Thursday 4/3, Peggy let me leave a little earlier than I had planned so at 12:30 I took off for home, showered, fed the cat, packed up the rest of my stuff, loaded the car, grabbed my snacks and hit the road. I made pretty good time and made one stop north of Portland about 35 minutes to use the bathroom and let J out to have some water but he wouldn't drink any and I decided to just leave him out of the carrier. He stopped meowing for the most part and I kept on. I called Ian and made it to his place about 20 minutes later. I pulled up but didn't want J to bolt so I was trying to figure out my strategy to get out when Ian manifested outside his door and looked as cute as always. I got out and left J, went up the stairs and got a long wonderful hug. It felt really good and I wanted to be in that moment for a lot longer than I was. I said hi to Ryan and Ian ended up getting a call or something so I went down to try and figure things out with the cat then went back up. We chatted for a minute then decided to go to DQ and I couldn't stop hitting him on the arm and telling him how good it was to see him. I told him to feel my arm and he seemed impressed then he made me feel his and I almost passed out. I don’t think I’ve ever felt a bicep like that and it was totally hot. I was like “Oh Ian!” and coyly smiled. At DQ I didn't get anything but he got a medium blizzard and he shared and we sat outside chatting about the Ryans and the non-model he was excited to meet until he actually did. We went back in to get Ryan's and Ian clarified to the guy that it wasn't for him. We walked back and talked about his trip to HI, dropped off the blizzard and headed out for another walk into Selwood looking at shops, restaurants and bars. He told me about some disgusting spider in Iraq and how it bit off some guy's thumb and they can run 10mph. We sat on a bench by the funeral home that we've visited before and he showed me pictures of the things on his “iphone”. I asked if it was weird, referring to us hanging out but not being together, and he said no and asked me if I thought it was weird and I said no too. It felt really nice. Then he asked if I've dated anyone and I hemmed and hawed for a second and said yes and he asked if it was an ex, no, so I told him a little about Erik laugh then told him about Eric and he said he had a feeling which floored me and that he remembered him from the brunch we'd had when he'd visited Seattle the last time. I asked him if he's dated and he said yes, some girl that wanted a relationship and he made out with some girl he said was kind of retarded that Nick and Lauren made fun of him for. It was hard to hear it but I didn’t cry or anything, and he could tell so he asked me if it was hard and I told him of course and he kind of rubbed my back and apologized. We headed back and some kid in a boat of a car yelled "faggot!" at Ian and I started cracking up and he asked what he's said and I told him and he was all offended. But then I pointed out that the kid was the one in the car with four other guys and he was the one walking with a girl. We kept walking and talking and discussed the girls who were mixed up for a long time. Back at Ian's we decided to head out to dinner and told Ryan to meet us at the trivia place later and asked if we could put the cat in the bathroom. J was upset and didn't even want his dinner so I hoped it would be gone by the time I got back. I brought my luggage up and we took off for Montage, but called Ryan a few minutes out to invite him along. We got a table and chatted until R got there and all the macaroni stuff on the menu looked wonderful and the leftover figures were great. I got just the regular one and it was sooo good. I ate all of it with no problem. Electrelane's "No Shouts No Calls" was on and it just made it that much more ironic that we were there spending time together. Dinner was good and it was almost time for the trivia so we packed up with Ian's scorpion and headed to Merde. Got a table and Nick texted in with the team name "Bush Don't Lie, it Just Hide the Truth" which we all agreed was good. When they arrived and the game started the group next to us stole one of the prior team names "Patrick Swayze's Pancreas" just replacing "Hair". The questions were really hard and I think I only helped with the stock exchange ones and maybe a song but not the SP one and felt terribly guilty for it. Ian kept kind of rubbing my back and it made me miss him even more. Ah well. We came in second place which was pretty good considering the questions were really hard. I said bye to Nick and Lauren and told them if they're in Seattle to let me know and got hugs and I just really like them and think they're so fun. And funny; they're both hilarious. Separately and playing off each other. We walked out talking with them then some