Tuesday 1/8, I called Ky back on my way home and we chatted as I shopped at Fred Meyer about plans and K and R and I told him I needed to talk to K before I could commit to bowling. I checked out, picked up my prescription, drove home, unloaded the shit and called K. I told her how I felt and we talked for a while and I was glad that I got it off my chest and she wasn't defensive so overall it was good and I told her we'd probably see her at bowling. I called Ky back and we decided on 7:00 and I hurried to get ready. I steamed some veggies for dinner, grabbed some candy and hit the road. I called Susan on the way and filled her in then Ky hopped in and off we went. We talked all the way there about jobs and such, scored rock star parking and went in where we were greeted with very enthusiastic K hugs. We all went over to the lane they were on and Nicholas was there and looking scruffy but cute and tall as all get out. Ky and I giggled and he played coy when I repeatedly told him I was going to try to have my way with him later in the evening. He'd giggle and put his hand up to his mouth and look away. It was soo funny. We rooted Kay-See on and she got a couple spares from what I remember. Ky and I ordered chicken strips and fries and put everything down. Then we spotted that someone had ordered Chinese next to us but it wasn't getting touched and Ky wanted to steal it. About 20 minutes later it was gone and Ky whined "even the little bowl of rice!" but clarified that he'd be distracted in a few minutes by the next dish brought out. Oooh, beef and broccoli! I talked to N a little and he was again impressed with my Labello love and said he would let me know if he found it somewhere for cheaper than $8 a tube. I decided I wanted a candy bar and bummed 10 cents off Kay-See then I come back into the conversation and N was scoffing that K would think he has "a Kit Kat" and was like "Come on, at least a Baby Ruth or a Butterfinger! A Kit Kat?!" then he posed the question to me, and I was like “Come on, he’s 6’5”, of course he’s got more than a Kit Kat, hellloooo!” Ky and I shared a Twix and tried not to laugh when I did ridiculous things with it in my mouth as K walked up. Ky gave K a breath mint to be funny, all secretive in the hand and caring like. Hmm, what else, talked to Jesse and Jake then Matt showed up and we talked a little and laughed about Raj and how he was actually good for once but it didn't last long. We wrapped things up around 9:45 and promised we'd karaoke next week...assuming K is still in. We discussed what we're bringing to the pot luck and after K left I was like "You should bring your step dad's salad and show up K!" but he's not going to. We gabbed all the way back to Issaquah then I went home and felt good that it wasn't too late. I updated this thing then went to bed.
Monday 1/7, When I got home my new exercise video was waiting for me so after chatting with Susan about the night's plans I called Chrystol and left a message, cleaned J's box, put on my workout gear and popped that sucker in. It was no more than 3 minutes in and I was already huffing and puffing. My workout total was 30 minutes and it kicked my ass. I was exhausted but felt great...until I tried to go up the stairs. My legs almost gave out. C called back during my workout and gave me the skinny on the evening and wished me luck with my video. I ate a salad and some steamed carrots for dinner then showered and prepped for the Mulally / Harborrats show. Schuyler called me and told me Brandon was going to be there because they'd had plans to watch Gladiators and forgot about the show, so I mentally prepped for that. I talked to Susan and told her about my already-achy muscles and she suggested a banana so I fixed myself a smoothie then hit the road. I parked a block away and met Susan then went in. It was very orange in there but I liked it. We found the crew right away and I made the rounds with my greetings. Chrystol, briefly Brandon, Justin, Schuyler and Sam. They were all standing around chatting so it was fun to come into that circle. We started talking about who's on Susan's list and B was like "Am I on your list?" and I was like "HAHAHAA!" you're on someone's list and it might just result in a neck punch. We all chatted about A and his fashion and how he questions Sam before he leaves the house which we kind of got a kick out of. I mostly avoided eye contact with Brandon because I didn't know if he was still thinking that he wants to get back together or what, but that's definitely not on my mind...been there done that, and, no offense to B, I don't feel like I need to go down that road again. I need things that Brandon is unable to give and I'm not willing to compromise on those things. So there we have it. Mulally went on and in the second song Chris looked at me and since I knew the words I kept singing and staring back and kind of challenged him with my eyes and let a small smile creep onto my face and it made him smile then he turned back. It was hilarious and both Susan and Chrystol