told him that if he wanted to refer to himself my bf that I wouldn't have a problem with it. You know, real chalantly. He made some joke like all the girls say that or something, but then said that if he called himself anyone's bf it would be mine. We decided to take a walk since it was so nice out and I knew I'd have to be leaving soon. We took off then went back to grab our cameras and walked around the hood and Ian hasn't ever walked the way we did apparently. We held hands and talked about houses we liked and moving and PDX vs SEA. We talked about the party and Kyla’s cleavage and how I couldn’t stop looking at it so no one can really blame Nick for getting caught on film in the act then he made some comment about how he saw at least a half dozen guys looking at my chest over the course of the day on Saturday and how that jealousy or possessive switch easily gets flipped on. Interesting. I would have never guessed. I didn’t notice a-one though. He’s a guy and apparently notices these things. Back at his place I looked at an Impressionism book he has while he compiled a mix cd for me but was having trouble so I requested a few and it got all filled up. He pulled me onto the floor and we just laid there for a while looking at each other and kissing and holding each other while listening to music. We realized we won't see each other for a few weeks which bummed both of us out, but what can you do? C'est la Vie. Or Siesta la Vie. Either one. I gathered all my stuff, he requested I leave one of the movies I brought down, then walked me down to my car. We took a couple more pictures and hugged and kissed then I took off and he watched me as I left. I called and talked to Mom for a really long time about Ian and kids and parenting and overall happiness and how it relates to having children or not having children and narcissism. It basically made me feel like shit, but she did say something that made me tear up about when I was born, which she's never told me and made me get all emotional. It still didn't make me want to have kids though, in fact it made me realize even more how much the idea makes me nauseous and I would probably claw my eyes out. And I’m not even being dramatic, I seriously couldn’t ever do it. I hit traffic in Tacoma then talked to Susan for a bit then Beth and Jason beeped in and we made plans to hang out on Saturday. I talked to Susan again when I got home, unpacked, uploaded some pics and eventually went to bed.
Saturday 10/13, We woke up around 10 and got ready and headed out to the beautiful sunny day. We drove by a few neighborhood breakfast spots that looked crowded so we just decided to go to Noah’s again and I put in Ratatat and he liked it right away which made me happy since he had expressed some skepticism when I first mentioned the name. We walked in the sunshine and he said if I “walked like that” that he would walk 20 feet in front of me. Ouch! I grabbed a table outside while he went in and ordered and remembered my order from last time almost to a tee. We talked and laughed as we consumed our respective breakfasts. He told me some girl he knew looked like “that girl with the blue necklace” which turned out to be a dog tied to a hydrant. We walked back toward the car, but not the same way we came so we got a little lost but saw some girl run right into a bunch of spider webs so we ducked real low, Vietnam style. We continued to laugh all the way to the car and I kept saying “I’m SURE it’s this street!” and he was like “You can’t claim that on EVERY street!” but I did anyway, and I was finally right when we found it. We drove downtown and parked, went to Whole Foods so I could pick up some moisturizer and got a disturbing call from Mama about G. Dixie. After that we walked over to Everyday Music where I picked up 3 or 4 new cds then we continued on, walking toward some park he wanted to show me. On the way he took me on a tour of some environmentally conscious building that was rehabbed with some cool techniques and I picked up a hot chocolate before he hit the park with the fountain that would go from nothing to gushing water. We sat in the sun and took our shoes and socks off and put our feet in the water. He was embarrassed about the toenails on one of his feet but I promised not to look. We saw a really cranky looking guy who might have been homeless but appeared to have just purchased some items from REI. We tried to watch the stand up video again but it wouldn’t work, then he told me about some disease that makes your body twist all up involuntarily. It was nearing 3:30 (time we needed to be back at the car) so we headed toward the “POST” stop and rode it back to “Cooch” St. We went back to his house where we made plans with Ryan for later that night for dinner, movie and party at Kyla’s. We decided to go on a walk to the nature preserve or whatever and both found walking sticks but ended up switching as we picked up sticks better suited for the other than for ourselves. He took me into the woods where we went by this huge, creepy mausoleum and eventually ended up at a pond where we took pictures and sat enjoying the sunset for a little while. On our way back Ian almost stepped on a snake then I saw it and it freaked me out because I almost stepped on it too, then saw a little tiny brown frog, walked back to his house passing the dead rose with the face and busted ass to get ready. We were supposed to be downtown to eat and for the movie, but still hadn’t heard from Nick and Lauren, but went anyway. I got all cute for Kyla’s party because I wanted to make a good impression and didn’t want to look bad in general. We parked and bought tickets for a later show as they were selling out quickly, then went over to the Virginia something for cheap burgers with tots. We talked about where Ryan’s from and I think I told a story that wasn’t very good. Ian kept his hand on my leg as we ate dinner. We headed over to the theater and Ryan and I left Ian outside to find N & L and we got seats. Even though we were like 20 minutes early the theater was packed and we had to sit fairly close to the front but not too bad. We all LOVED Darjeeling