homeless guys were getting all up in the rockabillies faces. We drove back and Ian said he didn't feel comfortable with either of us sleeping on the couch and that he would really love me to sleep in his bed with him and I told him my position being I already felt like I was imposing and didn't want him to feel obligated or like I expected him to do that. He said he respects me and wants us to continue being friends and it would be different if we were seeing people but that it would be ok if I didn't mind. I told him I didn't and that I could get all kinds of sentimental on him. He told me to and I said he knows I think he's wonderful and that I still care about him a lot then we pulled up so I stopped. He wants to keep things plutonic, which I don’t necessarily disagree with. We went in and started getting ready for bed and while I was waiting for Ryan to be done he opened his presents and I got a couple cheek kisses and lots of hugs. He laid on his back and told me to come over to him so I laid on him and we just held each other. God I miss him. He did some reps in front of the mirror and I couldn’t stop laughing and he couldn’t finish. I got ready and climbed into bed and he instantly pulled me into him and it was really really really nice. We fell asleep like that and it made me so happy. In the middle of the night he would put his legs over mine or put his arm around my middle and it would make me smile. It made up for me sleeping like shit.
Wednesday 4/2, Sos came to work on my lunch break and brought a wonderful homemade Mexican tortilla chicken soup that was sooo good. Plus she brought cheese, extra tortillas and avocado to throw in. She brought a salad with brie and a yummy vinaigrette. PLUS a piece of homemade cheesecake that was delicious! We had fun chatting on the deck and it was so warm I took my coat off and we basked in the sun. We talked about Ian and Eric and her sisters and Jake and how things are going with them and their goal of becoming healthier and more active. After work I started cleaning and tried to fix my f-ing vacuum and called Dyson and the guy helped me fix it over the phone. I packed and cleaned then ate dinner and way too much sugar for dessert, talked to Susan and she wished me luck and told me to run over D and steal all his money. I watched ANTM and wrapped presents then showered and did a few more things and decided to leave the rest for the next day. I called Ian and we chatted about plans and his ailment and a procedure he has to have which sucks but I was glad he was filling me in on some of what's going on with him. I feel like I have just no idea what he's doing or how he is or any kind of connection at all. So I was really looking forward to seeing him and getting to spend some time catching up. He said he hopes he’s not sterile but if he is then “Hey, what’s up?” which made me laugh and told him not to tease me.
Tuesday 4/1, I was tired after work but the sun was out and I needed to keep on my working out regimen. I knew I had to hurry because I had to go into Seattle to pick up Kassie’s product so I ran most of it but not as much as the day before. It’s ok though, some of my joints were a bit sore. I steamed some veggies, called Sean to make sure he would still be there and hit the road. He gave me a hard time for not going to his show and I gave him a hard time for not having her shampoo. Their show went well and the lighting was done by the gays and made everyone look really skinny. He made reference to some comedian on King of Queens and I was like “You don’t like that show do you? Because if you do, you just killed it. There goes my crush, right out the window” and the other hair girl said something similar, minus the crush part and he laughed and said he didn’t but something about that guy. I don’t even remember…maybe he didn’t even finish the story after that. I told him I’d see him in about two weeks for my cut, which is way overdue. I think it’s been like 2 months. I headed home and had a salad and half a sandwich while watching Biggest Loser and cleaning up the kitchen. I talked to Susan and kept packing and went to bed.
Monday 3/31, I got off work a bit early and was determined to do my run / walk, and though it wasn’t the long one it was better than nothing. It was cold and windy and a bit rainy so the conditions kind of sucked but I ran almost the entire thing and felt really good about it and made it back in exactly 30 minutes. I just couldn’t run up the hills. I showered when I got home and threw in some more laundry and worked on packing and cleaning. For dinner I had a salad, steamed broccoli and carrots and finished off the brie. I watched Dancing with the Stars off and on and talked to Susan before Bachelor. I hate that Shayne girl - I wish a car would run her over. I went to bed a bit later than I should have.