were laughing and nudging. I know it's bitchy but I hoped B had seen. You broke my heart, so suck it. Augh, get over it Karrah. Moving on. So they played a great set and I kind of danced to some of the songs and sang along with the parts I knew. When they were done we all continued our conversing and I was scolded by C and S about hogging all the Mulally attention, but Susan pointed out that Schuyler got a fair amount as well. Somehow B managed to weasel his way next to me and started talking to me and letting his gaze linger then touched my arm and I was like (internally of course) "Oh Brandon, I sooo don't think so. Never gonnna happen" but I wasn't mean to him or anything. I saw the guy from Kassie's party who looked like he was feeding Kay-See cauliflower but his hair is so long in the back now...he's definitely sporting a mad mullet. Soon the Harborrats went on and Sam thanked people who'd come out to the Friday show and gave Susan and me a shout out which made me squeal a little. They played a song I really liked, Blue Eye Shadow or something and Sam asked if anyone was wearing blue eye shadow then said the next song was called Tire Swing and asked if anyone was wearing a tire, and I thought that was so funny so I loudly guffawed, and I don't know if it was amplified being too close to the mic or what but I feel like I was the only one who laughed and Sam was like "Karrah?" so then I felt embarrassed, but at the same time thought it was hilarious. Their set was really good and I didn't need ear plugs at all and I loved the Backstreet Boys cover and sang along thinking about Kay-See and how excited she would be. I wasn't in love with the last song but every single one of the others I really liked and appreciate that they're all pretty unique sounding and that I feel like every time I see them I'm hearing different songs, which is not always what you get. So yeah, that was cool. After the show we all mingled some more but I needed to get home and to bed so I started saying goodbye to everyone and Susan and I made our way out and apparently B was behind us and was like "Um bye!" so I said bye back but Susan and I were on a mission to get across the street so it was a nonchalant bye and we said bye to each other then I yelled to the boys and walked quickly to my car. I was home later than I'd wanted but it was a fun night so I'm not going to complain.
Sunday 1/6, I woke up at 9 and was still so tired, mad, and just wanted to go back to sleep. But couldn't because I couldn't stop going over what I should have said. Like the fact that they know nothing about the female body and how they're giant tools who have probably never actually satisfied a woman sexually. But I didn't. And couldn't. So I laid in bed and stewed. I called Susan after reading a message from her on myspace that was hilarious asking how I got a gun and how many times I had shot R. I ranted about the last part of my evening then we moved on to more important subjects. After we hung up I called Sos back and ranted to her and she cautioned me to tread lightly and to not fuck up my and K's relationship because she personally knows how that can turn out. She had some very constructive things to say and we planned to hang out if I couldn't remember what my Tuesday night commitment was. I talked to Alix eventually and we made plans to meet at the mall for lunch and a movie. I got ready after using my vibrator purely out of spite (dear god I hope my father never reads this) and got on the road. We had some pizza then went over to our movie (Atonement). It was good but there were a few Cold Mountain rip offs...overall it was good though. Depressing, but good. I love Kiera Knightley's green dress; her back looked amazing. We walked back through the mall and parted. I grocery shopped on the way home then laid in bed and did some blogging before getting back up and heading out the door to family dinner. I arrived first and the rest trickled in. I wasn't hungry so I didn't eat much then we all sat and talked in the family room for a while. I think I'm going to go to Kauai in May and Auntie says it's fine and I can come whenever and stay as long I want. So that's in the works. I just need to make sure going to London in September will work for Jess. I left around 7:30 and talked to Susan when I got home as we watched EHM and she joked about getting "eye fucked by Chris Mulally" at the show the next night. I watched Desperate Housewives and searched Facebook for more contacts and finally figured out how to join the UPS network after some hoop jumping. I reviewed and forwarded an email from Joe regarding the weekend in Sunriver, which I'm still not sure I'm up for. I tried calling Eric after it was over but couldn't leave a message because his mailbox was full. I read a little then saw Ian was online and decided to call him. He said he was glad I called and we proceeded to "drop some knowledge" about new music we've both discovered since last week. It was really nice to talk to him and he clarified what the "word :)" comment