Limited and Ian and I held hands through the whole thing. One part made me cry but it was more that I was thinking about Grandpa Smittey than anything. I mean it was obviously a very sad part and the cinematography was beautiful, but I was feeling a bit overwhelmed with the whole thing. We all walked back toward the cars and as we were standing waiting for the light to change to cross, Nick asked if Ryan and myself were going to the party as well and when Ian was like “Duh!” I sidestepped behind the telephone poll, like “No way, I’m outta here, and don’t tell Ian” and N was like “There she went! Where is she going? She just took off across the street!” and Ian was totally baffled and looking and waiting for me to reappear across the street somewhere but I was behind the poll right behind him and I started laughing so hard along with everyone else. Ian was like “Shut uuup!” and like “I was like “What a bitch!”” HahaHAAA. Sucka. We all went to Kyla’s for her housewarming kegger and it was rockin when we got there, had introductions and it was a little intimidating but everyone was really nice. N and L showed up and the four of us (N, L, Ryan and me) ended up hanging in the kitchen for most of the night laughing and joking and taking pictures and making fun of girls eating corndogs. Ian did a keg stand and was disappointed that none of us were there to watch, then was back in and Kyla was doing introductions to Gabby and she was like “This is Ian and this is his…friend…Karrah from Seattle” and I was like “How diplomatic of you Kyla!” and she was like “Fuck it, this is his GIRLFRIEND Karrah” and I just laughed nervously. A little later on, still in our kitchen nook, we started talking about some commercial and I suggested the grandma must have been on a break and Kyla lost it, she was laughing so hard and totally gave me a high-five. We ended up outside to watch Danny do a keg stand but then N and Kyla got into it so they went to make up and Ian took a picture but N is totally looking at K’s boobs in it. Christ though, I couldn’t stop looking at them either. I think everyone was preoccupied. She was like “I know, I’m like “I’m up here!”” and pointing to her face, so that made me laugh. Pretty soon Ian was getting a bit drunk and there were announcements of a dance off in the living room between Ian and Kyla so we all gathered around as the furniture was moved and it was kicked off. Ian narrated as he did it and cracked me up with the “Cleaning the Gutters” move. So it goes back and forth two times then Kyla pulls all the stops out with the corndog and some really suggestive moves so Ian grabs a pillow, throws it on the floor, licks his fingers (inspired by Darjeeling Limited apparently) and throws himself onto the floor as he pretends to have sex with the pillow and use his fingers to, you know. I was so mortified I looked away while covering my face. The crowd judged and Ian won by a landslide. One meathead was like “That was genius!” It was pretty hilarious. Then Nick got out there and had some hilarious moves that I believe were caught on video. Eventually Ian and I were sitting on the couch talking and snuggling and I would glance over in N and L’s direction every once in a while and I felt like N was always kind of looking at me. Maybe I’m paranoid or full of myself, but it happened quite a few times that evening. Whatevs, I’m not worried. The night was winding down and we decided to go and as I was saying bye to Kyla she gave me multiple hugs and a pep talk about Ian and exes and to let her know if I ever wanted to talk because she understood and has been there. Ian tried to come over and she was like “No, uh uh, leave, we’re talking!” haHA, snap. We went home and talked in bed about Kyla and N and L and how they took him aside and he wanted to make sure I’d enjoyed myself and that I hadn’t felt weird. So that was good, then I totally got off and I didn’t even expect to.
Friday 10/12, Peggy let me leave at 3:30 so I rushed home, showered, grabbed my stuff and headed out. It took me forever (like 3hrs 50min) and Ian called me right as I was pulling up to find out where I was because "everyone" was wagering. That made me nervous, who the hell is there?! Turns out it was only Nick and Ryan, phew. He told me to hurry up and get my ass up there as he watched me from the porch. I went up the stairs and gave him a hug and we just held each other and breathed one another in. It was nice. I met Nick who was helping himself to beer in the fridge and I found him to be quite good looking and very funny. They were all drinking and Ian was all smiley and kept saying hi and giving me googly eyes, which I ate up with a spoon. We all sat in the living room talking and listening to music which was fun but I didn't really know what to do with his friends when he would leave the room. Try and make awkward traffic related conversation I guess. Actually Nick used to work in Seattle or something and lived with his sister in Federal Way. Anyway, we all just sat around talking until it was time for Nick to go pick Lauren up so then it was the three of us but Nick and Lauren were back soon so then it was the five of us looking at the scary pictures the boys had taken of themselves earlier in the evening. I talked to Lauren a bit and eventually everyone cleared out and it was just the two of us. Ian put the couch down and we laid there for a long time talking about drugs and I was quite relieved to learn his stance and what he’d done earlier that night. It made me feel special but at the same time I told him that I don’t expect him to adopt my stance. It’s just not realistic. I told him about exes and my experience and siblings and other things. We kissed and snuggled though I was careful to avoid any quick jabbing motions toward his pelvis. We started getting ready for bed because we were both tired and he had a headache but as I was getting ready he turned on a Cate Blanchett interview and we watched that for a little while. We ended up in bed talking some more and trying to watch some standup comic he liked until about 12:30.
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