Sunday 3/30, I got up around 9, talked to Susan and told her I didn't think I was going to go into Seattle to hang out because I had a ton of stuff to do around the house (a whole list's worth!). I left to get my oil changed and they told me what the recommended maintenance was on it so I called Dad and he said to do all of it (replace oil filter, flush radiator, front and back differentials) and they gave me 10% off. Score! I tried to read my Kauai book but the guy kept chatting with me, which was fine because he was friendly, but I didn't want him getting any ideas. Dad called me back so we talked about the trip to see Kassie, Chrystol and Schuyler and how they're not Kay-See and Ryan, Jessica's visit and some other little things. The guy kept chatting with me after I hung up then my car was done and he told whoever he was on the phone with to hold on so he could say bye to me. I headed home to eat a little something then set out for Walgreens where I chose which pictures to develop and Home Depot for a heat lamp bulb then to the store for groceries. At home I steamed carrots and green beans and ate brie and baguette and cleaned the kitchen and pulled out glasses to take to Kassie's. I did some laundry and went down to the garage and broke down a bunch of boxes and rearranged a little bit and put some stuff in my car to take to Mom's for goodwill. I talked to Kassie and she gave me a list of things she wanted me to bring, including a bunch of DaVines so I knew I had to go into Seattle for a little Sean-visit. I was a little tired so I crawled into bed and put on Broken Flowers and fell asleep about 15 minutes into it and woke up when he was on his way to the third ex. I called Susan and we talked about our days then it was more organizing. I fed J and went over to Mom's where we had a wonderful beef and mushroom stew over cornbread, and though it was different than Fields' wife's it was really good. Brownies after dinner were good too. Dad ran some diagnostics on my computer and cleaned a bunch of shit up as I talked to Mom. I stayed until about 7:30 then went home. I snacked on M&Ms as I updated and watched tv. I called Ian to see if it was still ok for me to stay with him and he said of course. He said Lexi had been there and had been asking if he was heartbroken over me and he was like (to me) "No offense, but that's kind of old news" and I was like "Gee, thanks!" Jerk. I told him I was blogging and he was all upset that he can't find it and I didn't want to say it but it wouldn't be hard to find if you didn't have the address. All you need are about three key words and POOF! You've found it. His state was "lost" on me. He was like "So I'll see you next Thursday" and I was like "No, you'll see me this Thursday, Stoney. Better write that down somewhere" to which I received "Shut up". Hahaaa! I'm Karrah, I'm hilarious! I read a bit before going to sleep.
Wednesday 4/2, Sos came to work on my lunch break and brought a wonderful homemade Mexican tortilla chicken soup that was sooo good. Plus she brought cheese, extra tortillas and avocado to throw in. She brought a salad with brie and a yummy vinaigrette. PLUS a piece of homemade cheesecake that was delicious! We had fun chatting on the deck and it was so warm I took my coat off and we basked in the sun. We talked about Ian and Eric and her sisters and Jake and how things are going with them and their goal of becoming healthier and more active. After work I started cleaning and tried to fix my f-ing vacuum and called Dyson and the guy helped me fix it over the phone. I packed and cleaned then ate dinner and way too much sugar for dessert, talked to Susan and she wished me luck and told me to run over D and steal all his money. I watched ANTM and wrapped presents then showered and did a few more things and decided to leave the rest for the next day. I called Ian and we chatted about plans and his ailment and a procedure he has to have which sucks but I was glad he was filling me in on some of what's going on with him. I feel like I have just no idea what he's doing or how he is or any kind of connection at all. So I was really looking forward to seeing him and getting to spend some time catching up. He said he hopes he’s not sterile but if he is then “Hey, what’s up?” which made me laugh and told him not to tease me.