meant. I told him about the prior night's events and he scoffed when I told him how argumentative they'd been about the vibes and he was like "I don't know any guy who isn't into that!" and I was like "THANK YOU!" then told him he set the bar too high and that I dread the dating pool if it's filled with this type of close-mindedness. But I don't feel so bad now, I just need to avoid the homophobic frat boy types. Shouldn't be too hard. Which reminds me about something Andy said about "sensativity training" and how all the bouncers wanted him in charge at the new lesbian night at CI because he's got "experience". Ha. So anyway, we talked for a while and he told me nothing has changed and that I should never hesitate to call him because he likes talking to me and encouraged me to continue...so, that was nice. Before we hung up he told me he missed me and quickly added that he hoped it was ok he to say that. I just sighed and told him it was and that I missed him too. After I hung up I tried Eric again and he picked up but asked if he could call me when he got home. I read until he did then we talked about our holidays and I told him how Chrystol and Schuyler had seen him then I ran my HI trip idea by him and he actually sounded half-enthusiastic and declared that if we were there at the same time we better hang out more than once. So that's kind of exciting. Even if Nicole comes it will be fun and I'm sure she's very nice so I'm not worried about any of the complicated stuff arising. If anything it will be fun to hang out with him in a different environment and possibly show him around since I'm half on the inside track. I'm sure Kalei will be totally fascinated about the situation. I can't wait to see him. We hung up and I went to bed though it took me a while to fall asleep because the wheels were turning.
Saturday 1/5, I slept until almost 10, which is when Courtney called me, and it felt great. I called Grandma and she was up, dressed and ready for the day and our lunch date. I called Courtney back and continued to lay in bed watching tv. I filled her in on everything with Ian and she expressed her sympathy but more exciting than that, she's planning a trip up here during her spring break. I'm so excited and Sos and I are going to have to plan some fun things for the three of us to do. After that I called Auntie Lauryn and she planned to call me when they were out the door. I got ready, talked to Susan for a long time then Auntie buzzed in multiple times so I hung up with Susan. They had to turn around twice so finally AL decided to come alone and arrived around 2. We went to Pogacha for lunch and I had the pear and gorgonzola ravioli and it was sooo good. Then we went over to Sweet Addition to pick up some cheesecake squares, then Petco, then Looks where I got a bunch of hilarious cards, then Hallmark so Auntie could get a little calendar. We went back to my house so she could check her email so we sat in the living room, listening to music, and playing on our computers. I played with Jacques a little too and brushed him. Kay-See called to say she couldn't do dinner and was all stressed out because her and Ryan had gotten in a fight about the evening because apparently he thought they were hanging out, but she clarified that we were still going dancing. AL left and I went to lay in bed because I was tired and ended up falling asleep around 6:30 and woke up at 8. I talked to K again who then informed me that Ryan and his friend would be joining us and I was like "Uuuuuugggghhhhhh" are you kidding? It was supposed to be a girls' night and here was Ryan, horning in to baby-sit. I called Susan in a rage and she said if I decided I didn't want to go I could go to her house. I decided to mull it over in the shower and ended up calling K back after my shower to confirm we were still going to Belltown Billiards because if we weren't I was going to just stay home. We were so we decided to meet at Cyclops and I finished getting ready and drove into Seattle. I parked a block up and called K who met me outside. I met Kyle, R's friend, and we sat at the bar for a little bit before heading over to BB. (Note: Kyle, R’s friend, was dreading going and is an out of towner so why wouldn't Ryan take him out and have a guys' night?) We stood in line for a few minutes then I got my chance to flirt with the cute bouncer, telling him he looked warm and he confirmed. Heh. Let the games begin! We went in and waited for the boys to get situated then hit the dance floor. There weren't very many cute guys, except one playing pool who looked like Zeph a little but a little scruffier and I made eye contact with him a few times but that was it. On the dance floor K kept trying to push me into these guys who were semi-cute and I scolded her. Then there were these girls gettin DOWN and K was like "Wow, they're like professionals" and as I started to give her a skeptical "No they're not" look, she specified "You know, like, strippers" and I almost fell over from laughing so hard. Some guy kept trying to talk to me after some bitch pushed me and almost knocked me over and he was like "No more drinks for you" and I screeched "That bitch pushed me! I don't even drink!" As we were migrating on the floor some girl elbowed K and not even discreetly, so we were like "Ok short stack, watch it" then some big ghetto lookin girls pushed their way over and we were waiting for the midget to push one of them and K leaned in with the most excited look on her face waiting for something to go down. It was so funny. We went back and forth from sitting by the boys as they played pool and dancing and at one point Kyle apologized for being a dick about being there and told me that he was only there for "them" (K and R) and I was like "Well I was under the impression this was supposed to be a girls' night" and he was like "Yeah, well, same here" so now I'm even more perplexed why the hell Ryan insisted on coming along; clearly they weren't enjoying themselves that much, and it's not like R was dancing with K, so why was it so necessary that he be there? Whatever. Then Kyle started in on me on why I don't drink and kept saying it must be religious and that I must be Mormon after repeated attempts telling him I'm agnostic he was like "Uggg, lighten up, have a beer, Jesus!" I was like "Um, fuck you" but instead I just left to do a lap. Eventually K and I made it back out there and some guy went by us but stopped short when he realized how tall I am and put his arm around my waist and was like, "We look good together" but then called me a liar and cheater because I was wearing heels. It was funny and he kept a tight hold on me and introduced himself, Nick. We talked for a little while then he left, but I saw him later with a girl and I was like "Tsk tsk, Nick" but would have made out with him probably if the situation presented itself. K and I ran out to get her a hot dog because she wasn't feeling good and as we're standing in line K was like "I want a BIG one!" and the guy in front of her looked all flustered and we cackled away. Then I was like "I've had a big one, and it kind of hurts, I think I need a not so big one!" and continued to laugh. The guys behind us tried to talk to us but we got the dog before too much was exchanged. We went back in and Ryan was trying to get me to play a game of doubles, but we all know how I feel about games, especially pool, and was asking over and over again and I kept saying no. I told K that obviously he didn't understand that the more he asked the more I enjoyed saying no. Then he said to K "Talk to her" and turned and walked away, like it was the end of the world that Ryan wasn't getting his way. Haha, I will not bend to your wishes, especially when I don’t play games. For anyone. Unless it’s Apples to Apples or a murder mystery one. Or T or D. We waited for the guys to finish their game then left. I told K I would drive them back since they'd taken a cab there so we all walked and talked and it was fine until we got into the car. The topic of porn and vibrators came up and R starts blabbing about K and this is in front of one of his friends about personal stuff and I'm just sitting there in shock until both of the boys start in on how "weird" it is if a girl uses a vibrator, and I was like "rrrrRRRRrrrrr, what?!" Ryan was being so argumentative and talking over K and me and was totally missing the point. Then Kyle starts in about how EVERY guy thinks it's weird if a girl uses a vibrator and I was like "Um, no, I've dated several guys who don't care at all" and he states dismissively "You're not a guy, you don't know" at which point I almost drove up onto the sidewalk to kick them out. I was so mad I started yelling. So then Kyle presents a scenario "Well, what would you do if a guy you were dating used a fake vagina?" and K was like "Well isn't your hand kind of like that?" and I was yelling "Who cares?! I wouldn't care, what skin is it off my ass?! I DON'T CARE!" and he's like "No, you would care, I don't care what you say" and I start yelling "Great! You tell ME how I feel!" thinking I don't have an opinion or something and that I can't possibly know what I'm talking about when it comes to getting off. I just started yelling "YOU'RE RIGHT, YOU'RE RIGHT! You know ME!" then we pulled up and I was like "BYE!" like get the fuck out of my car. Then dumb ass Kyle was like "You should park and come up so we can keep talking about this" and I was like "I don't think so" then he asked again and I was like, super sarcastically "Ok sure, I'll be right up!" and he's like "You're not coming up are you?" and I was like "Nope, shut my door" and sped off. I was so fucking mad. I started bawling on the way home thinking, is this what I have to look forward to? This is why I don't date frat guys. And why I'm not about to start. Maybe all women should just pretend it's still the 50's and be happy with being sexually repressed! Yay! I started thinking about Ian and how he would NEVER say shit like that, especially in front of his friends and especially about personal stuff about me. Actually, none of the guys I've dated would say any of that. And if they did that would be the first and last time because I would kick their ass to the curb or put them in their place right there. So yeah, I cried all the way home I was so mad. Once again Ryan managed to ruin my night. When I got home I couldn't go to sleep for a long time because I was seething and saying in my head all things I wished I could have said to them.