Tuesday 4/1, I was tired after work but the sun was out and I needed to keep on my working out regimen. I knew I had to hurry because I had to go into Seattle to pick up Kassie’s product so I ran most of it but not as much as the day before. It’s ok though, some of my joints were a bit sore. I steamed some veggies, called Sean to make sure he would still be there and hit the road. He gave me a hard time for not going to his show and I gave him a hard time for not having her shampoo. Their show went well and the lighting was done by the gays and made everyone look really skinny. He made reference to some comedian on King of Queens and I was like “You don’t like that show do you? Because if you do, you just killed it. There goes my crush, right out the window” and the other hair girl said something similar, minus the crush part and he laughed and said he didn’t but something about that guy. I don’t even remember…maybe he didn’t even finish the story after that. I told him I’d see him in about two weeks for my cut, which is way overdue. I think it’s been like 2 months. I headed home and had a salad and half a sandwich while watching Biggest Loser and cleaning up the kitchen. I talked to Susan and kept packing and went to bed.
Monday 3/31, I got off work a bit early and was determined to do my run / walk, and though it wasn’t the long one it was better than nothing. It was cold and windy and a bit rainy so the conditions kind of sucked but I ran almost the entire thing and felt really good about it and made it back in exactly 30 minutes. I just couldn’t run up the hills. I showered when I got home and threw in some more laundry and worked on packing and cleaning. For dinner I had a salad, steamed broccoli and carrots and finished off the brie. I watched Dancing with the Stars off and on and talked to Susan before Bachelor. I hate that Shayne girl - I wish a car would run her over. I went to bed a bit later than I should have.
Sunday 3/30, I got up around 9, talked to Susan and told her I didn't think I was going to go into Seattle to hang out because I had a ton of stuff to do around the house (a whole list's worth!). I left to get my oil changed and they told me what the recommended maintenance was on it so I called Dad and he said to do all of it (replace oil filter, flush radiator, front and back differentials) and they gave me 10% off. Score! I tried to read my Kauai book but the guy kept chatting with me, which was fine because he was friendly, but I didn't want him getting any ideas. Dad called me back so we talked about the trip to see Kassie, Chrystol and Schuyler and how they're not Kay-See and Ryan, Jessica's visit and some other little things. The guy kept chatting with me after I hung up then my car was done and he told whoever he was on the phone with to hold on so he could say bye to me. I headed home to eat a little something then set out for Walgreens where I chose which pictures to develop and Home Depot for a heat lamp bulb then to the store for groceries. At home I steamed carrots and green beans and ate brie and baguette and cleaned the kitchen and pulled out glasses to take to Kassie's. I did some laundry and went down to the garage and broke down a bunch of boxes and rearranged a little bit and put some stuff in my car to take to Mom's for goodwill. I talked to Kassie and she gave me a list of things she wanted me to bring, including a bunch of DaVines so I knew I had to go into Seattle for a little Sean-visit. I was a little tired so I crawled into bed and put on Broken Flowers and fell asleep about 15 minutes into it and woke up when he was on his way to the third ex. I called Susan and we talked about our days then it was more organizing. I fed J and went over to Mom's where we had a wonderful beef and mushroom stew over cornbread, and though it was different than Fields' wife's it was really good. Brownies after dinner were good too. Dad ran some diagnostics on my computer and cleaned a bunch of shit up as I talked to Mom. I stayed until about 7:30 then went home. I snacked on M&Ms as I updated and watched tv. I called Ian to see if it was still ok for me to stay with him and he said of course. He said Lexi had been there and had been asking if he was heartbroken over me and he was like (to me) "No offense, but that's kind of old news" and I was like "Gee, thanks!" Jerk. I told him I was blogging and he was all upset that he can't find it and I didn't want to say it but it wouldn't be hard to find if you didn't have the address. All you need are about three key words and POOF! You've found it. His state was "lost" on me. He was like "So I'll see you next Thursday" and I was like "No, you'll see me this Thursday, Stoney. Better write that down somewhere" to which I received "Shut up". Hahaaa! I'm Karrah, I'm hilarious! I read a bit before going to sleep.
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