Monday 1/7, When I got home my new exercise video was waiting for me so after chatting with Susan about the night's plans I called Chrystol and left a message, cleaned J's box, put on my workout gear and popped that sucker in. It was no more than 3 minutes in and I was already huffing and puffing. My workout total was 30 minutes and it kicked my ass. I was exhausted but felt great...until I tried to go up the stairs. My legs almost gave out. C called back during my workout and gave me the skinny on the evening and wished me luck with my video. I ate a salad and some steamed carrots for dinner then showered and prepped for the Mulally / Harborrats show. Schuyler called me and told me Brandon was going to be there because they'd had plans to watch Gladiators and forgot about the show, so I mentally prepped for that. I talked to Susan and told her about my already-achy muscles and she suggested a banana so I fixed myself a smoothie then hit the road. I parked a block away and met Susan then went in. It was very orange in there but I liked it. We found the crew right away and I made the rounds with my greetings. Chrystol, briefly Brandon, Justin, Schuyler and Sam. They were all standing around chatting so it was fun to come into that circle. We started talking about who's on Susan's list and B was like "Am I on your list?" and I was like "HAHAHAA!" you're on someone's list and it might just result in a neck punch. We all chatted about A and his fashion and how he questions Sam before he leaves the house which we kind of got a kick out of. I mostly avoided eye contact with Brandon because I didn't know if he was still thinking that he wants to get back together or what, but that's definitely not on my mind...been there done that, and, no offense to B, I don't feel like I need to go down that road again. I need things that Brandon is unable to give and I'm not willing to compromise on those things. So there we have it. Mulally went on and in the second song Chris looked at me and since I knew the words I kept singing and staring back and kind of challenged him with my eyes and let a small smile creep onto my face and it made him smile then he turned back. It was hilarious and both Susan and Chrystol were laughing and nudging. I know it's bitchy but I hoped B had seen. You broke my heart, so suck it. Augh, get over it Karrah. Moving on. So they played a great set and I kind of danced to some of the songs and sang along with the parts I knew. When they were done we all continued our conversing and I was scolded by C and S about hogging all the Mulally attention, but Susan pointed out that Schuyler got a fair amount as well. Somehow B managed to weasel his way next to me and started talking to me and letting his gaze linger then touched my arm and I was like (internally of course) "Oh Brandon, I sooo don't think so. Never gonnna happen" but I wasn't mean to him or anything. I saw the guy from Kassie's party who looked like he was feeding Kay-See cauliflower but his hair is so long in the back now...he's definitely sporting a mad mullet. Soon the Harborrats went on and Sam thanked people who'd come out to the Friday show and gave Susan and me a shout out which made me squeal a little. They played a song I really liked, Blue Eye Shadow or something and Sam asked if anyone was wearing blue eye shadow then said the next song was called Tire Swing and asked if anyone was wearing a tire, and I thought that was so funny so I loudly guffawed, and I don't know if it was amplified being too close to the mic or what but I feel like I was the only one who laughed and Sam was like "Karrah?" so then I felt embarrassed, but at the same time thought it was hilarious. Their set was really good and I didn't need ear plugs at all and I loved the Backstreet Boys cover and sang along thinking about Kay-See and how excited she would be. I wasn't in love with the last song but every single one of the others I really liked and appreciate that they're all pretty unique sounding and that I feel like every time I see them I'm hearing different songs, which is not always what you get. So yeah, that was cool. After the show we all mingled some more but I needed to get home and to bed so I started saying goodbye to everyone and Susan and I made our way out and apparently B was behind us and was like "Um bye!" so I said bye back but Susan and I were on a mission to get across the street so it was a nonchalant bye and we said bye to each other then I yelled to the boys and walked quickly to my car. I was home later than I'd wanted but it was a fun night so I'm not going to complain.
Sunday 1/6, I woke up at 9 and was still so tired, mad, and just wanted to go back to sleep. But couldn't because I couldn't stop going over what I should have said. Like the fact that they know nothing about the female body and how they're giant tools who have probably never actually satisfied a woman sexually. But I didn't. And couldn't. So I laid in bed and stewed. I called Susan after reading a message from her on myspace that was hilarious asking how I got a gun and how many times I had shot R. I ranted about the last part of my evening then we moved on to more important subjects. After we hung up I called Sos back and ranted to her and she cautioned me to tread lightly and to not fuck up my and K's relationship because she personally knows how that can turn out. She had some very constructive things to say and we planned to hang out if I couldn't remember what my Tuesday night commitment was. I talked to Alix eventually and we made plans to meet at the mall for lunch and a movie. I got ready after using my vibrator purely out of spite (dear god I hope my father never reads this) and got on the road. We had some pizza then went over to our movie (Atonement). It was good but there were a few Cold Mountain rip offs...overall it was good though. Depressing, but good. I love Kiera Knightley's green dress; her back looked amazing. We walked back through the mall and parted. I grocery shopped on the way home then laid in bed and did some blogging before getting back up and heading out the door to family dinner. I arrived first and the rest trickled in. I wasn't hungry so I didn't eat much then we all sat and talked in the family room for a while. I think I'm going to go to Kauai in May and Auntie says it's fine and I can come whenever and stay as long I want. So that's in the works. I just need to make sure going to London in September will work for Jess. I left around 7:30 and talked to Susan when I got home as we watched EHM and she joked about getting "eye fucked by Chris Mulally" at the show the next night. I watched Desperate Housewives and searched Facebook for more contacts and finally figured out how to join the UPS network after some hoop jumping. I reviewed and forwarded an email from Joe regarding the weekend in Sunriver, which I'm still not sure I'm up for. I tried calling Eric after it was over but couldn't leave a message because his mailbox was full. I read a little then saw Ian was online and decided to call him. He said he was glad I called and we proceeded to "drop some knowledge" about new music we've both discovered since last week. It was really nice to talk to him and he clarified what the "word :)" comment meant. I told him about the prior night's events and he scoffed when I told him how argumentative they'd been about the vibes and he was like "I don't know any guy who isn't into that!" and I was like "THANK YOU!" then told him he set the bar too high and that I dread the dating pool if it's filled with this type of close-mindedness. But I don't feel so bad now, I just need to avoid the homophobic frat boy types. Shouldn't be too hard. Which reminds me about something Andy said about "sensativity training" and how all the bouncers wanted him in charge at the new lesbian night at CI because he's got "experience". Ha. So anyway, we talked for a while and he told me nothing has changed and that I should never hesitate to call him because he likes talking to me and encouraged me to continue...so, that was nice. Before we hung up he told me he missed me and quickly added that he hoped it was ok he to say that. I just sighed and told him it was and that I missed him too. After I hung up I tried Eric again and he picked up but asked if he could call me when he got home. I read until he did then we talked about our holidays and I told him how Chrystol and Schuyler had seen him then I ran my HI trip idea by him and he actually sounded half-enthusiastic and declared that if we were there at the same time we better hang out more than once. So that's kind of exciting. Even if Nicole comes it will be fun and I'm sure she's very nice so I'm not worried about any of the complicated stuff arising. If anything it will be fun to hang out with him in a different environment and possibly show him around since I'm half on the inside track. I'm sure Kalei will be totally fascinated about the situation. I can't wait to see him. We hung up and I went to bed though it took me a while to fall asleep because the wheels were turning.
Saturday 1/5, I slept until almost 10, which is when Courtney called me, and it felt great. I called Grandma and she was up, dressed and ready for the day and our lunch date. I called Courtney back and continued to lay in bed watching tv. I filled her in on everything with Ian and she expressed her sympathy but more exciting than that, she's planning a trip up here during her spring break. I'm so excited and Sos and I are going to have to plan some fun things for the three of us to do. After that I called Auntie Lauryn and she planned to call me when they were out the door. I got ready, talked to Susan for a long time then Auntie buzzed in multiple times so I hung up with Susan. They had to turn around twice so finally AL decided to come alone and arrived around 2. We went to Pogacha for lunch and I had the pear and gorgonzola ravioli and it was sooo good. Then we went over to Sweet Addition to pick up some cheesecake squares, then Petco, then Looks where I got a bunch of hilarious cards, then Hallmark so Auntie could get a little calendar. We went back to my house so she could check her email so we sat in the living room, listening to music, and playing on our computers. I played with Jacques a little too and brushed him. Kay-See called to say she couldn't do dinner and was all stressed out because her and Ryan had gotten in a fight about the evening because apparently he thought they were hanging out, but she clarified that we were still going dancing. AL left and I went to lay in bed because I was tired and ended up falling asleep around 6:30 and woke up at 8. I talked to K again who then informed me that Ryan and his friend would be joining us and I was like "Uuuuuugggghhhhhh" are you kidding? It was supposed to be a girls' night and here was Ryan, horning in to baby-sit. I called Susan in a rage and she said if I decided I didn't want to go I could go to her house. I decided to mull it over in the shower and ended up calling K back after my shower to confirm we were still going to Belltown Billiards because if we weren't I was going to just stay home. We were so we decided to meet at Cyclops and I finished getting ready and drove into Seattle. I parked a block up and called K who met me outside. I met Kyle, R's friend, and we sat at the bar for a little bit before heading over to BB. (Note: Kyle, R’s friend, was dreading going and is an out of towner so why wouldn't Ryan take him out and have a guys' night?) We stood in line for a few minutes then I got my chance to flirt with the cute bouncer, telling him he looked warm and he confirmed. Heh. Let the games begin! We went in and waited for the boys to get situated then hit the dance floor. There weren't very many cute guys, except one playing pool who looked like Zeph a little but a little scruffier and I made eye contact with him a few times but that was it. On the dance floor K kept trying to push me into these guys who were semi-cute and I scolded her. Then there were these girls gettin DOWN and K was like "Wow, they're like professionals" and as I started to give her a skeptical "No they're not" look, she specified "You know, like, strippers" and I almost fell over from laughing so hard. Some guy kept trying to talk to me after some bitch pushed me and almost knocked me over and he was like "No more drinks for you" and I screeched "That bitch pushed me! I don't even drink!" As we were migrating on the floor some girl elbowed K and not even discreetly, so we were like "Ok short stack, watch it" then some big ghetto lookin girls pushed their way over and we were waiting for the midget to push one of them and K leaned in with the most excited look on her face waiting for something to go down. It was so funny. We went back and forth from sitting by the boys as they played pool and dancing and at one point Kyle apologized for being a dick about being there and told me that he was only there for "them" (K and R) and I was like "Well I was under the impression this was supposed to be a girls' night" and he was like "Yeah, well, same here" so now I'm even more perplexed why the hell Ryan insisted on coming along; clearly they weren't enjoying themselves that much, and it's not like R was dancing with K, so why was it so necessary that he be there? Whatever. Then Kyle started in on me on why I don't drink and kept saying it must be religious and that I must be Mormon after repeated attempts telling him I'm agnostic he was like "Uggg, lighten up, have a beer, Jesus!" I was like "Um, fuck you" but instead I just left to do a lap. Eventually K and I made it back out there and some guy went by us but stopped short when he realized how tall I am and put his arm around my waist and was like, "We look good together" but then called me a liar and cheater because I was wearing heels. It was funny and he kept a tight hold on me and introduced himself, Nick. We talked for a little while then he left, but I saw him later with a girl and I was like "Tsk tsk, Nick" but would have made out with him probably if the situation presented itself. K and I ran out to get her a hot dog because she wasn't feeling good and as we're standing in line K was like "I want a BIG one!" and the guy in front of her looked all flustered and we cackled away. Then I was like "I've had a big one, and it kind of hurts, I think I need a not so big one!" and continued to laugh. The guys behind us tried to talk to us but we got the dog before too much was exchanged. We went back in and Ryan was trying to get me to play a game of doubles, but we all know how I feel about games, especially pool, and was asking over and over again and I kept saying no. I told K that obviously he didn't understand that the more he asked the more I enjoyed saying no. Then he said to K "Talk to her" and turned and walked away, like it was the end of the world that Ryan wasn't getting his way. Haha, I will not bend to your wishes, especially when I don’t play games. For anyone. Unless it’s Apples to Apples or a murder mystery one. Or T or D. We waited for the guys to finish their game then left. I told K I would drive them back since they'd taken a cab there so we all walked and talked and it was fine until we got into the car. The topic of porn and vibrators came up and R starts blabbing about K and this is in front of one of his friends about personal stuff and I'm just sitting there in shock until both of the boys start in on how "weird" it is if a girl uses a vibrator, and I was like "rrrrRRRRrrrrr, what?!" Ryan was being so argumentative and talking over K and me and was totally missing the point. Then Kyle starts in about how EVERY guy thinks it's weird if a girl uses a vibrator and I was like "Um, no, I've dated several guys who don't care at all" and he states dismissively "You're not a guy, you don't know" at which point I almost drove up onto the sidewalk to kick them out. I was so mad I started yelling. So then Kyle presents a scenario "Well, what would you do if a guy you were dating used a fake vagina?" and K was like "Well isn't your hand kind of like that?" and I was yelling "Who cares?! I wouldn't care, what skin is it off my ass?! I DON'T CARE!" and he's like "No, you would care, I don't care what you say" and I start yelling "Great! You tell ME how I feel!" thinking I don't have an opinion or something and that I can't possibly know what I'm talking about when it comes to getting off. I just started yelling "YOU'RE RIGHT, YOU'RE RIGHT! You know ME!" then we pulled up and I was like "BYE!" like get the fuck out of my car. Then dumb ass Kyle was like "You should park and come up so we can keep talking about this" and I was like "I don't think so" then he asked again and I was like, super sarcastically "Ok sure, I'll be right up!" and he's like "You're not coming up are you?" and I was like "Nope, shut my door" and sped off. I was so fucking mad. I started bawling on the way home thinking, is this what I have to look forward to? This is why I don't date frat guys. And why I'm not about to start. Maybe all women should just pretend it's still the 50's and be happy with being sexually repressed! Yay! I started thinking about Ian and how he would NEVER say shit like that, especially in front of his friends and especially about personal stuff about me. Actually, none of the guys I've dated would say any of that. And if they did that would be the first and last time because I would kick their ass to the curb or put them in their place right there. So yeah, I cried all the way home I was so mad. Once again Ryan managed to ruin my night. When I got home I couldn't go to sleep for a long time because I was seething and saying in my head all things I wished I could have said to them.
posted by Karrah at 7:57 PM
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